Dark Reflection of Truth

A fool for most of my life, selfish and ungrateful

Still, a being in love, I'd found purpose and yet lost

I'd self esteem, but I had lived without true grace

I desired to have trust, hope without paying a cost

My dreams were to be all powerful and be adored

Instead, I found myself thinking that I'd mattered

Lusting for money and wanting attention, a whore

I'd within my reach, a perfect world and it shattered

Instead of love in my heart and soul, I found hubris

But there was nothing inside of my being to restore

And all I did for others was to rename myself Judas

Then staring into the eye of eternity, was hollowed

There's nothing in me but shadow and no dreams
I've cast aside hope for lust, and all fear for trust
A world goes on but my spirit and flesh turn dust
Emptied, bleeding out the future, in ruins

"Having fallen so far from so high a position, he
loved anything that had also fallen from a great height”

                                                                Gustave Flaubert