Thursday, October 30, 2014

A Darkness Harvest of our Hearts,

Plague of sorrows
Harvest me
In a field of misery
Grieving the passing
Of the youth
From the land
Elders crawl and beg
And no one is willing
And no one knows why
We stare into the sun
Growing more blind
By the hour
The harvest begun
The draining
Of love
Conquest of our hearts
The darkness
Shall never
Depart
I pray this is a dreaming
But I am not sleeping
It is a nightmare
But I am awake
So let this be
Let my end
Be now
I am ready to take
The final curtain bow
For the waiting
The lack of passion
For the end
Many are dead
Despite being labeled
Still alive
I am ready
I am willing
Take me
My arms are spread
Open wide

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Confessional

Awakening
Before I was old
A very long time ago
I was surprised to find
That no one cared about
Things that moved my mind
Let alone my heart and soul
Epiphany
That was when I was young
Encounters with others
Caused me to bleed
This callous world
Drew from me
My being
Grieving

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

My Love, Our Love is Our Moment

I didn't choose you
Love chose us
My heart told me
Who you were
Mon coeur est à toi
Toujours et à jamais
I love you my flame
You've been my love
Since the moment
Had begun
The moment
Became our lifetime
And when I am lost
I call your name
For you are my home
And without you
I am undone


















 “Love is of all passions the strongest, for it attacks simultaneously the head, the heart and the senses.”Lao Tzu

Monday, October 27, 2014

On High

I was never given wings
So I thought I couldn't fly
But the moment you loved me
I grew wings
I knew I was able
I soared
I was lifted upon the winds
On high
Skyward bound
I climbed like a rocket
No one ever, ever
Gave me such strength
To soar, not even to fly
Breaking the bonds
Of my imprisonment
Of my solitude
Of gravity
You gave me this freedom
These wings
With these wings, upon the winds
I ascended the highest heights
Ripping a hole
In the sky














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Saturday, October 25, 2014

The Final Night

I have stood nude to the world
I have been alone in the cold
I have been born worse than dead
For knowing the meaning
Of what is not to be known
The mysteries surrounding me
Are no mystery to me
The world is going to pass
I have still kept true
Because of what I know
This world is cursed
It will live only temporarily
My flesh will pass unto dust
My memories will disappear
My soul will flee the decay
As my body is laid
Into the cemetery
In God I will trust
Even as temptations near
I will not stop to delay
But the end beckons
And my chest grows tight
The few breaths I have left
Will be the harvest
Of the final night

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Your fire burned me

The fire has burned full through
The pain drives me to my knee
Tears pour out
Fires rage unabated
The anger in you
The love in you
The depths of your passions
Are not mysterious
I feared where they might lead us
And surely enough
Your love decided my fate
I burned unto ashes
Until all that remained
Was char and dust
This elegant torture
My delicate flesh
Destroyed again
Now I hunger
Insatiate
Every time I look at you
I bleed from my soul
Never ending pain
Just knowing
You love someone
Else
Burned
Scarred
Castrated
While I waited
For you to heal me
Still knowing
You never will
And I'll never heal

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Just Love

Beloved, I must be near thee or I shall die
       Lover, your lips must be upon mine
Beloved, I must breathe air that has been drawn into you
       Lover, I cannot resist your body entwined
Where there used to be two, now there is one being
Where two hearts had beat, now in unison simply one
The politics of love obeys just this, love is truth
Love only
Love is all
Love heals
Love is truth


Friday, October 17, 2014

Leaving my Hive

Dreams or nightmares
All the same to me
I sleep that of the dead
Not a movement
Not a flash of REM
Blackness and quiet
Urged into action
A busy world
Discomforts
The land
Upon the waking
Dawn cracks the surface
Of the horizon
But I refuse
The beckoning
I refuse the command
To be
What others demand
Of me
By midday I am getting burned
My neck is red from the sun
Beating down
As I walk through the dust
And sand
Midwaist knee deep
My guts churn
The path I follow
Isn't easy
Nor does it matter
It is the only one
I am allowed
I move
As the world
Feels it has done
Something
By making nothing
By breaking something
Creation or destruction
Nothing matters
So long as they look busy
In their hills
Busy
Doing nothing
While I walk
To the end
Again

Because of You

With wings, fly!
Far above the earth
Gazing upon the blue
Look with awe
From the highest sky
Because of the genius
And the excellence
Of the architect
Of the universe
Creator of truth's
Hand and eye!


Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Nothing

主忠信。毋友不如己者。過,則勿憚改。

When yesterday passed
Time had frozen in place
Our time came and left
It could never last
Our test failed
We grew old before our time
Our eyes saw the truth
Not the illusion
And we lost our way
Fed upon the lie
We could not accept that
We were betrayed
Once and forever
This was our fate
Of course
This was our world
We had defiled
There was nothing left
Screaming at the sun
Until our souls are hoarse
At last
We are alone
As we should have been
With our sins
In our ant hills
And larvae
And busy nothing











"Judge thyself with the judgment of sincerity, and thou wilt judge others with the judgment of charity. " 
John M. Mason

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Thunder

black skies warn me
in the midst of the morning
when I hear the winds forming
the storm begins raging
in my mind
lightning strikes
thunder crashes
my flesh is a cage
trapping me inside
my bondage
within my being
I close my eyes
they've stopped seeing
All that goes before them
is a blur
close my eyes
shut down my mind
until the thunder stops
and the lightning's flash
strikes no more



















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Monday, October 13, 2014

Isolate Suffocate Supplicate

Je suis désolé
I am, in fact, alone
After a lifetime of choices
I have found myself rebuilding
What had never been broken
Hearing voices harrowing me
Because of my decisions
Yet there is nothing 
Shielding my heart
From unspoken hope
I have moved upon 
The surface of this earth
I have walked one million miles
Never wavering
But I am done
Je suis fini
For the reasons 
All of my efforts
Lost among my life's cost
My hopes are dashed
The skies are black
My memory is gray
I am discontented
With my path
And there is nothing more
I can do
Je suis désolé
I have in fact
Become desolation
Suffocation
I begin to suffocate
For this isolation 
I have endured
My body driven 
My body down
To a permanent kneeling
Position
Endlessly
Supplicate  



"It is difficult
to get the news from poems
yet men die miserably every day
for lack
of what is found there."

William Carlos Williams

Philippians 4:6 says, "Be anxious for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God."

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Mjölnir's Wrath
















Lightning
Blue
Electric
Wild
Flies
Across the sky
Mjölnir




















Explodes
Mercilessly
Destroys
One of Surtyr's Giants
More still die
Mjölnir
Returns to the hand
Of the wielder
THOR
GOD OF THUNDER
Son of Odin


















Prince of Asgard
Rider of the clouds
Wielder of Mjölnir
Unleashing lightning

Saturday, October 11, 2014

I am faced with a choice

Have I any worth?
Am I worthy of this life?
I am living
But do I matter?
Why is there so much suffering?
Why do I go on
when so many others fall short?
Answers without reason
Questions I don't want to ask
But need to
Standing shaking before
An ocean filled with emotions
Tears abundantly provided
By the memories of the past
Flooded as I step
Quickly drawn beneath
Pulled up as quickly
The waves lift me
As if by some deity's command
Rivers pour 
Through cracks upon the canyon
Weathering cracked the land
Thrown into the depths
Never moving 
From where we've been cast
I can live now
Or die
By my choosing
My life is in my hands


Friday, October 10, 2014

Jeu de la passion

J'ai peur
la solitude sans fin
l'ennui et la tristesse  
when the sky is just clouds
gray and bleeding down
I could swear
I can see tears falling
and despite myself
they are strangely comforting
able to feel the embrace
of the eternal's arms
as we turn
around and around
in constant
pirouette
we dance
waiting for the dream to end
but it never does
nor should it
I cannot ask
and I can never stop
it would be
a Sisyphus-like task
to disengage
and leave the embrace
outside of the eternal's reach
what and who am I?
but meat in a cage
raging decay
followed by a promenade
jeu de la passion
for the exiled king?


Wednesday, October 8, 2014

I must remember always

Too often I forget
The times where I was
Lost
Fallen and broken
Forgotten by others
Spat upon
Deceiving me
Mistreating me
But you gave me hope
Gave me courage
And love and understanding
Despite my being unworthy
I have healed
I have grown wise
And I have realized
All that life offers
And still I forget
What you have done
By lightening my load
Forgiving my debt
When no one else cared
When no one else would listen
It is not easy when you've overcome
To remember
Because you must go back and relive
The times of pain and sadness
But without that I would not be worthy
Of all you have done for me
I'd like to believe that I am
An honorable man
And to be worthy
Requires my mindful task
Of being aware
Of how I arrived where I am
From the first moments
To the last
Is a journey
A continuum
And that path
Cannot be understood
With the moments of joy
Ignoring those times
When I was crushed
I surrender
For your flag
Is the one I serve under
Yours is the one
That I carry upon my chest
And shield


Wednesday, October 1, 2014

My True name is lost

I have been called a god
By those who worship
Called by many names
None know my name true
They still pray
But I am not
Apollo nor Christ
Yahweh nor Allah
They seek to know
But it matters not
If they could know it
Their curious minds
Could not perceive
Who I am or what I am
They could never endure
The dreadful cost in pain
That I pay
That I continue to pay
For eternity is expensive
For reality has no bottom
For the truths that I know
The pain I experienced
For the hunger
To retrieve from the stream
I have seen galaxies birth
Black holes swallow planets
The glories of creation
Energy swirl about new life
The hands of fate awaken the universe
The cosmic winds blow
And I fly upon them
I have lived forever
Have seen life forms build
Across the surface of the earth
Like ants and anthills
Then whence reaching their peak
They destroy each other
They are united in making war together
Yielding a harvest of bitterness
The tears of eternity pass quickly
For other worlds with be made
Other life forms will break the old curses
By being born into the stream
But they will incur the same wrath
Will follow the same path
Bring upon themselves their fall
The cycle renews
Ad nauseam