You said you loved me, then took everything from me
And left me alone, with nothing but a pain from losing
This world swallowed me, pain was an unending terror
I didn't lose anything, but a feeling of needing to dream
Dreams don't matter, if your world doesn't even imagine
As when your dreams are shattered, dreams turn inward
Becoming nightmares, and moments of oblivion
The arrival of hope, in the midst of the darkness
Our future plans turn from despair and our fear
Time will stop and our dreams will be made real
Rather than the abyss of the unknown to stop us
This day will happen, never lose hope
A new you will be revealed
So many times, I decide fate before its called
With so many on the line, before my time
I take my shot sure, but if I'd just waited
I should find my way, instead I just fall
I walk away, without knowing, I walk
Then I see Death approaching my way
I look him in the eye, no fear, we talk
He sees in others their fear and hope
Not in me, I stare in his eyes, smile
Death will take me or let me go
Without regret or guile, we all die
But I will fall when it is my time
Oh I've no rush, but I am aware
That I've no escape, only time
And that is truly all we get
Nothing unjust or unfair
We live or die
That's all
The storm rides the horse, until the end trail
In the middle of the madness, deep in the chaos
The world is without a form, without a purpose
Inside my mind, there is no firmament, spinning
There is no axis, no center, but a mass of atoms
I rebel against the gravity, I rebel against order
I give in, give up and surrender to momentum
And let physics and mass and velocity rule
By the Creator, by the Lord of All
On a day when we have been blessed
Given the arrival of the child of God
Given voice, after millennia unspoken
Becoming forgiven, begin again as chosen
Living as we were created, by the purpose
And covered in grace and his mercy
Our King has come, let us celebrate
And prepare the way
As he returns
Broken upon a torture wheel, made to beg for survival
But I can breathe through tears, and I bleed out black
The ink of a poet can be expressed, knowing that truth
The knowledge and wisdom of world, beckons arrival
The reckoning will destroy nearly all, but for a miracle
I pray for revelation, the final curtain's fall to be stayed
The suffering, the payment of cost, the perfect sacrifice
End is in place, we must own our failings, be cleansed
Embrace the graves, oblivion, or burning unimaginable
We've a chance to avoid our final fate, a lamb pristine
Mercy, wool white as snow, red wine given for blood
I'm not worthy of forgiveness but blessed by grace
I've surrendered and wherever this life ends
I earned my fate
The world turned me away, I was stripped of my name
Walking alone in the desert, no water, no areas of shade
The sun seemed appointed to my being, focused on me
The throat was parched and dry, with no hope for oasis
I thought I was meant to endure, but perhaps I was not
The world is our test, we're meant to pass, perhaps I will
How many times must I have to break down
Before I realize, every being must be reborn
Clay and spark are not enough, we must rise
Before all the sands run out of the hourglass
I pray, hoping to not find all hope is gone
We may pursue a world through all the scorn
But whatever we do, we're limited by time
In our life we've only a single last chance
Let us live, find the path, and find hope
As I saw her eyes, I saw a future that would be ours
I saw the eyes reflect, movement and joy, our son
Dreamt of a heart in her love, to share a life's hours
Her flame red hair, beautiful being, a soul inspiring
Her intellect frightening, wisdom earned and towers
I was saved in her, her glory, in her living power
Born and renewed, I found my being redeemed
By a kind of love I could never imagine, finding
One heart that is kind and good, a love binding
We crossed the North Sea, over the submerged Doggerland
Forty healthy men and women, armed for war, and focused
Our task was to land silently, swiftly march to Saxon shores
And kill the villagers, and burn the buildings of the villages
So that the next series of ships, waves of the next invaders
Could land closer to the populated cities and fortified towns
And burn them as well, and light the shores with the inferno
With the final wave of ships landing, crushing the defenders
And by doing so, we leave Britannia in the control of Danes
None of our first wave lived to see the results of our invasion
None of the second wave survived, but destroyed their targets
Third wave succeeded, by the strategy, pointed the last wave
Forward, nothing was stopping the Northmen, from victory
I write this from Valhalla, and I remember the cries of war
The drums pounded and beat, the roars of screams of anger
Accompany the Saxons to death, and Northmen to their fate
The loss was counted as necessary, the tribe leaders satisfied
I watched the deaths as I was pulled from the field, to speak
The slaughter helped no one, as violence only lingered more
Saxon shores polluted by blood, burnt ships, burnt villages
All Doggerland's ghosts watched in horror, over the harvest
For nothing, as dead floated, some in armor, upon the shore
Sarah showed me extraordinary care, from the depths of her heart. And I experienced a thaw, in December.
I stepped forward into this life that had danger
It only occurred to me that it meant more later
To live a life that meant more than I could see
My love for many, for those who cared for me
I was blessed beyond, and so I thank the world
Being so much more, something unpredictable
When I could be empty, without love or mercy
The grace I've experienced goes well beyond
And those who are in this land, are glorious
"Joy, thou spark from Heav'n immortal,
Daughter of Elysium!
Drunk with fire, toward Heaven advancing
Goddess, to thy shrine we come.
Thy sweet magic brings together
What stern Custom spreads afar;
All men become brothers
Where thy happy wing-beats are."
Friedrich Schiller
Surrounded by a circle of thugs, assassins, and back stabbers
All cannot wait for the opportunity to take an anger out on me
This Earth is lawless, no, it is much worse than that, but wild
Can't be tamed by order, only fall much further into entropy
I'll not let the darkness become perceived as being the light
One must stand before them, absorb the damage that rules
I'll give my life if necessary, for the baseline of humanity
Used to be good, it used to be about nobility and courtesy
But now, life became how order will decay into havoc
But before humans are lost in madness and violence
Surrender, choose to die, before becoming like them
Among the many, I am one of the few
Those liars all hate me, I speak the truth
My dreams are empty, but soul is inspired
No hope has been lent me yet I'm on fire
I don't care if it kills me, don't care if I die
Even if I'm toxic, you drank poisoned wine
Life is over, my life is over
But it is never over, it isn't that easy
The hard part remains
I call the name
When the gate is locked
But I'm going to be getting in
One way or the other, I have no shame
My brain is diseased, you know I'm insane
If you ask why I'm in
It's about sin
And who you know
Who you believe
Who you trust
What's burning within
I spent my years, there is nothing left
The world called for more, to silence
Before me was a world of infinite hope
After me, the world will spin and turn
My beginning was hard, I was bereft
I never was what he wanted, but quiet
The years of hope were short, darkness
But in the darkness we must be ready
To live at all or see what's really there
I'm no more sad to die, than live anew
A true world is found in a narrow path
To live is to love, to exclude from life
A cancerous wrath, the arrogant being
I want to know what I tasted, and hope
So that when I am gone, I don't linger
In hope that I didn't miss out, in envy
For I ignored much, I avoided more
As now I am broken, nothing's offered
So I will sleep in eternity, until I wake
Asked why should I stay I'll simply say
I fail, but know well the truth I believe
That's all I know, that, and I'm tired
He's a xombie after a life of fire and burning
Let loose in their soft beings with a hunger
Those yet living scream in fear and fleeing
But that xombie still lived, he'd never died
Torn by horror, survived all things hurting
Stood alone, with a heart beat like thunder
So ugly and frightening, he just was being
And those who never felt pain, died inside
They never knew what it'd took to endure
Never knew pain that drives you forward
The xombie was being honest, not hiding
The life still left behind was horror, pure
But no one cared to ask, nor to seek
They ran away, refusing him to heal
In fleeing the prejudices revealed
Humans hate anyone different
Whoever they really are inside
Whatever they wish they'd be
Themselves most of all
In a world where the shadows give us the fullest embrace
The cold winds are our breath, and we live just for a taste
We are alive in a void, oblivion's emptiness sucks our life
Our flesh shivers but a fire inside our heart keeps us warm
But we endure, we survive, and do so by divine design
The month December is cold, being here in the North
As are the hearts of people turning from the homeless
We linger in our heat, comfortable beds, and blankets
Not different from the world, it long ago turned away
Snow can preserve and freeze, it can also be a slayer
Freezing you inside, and then stops body functions
Not telling you what to do, but empathy saves lives
We shiver in the freeze, we do not want to live there
Reach out for a moment, and connect with another
By that giving them hope, that life is not hopeless
