Duel

To you it is a duel
One against one
You say no
I go
When you say stop
I slow
Because I don't want a fight
Love should be a lot easier
Than this 
You confuse me
Call me a fool
This isn't a game
Damn it,
      My heart isn't made for this
I feel many things, sorrow and shame
Confusion and fear
In the end
I wonder
Why do I bother
I don't care who is to blame
This is waste of time
Yours and mine