I've died so many times and still I'm here
Christ said even as you thought so you did
So I've died many hundreds of times
And the end is nowhere near but is it a sin
To doubt my existence within
For I know God is there
The world around me thrives
But as it does it steals my breath
It crushes all of my hope
Destroys any purpose
For I've searched for a cause
I could drown, if I still also breathe
I could put a bullet in my head
And speak about the content of the lead
What does it take to finally die I am ready to go
But want to avoid suicide, if I am able that is
