I am a poet who has both been published and self published. All work on this blog is all copyright Alex Ness. While I make very little money from my work I am technically a professional. Measuring by the hours I've written I am professional. My goal is to share my work with as many people that can read it, as far as the internet may reach with it. I hope if you are moved you will share this blog with others, and perhaps buy my books.

Whatever the result, thank you for viewing this blog. I cannot express how greatly I appreciate the many people, from many places upon the earth, who have visited.

I bid you peace.

Je ne regrette pas la douleur, il a m'a rendu plus fort.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Lay with me beneath the Lotus tree

My heart awakens
When I see you
It shouts
And I cannot quiet it
I beg you
Shall we lay together
In the summer sun
May I speak
As if we are one
Let me entangle
My flesh
With yours
Tightly wear me
Let me feel what
Love is about
My flesh is weakened
Without your touch
Lift me with your love
While our spirit soars
Press your lips
Across mine
Breathe my air into your mouth
My life energy into your being
I burn inside
From the moment
I see you approach
My eyes never close
Your beauty drives me
My soul was dry
As if in drought
You quench my thirst
Stay with me here
Under the lotus trees
In the shade from the sun lit sky
Your love soothes my heart
Like a gentle breeze
In summer's heat
I love you
Forever more
I can never release
Your hand
Be the flood
Cover my land
With your love
"He lies under the lotus trees, in a covert of reeds and marsh. The lotus trees cover him with their shade; The willows by the brook surround him."

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

No thank you.

How many times
Did you call my name
In despair, needing me?
How many times
Did you ask me to bleed
For the sins of others
Making you scream
Hurting you inside
I begged for you mercy
You gave me pain
I begged for your love
That you never gave
And now when you are alone
You call my name again
Expecting me to fall
But I won't
You taught me a lesson
That I won't forget
I earned it with burning regrets
I can't hear the phone
When you call
Because I hate myself
Whenever I answer
You don't know
How much I bleed
But I know
Loving you
Is a disaster

Friday, July 18, 2014

Angel Cat

You were the one
You were my sole love
Unique in your ways
Ubiquitous in my memories
Forgiving those few moments of rage
Embracing the legacy of your days
With me
Untold are the stories of your suffering
That no words can redeem
When I sleep I dream of your face
Kissing me
Tears don't wipe away the taste
Of sorrow
In me
I still grieve
And your ghost I still chase
Without relent
For the one
Heaven sent

For my angel Mischa, leaving me in 2001.

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Please, no, make no mistake

I never said 
You shouldn't love me
You are mistaken
I said I don't understand
How someone so
Could say she loved me
Who would take my hand
Into hers
Make me fall into her soul
From the love's pull
Like gravity
I never said you shouldn't
I just said
I don't know
How I
Could find someone
So wonderful
It doesn't matter
I don't need to be right
I just need to be

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Cast out, for our selfish need

They wished to gain
Every thing
When they had all
That they would need
But have we ever been 
With what we need
Instead we betrayed 
The provenance
For our promise
In so doing
Throwing away
We denied paradise 
For the wicked desire
To know
From our first breath
Wisdom comes with pain
The gates closed
Guarded and secured
To prevent our entry
How are we simple creatures
To ever be
Returned to that state
Where we are new
Born without
The knowledge of the flesh?