Wednesday, December 31, 2014

And I do, that is the truth

You keep screaming
But you are wrong
I do not presume to know
What you feel like inside
I can't feel your feelings
Nor read your mind
But I can love you
I can feel love and care
Because I can control those things
And I do
That is the truth

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

You fill my lungs with the air I breathe

From the beginning
I knew you must exist
With every sense I have, I felt you
I felt you breathe the air into my lungs
With a simple kiss
I spent most of my life
Waiting for you to appear
Like letters in the sky, or twinkling stars
Anything to announce that you were here
For me
The mystery of it all was, I trusted, I believed
I expected miracles
And maybe they happened and I missed them
But I was alone
So I rearranged my faith
From knowing that you would
To hoping you could
Just in case
You might decide
I was worth loving
One so great as you
Down to one as low as me
I knew you were there
Somehow, I felt you
In the water I drank
To the air I breathed
Upon the ground I walked
There you were, waiting to talk
But you never spoke aloud
Only to my heart
And I worried
Maybe I missed my chance
You were here and
Chose to remain silent
Instead of speaking to me
Let me know
I beg to be
But I still believe

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Like a Phoenix, Rise

In the end you had nothing
But your rage for the memories
That you could no longer have
Legacies lost, Histories turned lie
Anger, vengeance, bitterness turned you mad
Asylums in your heart
No place for you to hide
Nothing you could do
To express those bitter words inside
Without destroying what little you had
Left to call yourself
Under the weight
Of that rage
Let it destroy this life
Release your being
For once
If you need
And finally live

Friday, December 26, 2014

The Last Saxon

Hereward the Wake
Last man of Saxon Blood
To rise against the Normans
Did his efforts matter
Did his efforts linger
In the past did he plant a seed
That grew into a forest
Was it a fallacy
A rebellion that echoed
To the present
Or was his life just fodder
A life snuffed out
And crushed by the day
One cannot easily change
The course of a river
But one life can lead
Many to change together
And lead to rebellion
One saying no is the beginning
Hereward was that one

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Let us agree, it is dead

Because I knew
I refused
Why bother I asked
When asked to give a damn
When offered a last chance
One final dance
To reignite a fire
That had died
From lack of interest
My heart waited
For your words
Your eyes
Anything at all
So I let it die
You poked the corpse
And wondered why
But I knew
And didn't ask
It didn't last
Without a hope
Without fuel
For the fire
You didn't care
Until it was gone
So let me die
Alone like I am
Why try
When we both know
It is done
And was
A long time ago

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Lifeless Living

Endless tears
And silent screams
Since you've left
I cannot escape
In the depth of an abyss
A pit laid out before me
A torture self induced
My flesh is sorrow kissed
Without your love to redeem
A plague of misery
How tightly woven
My soul was to you
To come undone is to destroy
All I am
And my dreams stolen
For you were all I longed for
You were all I desired
And now there is nothing
Left of me
Now knowing
Nothing worth saving
But plague dust
And fallen dreams
Dried tears
And memories
Ill becoming
A dead man
Left breathing
Without life in his body

Friday, December 19, 2014

We Wait For The Kiss

When the angel is here
Brings her lips close to ours
We do not linger in the moment
Although our memory might echo
In our life's many hours
Of torment
And joys
Of the victories and pain
Of the laughter bringing tears
The sorrows that remain
We do not linger
We recognize her calling
Her lips approach our own
And we know
Time has come
And the echoes of time
Give way
To the echoes
Of life
And having children
Growing older
And being old
Kiss our lips
Take us home
Where we will wait
For our kin
In the majesty
Of the eternal
That awaits

Some mistake our bones
Dry and dusty for our being
Even once we have fled
But the bones and the marrow
The veins once wide
Now collapsed and narrow
That once made our form
Is no longer us
In any sort of way
But dust
Returned to the earth
To be dust
Or grass
Or hay

The memories fade
The tears will dry
The days have been
The years are passed
And everything dies
So our flesh returns to the earth
To start a new cycle of life
And our spirit which has always been
Will linger in eternity
With the eternal
As it should be

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Love Games

Taken in by her words
By her face and by
Her body so perfect
Never thinking
I was the next in a train
Of men to play
Musical chairs of love
I wasn't able to detect
The secret she had used
To trap me and then
Release me
I never knew what hit me
Never stopped to think
How lucky I was
Who wants to be
She was beautiful
But treated men
Like trophies
From the hunt
But she spat me out
After a taste
Then let me go
Will my face
Be upon her wall
Or was I rejected?
I don't know
I don't care

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

In My Father's Castle

I sipped from the goblet
That held the wine of life
It was glorious
The taste of the vintage
Of the grapes of the vine
Grown especially for this day
Never again would it be known
This taste
Nor would I know
Another like it
I drank without shame
For in my father's castle
There was only splendor
There was no fear of want
There was never a day of need
In my father's castle
There was only knowledge of perfection
The walls were built with excellence
Every stone laid with precision
Every corner a perfectly fit
The riders from the horizon
Could see the towers
From the towers the banners rippled
In the winds
The banners drew from every countryman
Pride and love
For our father was a good king
And he loved us and provided
In every way imaginable
Some mock our loyalty
Some say we are not free
They are wrong however
We have the greatest freedom
We chose to be loyal
We chose to be in service
In return we are given
All that we need
All that we want
And more
We are part of the legends
Greater than our own lives
We become part of a story
Woven of steel
And we are part of a legacy
Rich in truth, and lore

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Missing you now

After a lifetime of you
Sitting next to me
You are no longer here
And I am facing eternity
Even the stars are not alone in the skies
Though distant, they are many
And I ask myself why
Do I face the future alone
Because I will miss you
Forever now
How empty is my home
Without you
It is a building
Nothing more
I can't be
Without you here
Happy without you
But I can remember
What it was like
When you were near

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Unrequited by her perfect beauty

Since I saw her
I have been incomplete
And for having seen her
I have been in despair
I will never be able
To overcome her mystique
She lay there in the finest silks
Her body was finer, without match
The color of her hair was unique
And it poured across her flesh
Her skin so pure and smooth
None could possible imagine it
Without seeing it
She lay still, fully asleep
Her auburn hair was streaked
With indescribable colors
And her lips so full
Drove me mad
With an inner passion
Yes I long for her but I realize
I will never be made whole
By having her in my arms

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

The Echo, The View

A nymph known
By the name of Echo
Loved talking
And had a gift of entertaining speech
The wife of the great God Zeus
Hera, Queen of Olympus
Took away that gift
For Hera trusted her
Then learned
That her trust was folly
Echo told Hera stories
At length entertained the queen
In truth, had distracted Hera
Because all that while
King Zeus
Who longed to be free
And to be wild
Used that moment
When Hera was otherwise focused
To consort with Echo's sister nymphs
The intimate interludes
In a fashion were due Echo's deceit
Her voice, which she loved
More than anything
Would no longer be hers
She would no longer be heard
As a being in her voice
Now only able
To echo what was said
By whoever spoke before her
Cursed, still she endured
And lived

Seeing a youth
And following him
She understood that
She very much desired him
He was beautiful
Vain, well proportioned
Reckless and wild
Oh he was exciting
She followed at first
From a distance
Who's there?  he shouted
She tried to call to him
Who's there, she replied
But her voice simply echoed
The last thing she had heard
After a chase he said
Let us meet

And she was thrilled
So she tried to get closer
And he noticed her then
But he became distracted
By the view
Of his face
So perfect
The tranquil water
Like a voice to him
Calling him beautiful
So beautiful
And voiceless
She began to cry
And as he stared
He could not move
Until he died
And her tears fell
Until she faded away
And in their place
The echo of the water
Always ringing
Upon the shores
A Narcissus flower

Friday, December 5, 2014

I wait for the Harvest

I am ready and waiting for the day
When the reaper's blade culls the grain
And my soul

The harvest is my time to be redeemed
To be made whole from all I've been through
And return to the creator

I am not the one who announces the time
When the harvest begins or goes on
So I wait

The creator is the one with control
And like this life, it is not mine to keep
Nor mine to dictate

So I wait