Monday, October 23, 2017

Dissected Soul

My heart suffocated
From lack of affection
My soul was extricated
By means of dissection

My flesh is cold
From the bleeding
My happiness sold
From the leeches feeding

This life was never yours
Stand back, you evil whores
Sucking out my final breath
No condemnation of my flesh

The demons within will resist
Living within my abyss
I follow no orders but my own
Will continue so
               until dust covers my bones

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Never Camelot

It was never Camelot
But I had hopes
Instead I was caught
Dreaming again
When I broke
You laughed
My soul punished
For the thought
I could be alive
And in love
This suit of armor
Cold steel wrought
And then
You said we could be more
And laughed again
You weren't to be trusted
My heart tied in knots
You couldn't see me
Through the haze of your ego
Burning inside
Hurts more than cyanide
If only I had simply lusted
But no
My heart was sacrificed
For another person's entertainment
Fuck the nuance
The disdain and contempt for me
Was flagrant
And now I spin wildly
As I escape

Saturday, October 21, 2017


Trapped in the isolation ward
Kept prisoner since the desolation war
Every freedom extinguished
The dreams are finished
We have no path to redemption
Only damnation
Only castration
We are the disease
We are the pestilence
The Four Horsemen never need ride
For this world
Has committed suicide
Never knowing for a moment
Not even a second
We've swallowed the cyanide
And we are about to go through the torment
That life requires
When we

Friday, October 20, 2017

Your Labors Save Us

For our family you leave every night
Get on the line and go and fight
Against the dragons who wait
For you to kill them and twist fate
Your clothes black with dirt
And sweat stained
When you return home again

Never lose your way
Never give in to fear
I'll love you no matter
I'll wipe away the tears

You work all night can't sleep in the day
Getting paid the same as an indentured slave
Your body used, wet with sweat
For the dollar to pay the rent
But you deserve so much more
Than getting used and getting bored

Never lose your way
Never give in to fear
I'll love you no matter
I'll wipe away the tears

I miss you when you're gone so long
Your body broken, your dreams gone
There is so little reward and so much regret
No cards or letters, just bills are sent
What you are doing isn't wrong but
You're not a drone working night to dawn

Never lose your way
Never give in to fear
I'll love you no matter
I'll wipe away the tears

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Imagine the exquisite

Now that you've gone
I still linger
In the exquisite scent
You leave me with
Inhaled into my lungs
You are my longing
This will only strengthen
Until we've begun
A dance of ascension
Together in rhythm
With your name upon my lips
I gaze deeply in the eyes
Until I slip
Back into my reality
Dreams are lies
No dancing
No kissing
No sweet vision
No scent to move me
I watched forever pass
Never acting
And now you have gone
Far far from here
I am now imprisoned
Forever for my indecision
Farewell my hopes
Farewell my dream
Be well and happy
So far from me
Be happy
And dream of me

Wednesday, October 18, 2017


Oxygen depletion stealing my breath
Entreaties made, prayers heard
So confused can't see right or left
The lines of reality become blurred
The ice melts in a confluence of blue
The heat rises, the world burns
I can't breathe
My children die
There is no logic that works
This world is absurd
Extinction awaits
We fouled our destiny
Cheated fate
The world's messiah never came
The future is dead
Filled with hate

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Because of the choices

I don't know
How I can survive
I kept hoping
Dreaming it alive
Keeping possible
A different result
But every time
Every time I stop
I hear the voices
Creeping back
Deep inside
It is not a shock
because of the choices
I made
They still
Enslave me
Remake me
Tame me
Make me a lesser man
I'd pray to be redeemed
But there is nothing left
To make new
Only regrets
And false beliefs
I cannot undo

Monday, October 16, 2017

The Search

Camelot once was paradise
High above the problems
Other kingdoms experience
But now
After reaching the height of heavens
We've descended into hell
The people are dying
From hunger
From despair
The entire kingdom shudders
Unprepared, without hope
For the king has retreated
Hiding from the sun
A ghost in his manor 
With the blessing 
Our quest is begun
We are being sent
To help reclaim our land
For our king is ill from sorrow
And the land and he are one

Without our lord
We shall suffer torment
Without our king
The future will be one of regret
Shall we endure life without living
Shall we suffer
Sin without chance of being forgiven?
We can repent
We can forget
But without our king
Our hearts will fail
Our spirits no longer sing
Our lord Arthur called for a quest
Truly a test
Of our endurance
We must find the chalice
A holy relic that is hidden
Beyond the fields we know
Beyond any door
It is more than finding
More than receiving
More than any dream
We cannot find it
Without purifying our spirit
We cannot find it by just believing
We must become holy
This search comes from inside
And ends with ascent
Will we ever find it
Save our king
As he turns pale
From his soul bleeding

Alfred, Lord Tennyson

The sweet vision of the Holy Grail
Drove me from all vainglories, rivalries,
And earthly heats that spring and sparkle out
Among us in the jousts, while women watch
Who wins, who falls; and waste the spiritual strength
Within us, better offered up to Heaven.

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Gone Away

I'd gone away
No need to worry
I was cared for
24 hours a day
My room was quite white
Lovely upon the eyes
Nothing but peaceful sleep
No need to ever lie
I slept most of the time
And performed drama as well
The others I met
Promised to meet me
When we ended up
In Hell

Saturday, October 14, 2017

You never know

You never know do you
Tell me if you read my mind
What was it that I was thinking
My heart is a clock that is ticking
Over and over again
I've called for you
My hopes drown, my heart is sinking
So don't try to say you know
Because you don't
You tell me it is end
It is the beginning
Because I have forever to spend
All that time

Friday, October 13, 2017

Dead man

Hello dead man
I thought you'd gone
Your days were numbered
And the wait was long
Who called you from the grave
Who called you by your name
Hello dead man
Welcome back

How many voices
Told you that life was good
How many choices
Did you make like you should
There is a certain shame
When hopes burn in flame
Hello dead man
Welcome home

What piper plays for you
Do you listen to his song
Hello dead man are you alive
Does it matter right or wrong
We all die just the same
And no one is to blame
Hello dead man
Farewell again

Thursday, October 12, 2017

I want to dance

To my sorrow I bid adieu
I regret that I have more to do
I want to dance with her
To melt together as one
To kiss her lips and neck
I want to hold her hips
Move slowly together
While we measure
How the other moves
I long for her
Willing to go slow
Because I know
Nothing easy is good
Nothing good is easy
I want something true
For now I might refuse my desire
While waiting to receive proof
Found when the world stops
And we become forever

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

With her fingers

With her thin fingers
She beckons to him
To come
But despite her entreaty
He feels distrust
Does not feel welcome
She looks at him
Knowing his resistance
Giggles and lures
With eyes of fire
It is begun
And the knight with armor
Encasing his body
This danger is not physical
And he now is undone
By desire
He becomes liar
To his oath
To be the one
To carry his cross
To lift high the flag
He is a prisoner now
Of his heart
And the fire inside
That cannot be extinguished
Nothing short of suicide
For this warrior
Moved with magical amour
Towards an ardent temptation
Leaving him nothing
But surrender
And defeat
And at last

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Black Haired Danes

They terrorized every neighbor they had
The Danes were destined to the sea
Never thinking in terms of good or bad
The world was there for their reaping

The world met with fear when the Danes appeared

The black haired Danes brought fire to the villages
Drove their ships upon the Saxon shores
The survivors watched in horror as witnesses
Their lands were burnt, the dead covered in gore

Monday, October 9, 2017

Aborted Sorrows

Long ago I forgave
The reason of my rage
It never mattered after that
Now he returns to mind
And I can't respond
Not even sure what I feel inside
My heart so often broken
Can't take more
The wait has been beyond my patience
I will say I forgive and choke upon
The tears of denial
Pray I can move forward
But pain and sorrow freeze me in place
I am grieving
A ghost
Ignoring the horrors
Of a life never meant
To be lived

Sunday, October 8, 2017

The Dream I Had

Evolving from waking to sleep
I become
A pirate on the coasts of Barbary
Becoming liquid and descending to the floor
Watching the parade of ghosts walking
The Walls of Mars tumbling down
I am slain for misleading the sheep
Shattering fear to the very core
Nude and shown to the crowd mocking
Flying above the burnt town, now gone
Changing my state like mercury
Coming undone
Metamorphosis happens as I dream

“Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one
who can only find his way by moonlight,
and his punishment is that he sees the dawn
before the rest of the world.” Oscar Wilde

Saturday, October 7, 2017

First Born

My first born was stolen from me
My heart in astounding grief
The Royal Wife inconsolable
The Hebrews are indomitable
By the slave race this was caused
We ignored them and believed our gods
The Hebrews deserve to be scorned
By their leaders we were warned
Plagues across the Pharaoh's lands
Led to a curse when I rejected their demands
To be released
To be free
And now the cost is my first born
My soul and heart are torn
For every tear the Hebrews will pay
They are playing games
And they will surely lose
As I have lost and been abused

Friday, October 6, 2017

A Life of Conquest

We overcame dangers
Bestial and great
An empire was built
Upon the bones
Of a city of hills
From Rome's beginnings
We were never tamed
Forged in steel
Raised by a she-wolf
The founders built the state
Etruscans and others
Fell before the throne
Excellence was to be our legacy
The Romans allowed no failure
And the Republic rose
Uniting the people
From the tribe of Aeneid
Battle was in our nature
After millennia
We were ready to resume our ascendancy
Carthage, Gaul, the Levant
We were unmatched
Until the fall
And our deeds entered distant memory

Thursday, October 5, 2017

The Ovens, Babi Yar and Vinnitsa

The scent of death is on the wind
Burning corpses in the ovens
None can mistake what is there
A malignant travesty faire
Some will say nothing happened
Others say it is a lie while laughing
The black crows who hunt the Jews
Never miss a chance to separate and choose
Gentile from Jew to satisfy the leaders
And occupy the butcher and cleaver
Shots fired in Babi Yar ravine
More fodder for the death machine
The world has become mute
To the tragedy
As the Einsatzgruppen shoots
The last Jew of Vinnitsa

Photograph copyright the

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

The final act of the final drama

We cannot fight the final battle
It is not a war we can win
The end has been determined
Nor can we retreat into a great castle
For the battle is found within
Our hearts are ever burdened
We are the ones
Our own demons
Our own prison keepers
When we breathe our final breath
We learn the truth
Victory is found in death
We can rise
In our lives
Can be found our proof