Flame of Lust

Her lust was a flame
Burning in her heart
Distracting her mind
She could not be tamed
Nor her will, now in concert
The fire burned inside
Takes no solace
From time's wages
Her lust was unquenched
Her soul given over
To burn
Until she had the taste
And not thereafter

What are we

Are we all dust
Lost in the storm
Are we filled with lust
Crawling in mud like worms

Do we fly in the sky with stars
Blinding and bright
Are we covered in scars
Always wondering why we fight

What is life supposed to be
Pain and grieving
Or is it unknown and waiting
To be solved by debate?

Why bother isn't such a bad question
Since life hurts, hard to fight depression
I won't give up
But I don't want to pay
With my life

My beautiful friend

She comes woven
In the painful tears
And gossamer silks
Covering the fears
Of those who go
Take her hand
And linger not
For her kiss
Is deadly
Gaze into her eyes
They reveal the abyss
Then stare away
Don't say no
Soon she'll fly
Her ashes dusting the sky
Her job done
So deadly
So beautiful
So gone from now
You are gone for good
For the wonder is
The white cloth
That wraps you
Is clean of red
From where you bled
Is she a goddess
Did she ask you in
Or was she sent
To finally cleanse
The meat
From the decay within

A Cat

When my deepest love
Passed into the grey
I thought I would die
I thought about suicide
Thought about taking a ride
Never coming back
I gave up, I lost my mind
I thought I'd never smile
I thought I'd be in denial
For the rest of my life
But she came to me
Soft but determined
And when she reached me
She curled into my heart
Purred endlessly
Her walk was like a song
That made you cry
My sorrow was gone
She was the one who healed me
My grieving was done
My heart bore the scars
But I was alive
And no longer
Undone

(I have two of these gentle creatures, and both save me)

Defender

The Sakura possess beauty
They inspire by their bloom
And they live for only a moment
Like a samurai defender
Who guards the lord's castle
He is the best, so he was chosen
He lives with no fear of death
He lives truly
For he sees his life as being temporary
By his devotion, he performs a duty
He is not born different
Not born angry or broken
He chose to ascend
And become someone
Who becomes a permanent memory
By his sacrifice
Of his life

Ocean filled with tears

An ocean of tears
An emotional tidal wave
Hits my heart inside
Irrational fears
Impart exquisite shame
Can't avoid suicide
Collision approaching
Devastation and delirium
I am the first and the last
Here comes the explosion
Sending us all to oblivion
Make me an outcast
Execute me
The message is far too horrifying
So murder me
Kill the messenger
Or face the consequences
This die is already cast

Magic

Enter the portal to some new dimension
Take my hand,join me on the other side
Have no fear, no apprehension
I need you and refuse to be left behind
I am alive when I am next to you
You know that is the truth
Let this journey never end
Darkness will fade forever
So long as you know
I am yours
Let's escape this hurtful world
Together

Grieve

Sorrow has hastened me
I have run forward unto death
My body fails daily
I struggle to pull a breath
I am death alive
And have no future to plan
Despite the promises
I grieve this life
My funeral began
The moment I was born

begun to believe that

I have begun to believe
that it is nearly impossible
to become happy
or serene
even as the sweetest sound
of a gentle sleep
without nightmares or terrors is found
in knowing you are loved and that you matter
never being scared for reasons that are foolish
and never being crushed to the ground
by the sorrow of being abandoned
because you care too much

Dark flesh cloak

I am woven in scars
My mind is alive with pain
My memory is marred
With the fears and shame
My flesh white, and cold
My eyes red and swollen
I am unable to hold
The waves of emotions scream
And the demons of my misery
All know and call my name

I Surrender, Completely

Show me no mercy
Offer me no dreams
You already reign in my sleep
You caught my eye, and I was lost
You carried a sort of enchantment
And I am deep in your thrall
In the midst
Never want
Never want
To ever be released
Kiss my lips
Hold my arms
And I'll hold your hips
Come close
Dance until the moment
Transforms into something else
Something consensual
Sensual
Moves incredible
Your lips so edible
Oh my love
I surrender
Completely
Come complete me
Show no mercy
Consume me whole
Join my soul
Reach into my chest
Remove my heart
Replace it with a promise
Say yes
Say yes

Warrior's Heart

Poison Blood

They arrived far too long ago to remember
Cast from a distant and strange universe
The deep ones were brought to earth
when alien gods fell from the sky
They settled in the ocean where the coastal towns
Bore witness to the curse
That humans were both flesh to feed them
As well as breeding stock for the deep ones to breed with
They had no morals to stray from, no higher purpose to rise to
They spoke no clear words with their mouths
As if they were speaking in tongues
The humans had no way of knowing
What the deep ones wanted or were saying
In time humans replied with cannon and guns
Slaying the darkness fallen to the shore
Cursing their villages
When deep ones hungered to spawn
The humans had crushed the fish men
But while they celebrated now
Soon would learn to dread
Every poisoned newborns
Who bore the dna of the ones from the ocean
And if one should pass as fully human
They would then infect, infest again
In the silence of the slaughter
Of the Deep Ones
And thereafter to the evil hybrids
Implanted with the need to spawn
The horror had only just begun

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Pour

When I wake
My world rarely looks bright
Instead
Gray and bleak 
Each morning when I pray
I say to God
I have so many problems
But you my dearest love
My heart
Are not one of them
You are in my central core
Molten fire
Desire
Tu es mon coeur
Mon amour pour toujours
Et le plus grand désir de mon coeur
From the grail
You pour
Pure love
And I am warm
In the deepest freeze
You pour love
Blessing me
Warming my soul
From the Ice age
I'd entered
Before you came into my life 
Je t'adore 
I wait for more
Selfishly
But lovingly

samurai poem

I'll be alright

Don't worry
No, it'll be fine
I'll be alright
I'll be ok
I'm just wounded
Lots of pain
A tumor but benign
It'll heal and my heart
Will close itself off
To be certain
It can survive the attacks
From the lies
And grievances
Towards me
And my name
No, I can't accept the blame
Nor the shame
Of your accusations
So intricate the web
You weave
Ignoring the heart I have
That grieves
Your treacherous lies
A traitorous heart
That stabbed me
From behind

When it finally happens

I am alive due to having been born
Between great wars
But I am well aware
That was the luck of the draw
People born before me
Spent their lives upon fear
When the world was wild
When the atom was made slave
To the vile plans of man
Humanity instead
Is the slave
Once they fought with shield and club
The spear came later
And eventually the gun
Believing themselves high above
All men, all of the gods
Living in the high tower
They possess power
But they do not realize how it works
Uppermost is not the ability to kill
Nor riches
Nor pleasure
Or leisure
The goal of existence should ultimately be
Just one thing, love
And it is not expressed
By killing others

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Resist

Surrender to the demons
End up one of their number
Surrender to despair and madness
You become the king of flies trapped in amber
You can only fight, hope, and resist
Or your world will forever be chaos
Fight the madness or upon a noose twist
In the wind

consumed

broken clocks
black hole consuming
no more pain
no more sorrow
useless grieving
the machine of time grinding
to a stop
celestial lights dim
as the veil of eternity
is drawn
no one can hear you scream
as you are devoured
by the end
and oblivion
without resistance
and no power

Label me now, asshole

Using labels to limit you
Call you names
Make you less than human
They can't accept others
Prefer to view them in a zoo
Preferring a false form of purity
To their confusion
When viewing others
Who look different
To our shame
But the truth of it all is
But for the skin we're the same
Kin of flesh and DNA
One single race, one species
We can't deceive ourselves
About our place
In the pantheon
Of the Gods
We are not them
They are not us
We are the temporal
They are made of cosmic
We are made of dust
Justice is blind
The cosmic is just
Humans are fools
Not worthy of trust

dark dance

The darkness is deep, elegant, mystical
It moves in ways that are silent, deliberate, sinister
It calls to me
Lovingly seduces my mind,
It calms me, energizes me
But there is no redemption in the darkness
Though this mistress, my oblivion invites company
Desires my soul to dance in unison
To love it true, to hold it high above me
In a pas de deux
It lurks inside the shadow
I am hollow
There is nothing left to know
So I dance with it, I dance
But I am not happy
To perform for its pleasure

Darkness calls

Drain my soul with your hate
I cannot take it any longer
I refuse to blame or find fault
Because I am the weak one
Defiant now, much too late
I needed to be stronger
But together there is a gestalt
The decay is begun
Growing pale from your feeding
Your hunger be sated
I am emptied from the bleeding
This death
Of my flesh
Feels like you celebrating
Until
You will see
My transition
My metamorphosis
Into matter unseen
And entry into perdition
Farewell
Farewell you've eaten me
And the memory
Of my life

Cyanide

Every night
I can't dream
I never sleep
Whatever I need
The pain is too much
My flesh is torn
This is a nightmare
A living suicide
I hate your touch
It burns
I bleed
I cannot take any more

Dry Bones

I don't get to decide to live or to die
My existence has been toxic
My presence catastrophic
My life fading
My breath intoxicating worse than cyanide

So many voices shouting inside my mind
Telling me to try one more time

The battle is long lost
My wounds can't be redeemed
I am the ever unwashed
I believe but can't be freed

All of  my sins
Have painted my soul black
And I am lost far from Heaven
I am the king of this world
And that is why it will die
From my hand

Ezekiel 37:1-14

The Valley of Dry Bones

37 The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. ² He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. ³ He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”

I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.”
⁴ Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! ⁵ This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath^[a] enter you, and you will come to life. ⁶ I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”
⁷ So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. ⁸ I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
⁹ Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” ¹⁰ So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
¹¹ Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.’ ¹² Therefore prophesy and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. ¹³ Then you, my people, will know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. ¹⁴ I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the Lord have spoken, and I have done it, declares the Lord.’”

Don't bother

I told you I wanted to die
You said Get over it
I told you I liked the thought
Of suicide
You told me that I was overly dramatic
And moreover, I was full of shit
I am nothing but honest
I am not playing for drama
Kissing you again doesn't interest me
Unless your lipstick is cyanide
Kill me
Kiss me deadly
I won't bother to try
I am ready
I'll do

Hero?

Some heroes are admired

Some heroes are despised

They do not get to choose

Inside each of them burns a fire

Some are speakers who refuse compromise

Some are heroes 

Because in defiance of being accused

They do not relent

They are the voice

They are the raised fist

They are those who walk into the breach

Doing what others could not

Doing what others cannot understand

Heroism is neither a trait found in DNA

Nor is it based upon any sort of lineage

Heroism is born from need

Acted upon with fear and hope

Trying to forestall doomsday

Never knowing if they will succeed

Not limited to war, to politics, to religion or space

Heroes are us all, but better

They bleed

They die

They do what others cannot

 

From Dictionary.com

 

Noun, plural heroes; for 5 also heros.

1.

a person noted for courageous acts or nobility of character:

He became a local hero when he saved the drowning child.

2.

a person who, in the opinion of others, has special achievements, abilities, or personal qualities and is regarded as a role model or ideal:

My older sister is my hero. Entrepreneurs are our modern heroes.

3.

the principal male character in a story, play, film, etc.

4.  

Classical Mythology.

1. a being of godlike prowess and beneficence who often came to be honored as a divinity.
2. (in the Homeric period) a warrior-chieftain of special strength, courage, or ability.
3. (in later antiquity) an immortal being; demigod.

 

inspired the desire

You were the one who inspired the desire
You are the one who sent me upon fire
And left me without water
To extinguish the flame
But you either don't know or care
Or you are the world's biggest liar
I was moved and my heart
Can't take another break
Place my heart upon your altar
Let me in or I'll die of the heartache
A heartache that YOU brought to me
As an offer
Of forever

Sting

Bitter the sting
Burns within
Master of fate
Harvest of sin
Drink of my cup
Enter the abyss
Screams rip open
The darkness

Transformation

I believe in God
But I have many
Many many questions
For example Lord,
Will Joy be fully outlawed
In favor of interminable envy
Hear thee oh lord, this confession
So many I have adored
Only to be left
Alone
And hated
I am unable
Dear lord
God of my father
Almighty one
I have begun
This transformation
The Metamorphosis
I am yours
And will remain
You are the one
I reject damnation
I love thee
I am broken
and rejected
You are my desire
My fire
Inside
Dejected by the world
Disconnected
You are God
And I am your child
If I only I could be
Who you wanted
All the time
...
Oh lord
Let it be
Please
Oh please
Let it be

Make me sleep

Haven't slept in years
My eyes bleed and itch
From watching the future
BURN
I refuse to dream the tears
The caffeine makes me twitch
Crazy thoughts and rumors
Return
Make me blind
Let me die
Let me sleep
Make me want to dreamicide
Suicide from the pain
No more
Going insane

Confetti

I have a heart shredded like confetti
And spread to the wild four winds
I never saw it coming
And still
Can't see a thing
There is a smoking hole
In my chest
Where it used to beat
For you
Now there is silence
And morbidity
So if you care
Why I am not there
If you wonder
Why I am broken asunder
My heart was ripped from me
And taken
As a fucking souvenir
Forsaken
Love hates me
Please just go away