I am a poet who has both been published and self published. All work on this blog is all copyright Alex Ness. While I make very little money from my work I am technically a professional. Measuring by the hours I've written I am professional. My goal is to share my work with as many people that can read it, as far as the internet may reach with it. I hope if you are moved you will share this blog with others, and perhaps buy my books.

Whatever the result, thank you for viewing this blog. I cannot express how greatly I appreciate the many people, from many places upon the earth, who have visited.

I bid you peace.

Je ne regrette pas la douleur, car il m'a fait plus forte

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Saturday, April 29, 2017

Escape through the doorway

Foreseeing the end
The portal was built
The seers foretold
The stars would shake
Lighting would strike
The sun grew cold
Shattering reality
Cleaving the night
The seers created a way
For their followers to escape
The world was ending
With no other paths to take
This was the only hope
Apocalypse broke the sky
The seers gathered the tribe
Beneath the eternity door
While the rest of the world died
And passed into a new realm
Made for them
By their deity
And their power poured
From Heaven's core

Friday, April 28, 2017

Need to end it

Awash in torment
There is no chance
Of redemption
Only immense shame
And metaphoric castration
Never wanting to know
The desire of those
Who hate
I reject the message sent
But it is worse
My birth was a curse
Bitter regrets remain
Life is of no significance
I hate who I became
I had a heart that was wild
It was killed
Torn out
Rather than being tamed
I give in
I give up
There is nothing
Nothing left

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

the ancient races

In the earliest time
Before civilizations took hold
Time didn't exist
Lives were mythic
Events were epic
Gods lived among men
And then
The world was divided
Between the eternal
And the temporal
The angels and Gods
Took to heaven
And the dark lords
Entered their deep domains
The order was set
Until the fallen
Came to live
Among the humans
And took their daughters
For mates
These offspring
Were feared and revered
Always standing out
They were the Nephilum
The giants
The beasts
The heroes
Of the ancient world

"When people began to multiply on the face of the ground, and daughters were born to them, the sons of God saw that they were fair; and they took wives for themselves of all that they chose. Then the Lord said, 'My spirit shall not abide in mortals forever, for they are flesh; their days shall be one hundred twenty years.' The Nephilim were on the earth in those days—and also afterward—when the sons of God went in to the daughters of humans, who bore children to them. These were the heroes that were of old, warriors of renown." (Genesis 6:1-4, New Revised Standard Version)

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Fallen Irony

From the heights of the cosmos
To the depths of the mire
There is no escape
I admire
The naivety
Of  the damned
Since they have entered
My hellish land
They scream in pain
They moan in fear
They do not realize
I am like them
Only worse
  My domain is fearsome
Filled with servants
These burning hells
Are now my home
 My servants hate me
They long to betray me
What awaits me is slavery
 Kneeling before the throne
 I cannot be redeemed
For I defied the creator's plan
I demanded to be seen as an equal
I am perverse
I burn with ire
For I know why I am here
 The traits I have 
My beauty and charisma
Should not give me pride
They are not my own
 They were given to me
By my creator
So now I am
A master of the lands
Many think me the ruler
Holding the damned
Under my thumb
My role is one I cherish
But despite this
To rule over the lake of fire
As the lord of the unsaved
I play a role
In the drama of the cosmos
I play a role in the epic play
Of one who serves
My pride was foolish
I lost everything
By capricious whim
I am not a master
But one who serves him
Upon a throne
Within a cage
In the end he has won
There is nothing now
I am alone and ashamed
I cannot escape my servitude
My own flesh weakens
My beauty fades
My spirit was tamed
And I am alone
Inside my own lake of fire
Engulfed in hate
I refuse to submit
So I suffer
I am consumed
By my rage

Sunday, April 23, 2017

sinking into the morass

The field wet with blood
From the battle
Of men sent to war
Neither side knowing why
They are simply chattel
And now they are gone
No one gaining
From all of them dying
The bones sink down
The land groaning
They'll be lost
Becoming one
With the land, the mud
And never knowing
Why they died

Saturday, April 22, 2017

I remain

I remain
Long after you left
I became
Your love left me bereft
I refuse to be obsessed
You are my sorrow
Alive still
Despite your choice
I am alone
Comes the rain
So cold
I've become
So old
And now I leave
You are free
But I
Am long gone

Friday, April 21, 2017

Pure Truth

So high above the masses
Looking down
Could become difficult
To do so without scorn
But there was one
Who never felt contempt
For those below
Never becoming cynical
His gentle smile
Was worn
With absolute grace
Only the true leaders know
That leaders serve
Those who follow
It is not for show
Or display
But poured from the soul
With the vigor of youth
Pure truth

Thursday, April 20, 2017


Beneath the chaos and order
Between peace and war
Hot and cold, fast and slow
There is a power that moves us
As well as arrives at justice
When two opposite forces act
In continuous motion
Opposition becomes

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Beaten down

I saw him
He was disheveled
Looking pale
And gaunt
He had tears
And told me
What good is living
If there is only pain
He pulled in a tortured breath
What is the point of hope
If there's a cost you pay
There is no escape
Nor forgiveness
I can't do it
I cannot bear this shame
I have only to leave
With no one realizing
I have only to sleep
Never waking
Only dying
I know it is wrong
To focus on this
It comes close to suicide
But I came to love the thought
Of leaving this world
And escaping this cage
Of flesh

Tuesday, April 18, 2017


Some are
To enter legend
Heroes reply
To the quest
To answer
The question
Committing to a task
With danger and death
The Gods watch
As the hero acts
Culture will remember
And should the hero succeed
Will be remembered
For his deeds
And become
Part of the pantheon
Of those favored
By the Gods

Monday, April 17, 2017

Years fly

Years pass, like wind through hair
I watch with sorrow
For the things I didn't do
And people I miss
But I loved
And I loved you
I burned all my tomorrows
For a chance for today
To be
Yours for a day
And I don't regret my act
I had to take a chance
If I didn't
I'd be here
Saying I wish I did
It is the coward's way
And so now Older by far
Death is near
And without shame
I know what I want
Upon my final breath
I want to say I love you
Missing you will haunt me
For the rest of my days
But at least
I got to lay in the sun
And return your gaze
For a little while
While you called my name

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Foolish Man

I couldn't understand
Why you ran to the other man
I wanted to give up and throw up my hands
But something
Kept me there
In that circumstance
I never knew why
You'd abandon this life
We'd created a family in our time
But something
Made you run
My heart is not able
And my soul is crushed
All options are off the table
You dictate the terms
Of my surrender
So we can get back to living
This love fable
I have lost
Too many nights
Missing your touch
We once had forever
And now
Our love is harder to remember
Than our last fight