Self Condemned Prisoner

If I give in and let it all happen
I've surrendered to forces of pain
It will be me dying, no longer alive
I'll be giving my one life away
All the while screaming
My madness never leaves
Irredeemable, immutable, futile
Nothing can remove the stain
Of being born under a curse
I was emptied of love
Made to feel so ugly
But never delusional
I have no worth

I was damned and sent away
Condemned to spend my life
In complete isolation
If I heal, I will not be set free
In the mental ward I'll remain
The walls of the asylum stand
Freedom would taste beautiful
Nothing remains in life for me
But possession of my soul
And a purest form of shame
Birth was my life's penalty
By it I will never receive
Love, comfort or safety