Maybe because I have no way of caring
My memory sucks
I can't remember
So I can't begin to forget
You keep track of my mistakes
As if I should be trying to become perfect
But I never cared to do that
You could never prove my intent
I simply exist
You've controlled me from the beginning
And now it plays out
In some fucked up game of roulette
Bet on black
Bet on red
I'll take all that is left
In between
It doesn't matter
I don't care to try
You control the stakes of the game
And I don't care to play
Pull the trigger
Roll the ball
Let it land
Anywhere
Why not let it land
On green
