I am a poet who has both been published and self published. All work on this blog is all copyright Alex Ness. While I make very little money from my work I am technically a professional. Measuring by the hours I've written I am professional. My goal is to share my work with as many people that can read it, as far as the internet may reach with it. I hope if you are moved you will share this blog with others, and perhaps buy my books.

Whatever the result, thank you for viewing this blog. I cannot express how greatly I appreciate the many people, from many places upon the earth, who have visited.

I bid you peace.

Je ne regrette pas la douleur, il a m'a rendu plus fort.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Curtain rise, actors act

My heart never took directions well
But I should have listened
And in the absence
I've been in form of hell
Within my silent mind
Waiting for you to call
To speak or yell
Anything to tell me
What you think
I am weak
A fool
Easily distracted
Tell me again
I missed my cue
I miss you
More than anything
I can imagine
And my imagination
Is quite large
Let me be recast
As the actor
In your play
I am begging
For one last chance

Saturday, February 28, 2015

Forgot about

They put me in a can
Tightened the lid
Locked it up
Turned out the light
On the electric grid
Showing them who
Is in which cell
In this concrete and iron
Gray hell
I've searched the cage
There is no escape
Rattled the bars
Screamed for the jailer
I'm stuck inside
Maybe forever
Maybe until
The earth dies
Who am I kidding
They won't leave me behind
Any more than they
Already did
Oh no
This isn't the time
To learn
They've forgotten me
I am not on anyone's mind
God forbid
Oh sweet Jesus
God forbid

Friday, February 27, 2015

Presenting my new Amazon Author Profile Page

Waves of gratitude

Laying there
Like a corpse
My eyes were closed
My body was still
Taking shallow breaths
No one could rouse me
I was asleep in my flesh
Until I heard you speak
I couldn't imagine life
Without pain
By my life
By my failures
I epitomized defeat
But then you came
And I was awakened
You stirred my heart
Into beating
I could be a fool for believing
But you awoke my soul
By giving it wings
And I could fly
By my knowing
That you live
You live

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Sorrow's Song

When I found out
That you were not
Who you said you were
I said just end it
You had pretended
That we were together
But that was a lie
That was a lie
My sorrow began
When your love ended
My tortured life
I began my descent
And my heart
Could not be mended
When you went away
Continued alone
I could never
Transcend this
This sorrow
This path
I am left
To walk
This path
Is beyond me
My soul
By the blade
Of sorrow
And you
Keep walking
I gave my heart
And I was betrayed
Forever and a day
My heart

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

The Disease of Me

Like an abcess
Never removed
After a lifetime
I am purely
Alive but death
Everyone left
They ran from me
Spat upon my face
Died early
Failed the test
Just to escape
Leaving me
Heart broken with a
Ripped open chest
Hated me
Unable to even be
Worth a moment
Of your day
They threw me away
Gave me back
Wished I was dead
Threw me in the trash
An abortion that lived
A day in the life of
A being who survived
But was never forgiven
For the crime of being

Saturday, February 21, 2015

A Prayer

I heard the voice
Through my being it poured
Of the architect of ever
The creator of all
The maker of the entire universe
My heart began to roar
As he called my name
He heard my call
He broke every curse
As I walked through the open door
That he laid there for me
To enter communion
With him
Despite my ugly sins
Despite my dark soul
Despite my hateful being
He has protected me
From every manner of harm
And now
He asked me to come within
His forgiving
His loving
His merciful

Friday, February 20, 2015

In a Cage, In the Asylum

Whatever I did
Whatever I gave
I have nothing more to say
I have nothing more to give
I have nothing I can do
And as of now
I don't even want to live
Everything I have done
Can be cast away
It didn't matter anyway
My love is broken
My sorrow will now be
My life will be poured out
Without my mouth opened
Not one word
About my broken heart
And my soul
Leaking doubt
Just lock me up 
In the cage
Throw away
The key
It doesn't matter
What you say
I will never
Be free

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Ever ahead

By this pain
It costs me
Everything I am
To stay
I want to run
Far far away
Sometimes I want to say
Fuck the future
All there is, is now
But then
I see all those past generations
Who themselves
Said the same
And now the present
Is fucked
For the foreseeable
Ever ahead
Anything I do
Will not interrupt
The motions of time
Set forward
All I do
Will only be
A ripple
On the surface
Of the pond
Into the whirlpool
I will be sucked
And entombed
This body will be
To see if the cause
Of death
Was a curse
But it is not
The decay begins
The moment of birth
The flesh begins to turn
From our first moments
From the womb
But I go on
Despite the present

Friday, February 13, 2015

Hidden Glory

He kept her in his keep
Deep behind thick walls
Holding her from others
So as to make her his own
In the evenings together they'd sleep
During days alone she'd suffer
Lonely for company, she was alone
He couldn't bear the thought
Of sharing her 
For the potential of her leaving
But it was due to his fear that it was this way
His mind created misery nightmares it wrought
For she was in love with him
Just as much as he treasured her
Together their souls were weaving 
And she wanted to be his
Together tie a ceremonial knot
He was so shy in demeanor
Not trusting of others
So fearful of fate
He barely spoke for fear of revealing
His plans to keep her
With him forever
Out of reach of another
This dance went on
Until they were old
And all others could think
Was how odd a pair

Thursday, February 12, 2015


My love died through attrition
When you were here, you didn't notice me
When I was gone, you said you missed me
When I speak, you never listen
And when you yelled (at me), never stopped
So why do I miss you at all
Have I performed the proper excision
Of my rights, of my property?
Do I belong to the correct religion?
Am I not what you demanded
Do I need to beg to be forgiven
For some crime I've committed
Without knowledge?
I cannot do what I do not know
I cannot be what I am not aware
So excise me
From your lists
Of conquests
I don't belong there