I am a poet who has both been published and self published. All work on this blog is all copyright Alex Ness. While I make very little money from my work I am technically a professional. Measuring by the hours I've written I am professional. My goal is to share my work with as many people that can read it, as far as the internet may reach with it. I hope if you are moved you will share this blog with others, and perhaps buy my books.

Whatever the result, thank you for viewing this blog. I cannot express how greatly I appreciate the many people, from many places upon the earth, who have visited.

I bid you peace.

Je ne regrette pas la douleur, car il m'a fait plus forte

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Monday, December 12, 2016

PTSD Hunts me down like prey

Chased by my past
My memories should never be
So deeply burned as if on purpose
They say it won't last
But my history says I know it will be
And I will be the beast bearing this burden
They chase me into the wilderness
Following my tracks left in the snow
And I know, it will hurt
The wolves represent the bitterness
Haunting me worse than any murder of crows
I am, I know, I am cursed
So I offer no defense
As the teeth rip and pull
The blood is everywhere
And I know without pretense
My cup was spilled while full
I have nothing else to compare
My life is broken
Despite my victories
My body fades
And I confound mysteries
By knowing
All my sins were real
But while I realize
I also know
There is no where I can go
Not even home