The day before never again
If the devil has his dance
All hopes are severed
If no dreams remained
But if he endures
We are cast into the pit
But if we do too, we twist
In the hope of a circumstance
That never comes through
The balance of hopes
And desperate wishes
That never come true
What does it matter
Why do we try
Staring the devil
Straight in the eye
We cannot trust
Circumstance
All the time and effort
Everything is shattered
For a falsehood
For a lost view
Of nothing real
Or real enough it matters
Any way we must dance
Dance if you wish
Move if you must
Trapped in a moment
Between divinity and lust
And losing our soul
To the temptations
Of the final dance
Restless life, still restless
While in your sight
Is it love, tell me
Because I need to know
We always fight
We seem to never love
Where will I go
If not to you
You are my whole view
You are my world
But I am cold
Frozen to the touch
In my solitude
I'm on my own
As the cold white sheet
Falls, and covers
The snow falls, softly
I am true, and I remain
Tell me why please
Or I will die
Over and over again
The emptiness smothers
I could live my entire life
And never hear from your lips
Why I should sacrifice
Why I should hide my eyes
From any others
Just say what is true
End this questioning
End my isolation
My emotional starvation
End my empty fight
Save me from myself
Give me hope
I've got nothing left
We have a chance to do it
You and I will make it
Whatever the world says
We are here forever
Here to stay
In their eyes we're posers
Trying to be something
We weren't and that we're not
They are wrong
We will renew
We are what we are
A deck full of evil jokers
Willing to take a shot
Risking our future
Ready to refuse it
Here, alive, ready, and scarred
They want us to fall
For they are the losers, broken
With their morality bought
Their soul paid for
Hopes gone too long
With dust filled hearts
They've no power over us
They don't want justice
It is they
Who have this world wrong
Before they figure it out
We'll be long gone
Take my hand
Let's go
I have lived too many nightmares
And have fallen into grave despair
With sleep impossible, I scream
Resounding loudly in me
For every evil secret I keep
I'll not ask for mercy, nor help
A life to offer as a sacrifice of self
I can't place my dreams upon a shelf
They'll not linger and remain
So I surrender and refuse
I refuse to remember
Can't endure this last December
As you now enter
I hear a sonic boom
You are there, alone
And you maniacally dance
Laughing in the burning ruins
While Flames lick upward
The smoke begins to rise
You offer your hand to me
Beckon me to come soon
Is it an invite to a future
Or a mockery of destruction
Are you wishing to give me a kiss
In this burning Hell,
One that we created
Or is it the dark Abyss
Or simply a secret room
With lights and buttons
Where a finger touches
Beginning our collective doom
I spent uncountable amounts
All of my soul, all of my time
That I'd invested into your life
Coming back to me, null and void
There's nothing but hopes
Even some wishful dreams
That I can make you believe
If I say I'm not overjoyed
Overwhelmed by Emptiness
Already burning in my mind
You've driven me quite mad
And there's nothing inside
Nothing I can possibly say
That'd show the many ways
That you've wounded me
My soul is slain,
It is forever gone
I will be lost, now and always
When I caught your scent softly upon the wind
The combination there of sweet jasmine
And a lure of sin I was left broken
You always moved me as you know
I prayed to be freed of the slavery
Found in my mind
But then I am shocked into awareness
I am lost without you here
What the Hell
I lose and you win
I am the unchosen in your absence
I'll think about what I'll miss
With your affections lost
My life's worst cost, where are you now?
My lost love, dancing in the evers of life
Calling my name with affection
No, so much pain, now you are lost to me
Like dust floating upon the winds
Clouds floating, above the desert plain
As we give in to despair, a disease gains power
When we choose to fight without morals, we lose
In Nanking, Wounded Knee, My Lai, Malmedy
Humanity is forever grieved when innocents cower
Morally undeveloped, unwise, needing the truth
We must rise above the slaughter, the catastrophes
More than love thy neighbor, we must care for all
If we do, we will escape our fate, our failed destiny
For now is the time to change, now is the final hour
Should we fail to act, our world will fade away
Into a death spiral from which we cannot escape
We've turned away, in horror, in fear, we've cried
Rwanda, Treblinka, Armenia, Holodomor, Darfur
The names though alien sounding are all genocide
And every death echoes through the tears of time
We could surrender all of our dreams
We could be submissive to our fears
The shallows and shadows are a wall
Keeping us from getting what we need
If our chains lead to so many tears
Why bother at all?
Will the footprints we've left behind
Be remembered in memory
If at all
Or will pain by design rule our lives
Lead to an obscured vision
Will we lose it all?
With our presence passing
An interruption of our life
Sorrow stealing our time as time goes by?
“I never in my life saw men so careless of the morrow; hand to mouth is the only
word that can describe their way of doing; and what with wasted food and sleeping
sentries, though they were bold enough for a brush and be done with it, I could
see their entire unfitness for anything like a prolonged campaign.”
We might try to know more, but demand a certain version
With every step back into the collected human histories
We assume we will learn more, but lost is a greater clarity
The modern worldview reveals ignorance of the past
Even as all of the evidence remains, enduring
Nothing has changed, only the depth of mystery
Our future will be as lost with all her fears found true
If we ignore the world and stories of our legacies
Forgive me, I become enticed, knowledge is alluring
So if we refuse to understand our absolute failings
Our world will continue to make those mistakes
And our end comes, with the proof showing
Our demise directly from the acts of our own hands
"The Future is Unwritten" Joe Strummer
In the beginning there was nothing
A stillness, a quiet that spoke loudly
Connections of seed and egg, a pulse
In an ocean churning with power
Life rises upon inspiration and spark
An awareness born by a quickening
The eyes staring out at the vast sky
Empathy towards all beings learned
Different in purpose and alive in form
All sharing a place upon the blessed earth
Alive in the gentle rhythms of the tides
Exquisitely alive in the passions
Of every new born life, and rising storm
The song of life and legend of existence
He told her calmly, carefully,
With distinct care and precision
I'm done fighting for you, with you
All of my desire to stay is gone
You offered me madness for reason
It is leading me to despair
All that matters is your satisfaction
You now have the final decision
Whatever I do, you'll label
As immoral or just wrong
So, hear me, I know it is over
We've finally come to an end
And yes, I know, I do
You don't care, I've been made aware
And I know your mind will not change
I've endured all of my time with you
Perhaps for you as well a form of Hell
For both it has seemed torturous
But we both know the truth
This has gone on too long
So farewell, my love
Farewell forever
The ash rises and falls
From the burning pyre
A hero leaves as smoke
An epic tale will be told
Of one who stood against all
His body consumed by fire
To others the air now chokes
Of a youth not allow to grow old
And his family and friends wait
Before a fire that rages, burning
Because of the one who died
Defending his people, village
Now his mother and father cry
There is one single warrior
Who won't be returning
From the field of battle
A youth never allowed more life
But his parents cry
They now have scars of war
And nothing could feel worse
The utter horror of confusion will follow
With a trauma similar to the disaster itself
And crushed by thought of all the chances
With the events that leave one hollowed
Grave damage and fears that overwhelmed
How might one have fled the circumstances
That now leave you in a darkened place
Should run for safety, lose your home
Or stay within that structure, and you die
Attempt to escape, it isn't luck you chase
But the love of your normal, family, home
And for all of the memories that survive
There in your memories is your life
Memories that are worth more
Than you will ever lose with fire
In every eternal struggle
In the form of epic battle
There is a coupled pair
Hero and Villain in union
With roles assigned, lived
A dragon is well able to act
With fire, his claws and flight
A warrior's armor can't compare
But within him, the heart beats
The powerful hero's noble blood
As he enters the dragon's lair
Armed with keen awareness
His drive and vision awakened
His existence will find purpose
As his steel weapon is used
In this place, he will stand
Ready to stop the flood
Of violence, and despair
I called the other day, trying again here
Nothing to say really, just offering my ear
You didn't answer the phone, figured I'd try and see
Since you left him and are feeling alone
I'm not suggesting anything, I know you're hurting
Not wanting anything, again
Still just trying to be a friend
I know we've never tried to be together
Everything we try with other people end
Never been able to time it right
When both our lives crash
Nothing we do will ever last
Maybe, when it is you and me
We'll find out, more than friends?
If we've figured out everything
Really what harm could it do
To try something, together
Maybe just me and you?
OK, please let me know
Hope you're doing better, keep me in the loop
The humans chose to put up a tree
Decorated it, placed lights upon it
Placing nice boxes around the base
But the cat wanted to kill the beast
No matter how it was brightly lit
The happy decorations she'd chase
If the boxes were nicely wrapped
She knew that they must be slain
The tree's decorations were lovely
But Katya, would only obey
The driving instincts towards prey
And she'd make the tree finally fall
And the humans would rue the day
For singing and exchanging boxes
This, the moment of ascendance
She was the alpha of that family
She'd stalked her tree and lights
As a hunter she couldn't change
No she wouldn't change
That tree would die
Now, at last, it would die
A hunter's inborn instinct
To hunt, track and slay
Could not be denied
The only promise I was given
Was very simple
I was told with my high expectations
That I'd find myself disappointed
After the promise proved true
I began a path, to be forgiven
Maybe, I'd chase salvation
Avoiding pointless moments
Where nothing matters
Find a hopeful view
That could help me endure
A life impure, and fallen
I'm no angel, nor a saint
But I have a code
And while I suffer I need a cure
I will not be deceived
Sin doesn't have an allure
Nor does constant pain
Sin is a disease
And I simply want a life
I long to be renewed
Make it become
Worth the pain and sorrow
I want a life where I can believe
That this Hell of the present
Is worth the struggle
To find the next tomorrow
And survive
If for a single moment
You saw the world's pain
Looking out with the eyes
Of the orphans rejected
Cast out, left out in the rain
You'd be forced to action
Either close your eyes and walk
Or reach out your hand and talk
Engage or deny it is your choice
Will you help or will you betray?
This world has a way
To rise above the catastrophe
But apathy becomes entropy
And then all hope is lost
As we count the cost
Of everything we might pay
While they hunger for sustenance
To allow them to live another day
From the children of the wood, Arthur was taught wisdom
By seer Merlyn's lips Arthur was told of greatest events
The foretold glories, all of the histories and legacies
Of past holy memories of kings and warriors would sing
Arthur learned from mentor Merlyn ways of the kingdom
Across the land as the people suffered, divided, wounded
Only one of the dragon's blood will raise a people up
Giving them hope, following the king's ringing voice
Arthur's father Uther bore the dragon's blood inside him
The son was from the dragon's line, and that of the faer
Finally ready to bear the sword of Kings, at last to lead
For a time, Arthur restored Britain to the highest place
He was just a human, however blessed, and graced
He is now gone, ready and waiting on Avalon
Healing, sleeping, even learning by dreaming
Before all falls down, he'll be restored to his crown
And will lead all of his people, again
There is a burning toxic air that is offending my senses
A frank smell of refuse, the scent of materialist excess
We've all been preached to about it, and taught this mess
If we deserve it, we must eat whatever can be killed
If we think we are atop the food chain, it chills me
That it won't be unlearned, that it can't be, makes me ill
Convinced my existence was fraud
A product of lust mixed with violence
I'd immediately lost my way, in the din
I'd been cursed with guilt
My birth announced with pain
I heard the screams aloud
Still wet, still cold from the event
My path forward was forged in regret
A heart rent in sorrow, a burden
I saw that life was not a gift
To find my way I had to discover
Life is not a guarantee,
Nor is it a promise
From solid stone life must be hewn
Carved by chisel and by hammer
To live well, our past must be forgotten
We must strive to live a life that is new
Aside from every lesson taught
To escape a future that is wrought
Destiny and fate are lies
Discover and seek the truth
My lover, my lady, my queen loves so very powerful
Her kiss entices me, her voice moves me to passion
Her bright mind is complicated, her spirit is a riddle
I long for her, never allow myself to be abandoned
She has great beauty, but her inner self amazes me
Entwined, our intricate connection reveals a desire
I'm left in awe, from the moment she awakens me
Some would describe it as attraction
But I would call it pure fire
In her presence or not, she is a perfect distraction
For the feelings I have for her, burns constantly
Have you ever asked yourself the question
Why is that you are always quite the fool
Despite the wealth and fame, you wrestle
You wanted to be loved for you, so true
Your dating history is a mystery so bad
You wanted to be chased for all you knew
What you needed was the love she had
And in the first chance you saw proof
The evidence was clear, you were duped
You couldn't know, you had no clue
She wasn't faithful from the start
She left skid marks on your soul
She keeps breaking your heart
You need to get back your control
Or you'll soon crash on the bridge
Fall out of the high flying plane
Leave your vehicle in the ditch
Walk back to LA in pain
You don't have a choice
You need to let go
There is nothing there
To hold onto
There is nothing there
Worth this fight
I promise you
You will be happier
We just need to get you
Through one night
I saw you holding hands with your child
Just a short while ago
I might've wanted to be there
In a time past
But life gave us a different path
Still, it really made me smile
You've given others happiness
Wherever you go
A spirit in you so powerful
Joy is a feeling that is rare
You have so much that you glow
You can't help but share
I'm happy to see you thriving
Giving to others in need
I know, you did that for me
And while I miss you
I've not been jealous
Being with you
Was when I first felt alive
I didn't see our end as a failure
Just a moment of life
Where two people once together
Were now going to live apart
Living different lives
I'm doing ok, fine, whatever
This isn't about me but I do still care
Seeing you reminded me
Of all the things I've learned
And now, even if life isn't fair
I know you are exactly that
You feel the pain of the hunger
And you find a way to feed them
You feel the hurt of the wounded
And find some way to heal them
You think of the things with empathy
You are life itself joyful, hopeful
I just thought I'd let you know
Now that I remembered
I wanted to say that in case I forget
Or, as I reach old age
I won't see you again
But the appreciation in me
Towards you
Remains
Your kiss, your whole soul, crushed my being, you took control
Condemning me, left me to rot, for my sins, you chose to haunt
In the asylum's depth they torture, wound me for your pleasure
I will die in this Stygian abyss, there's no escape from this place
So farewell forever, you'll get what you want, my life is bought
By the inch and piece, I'm cut, watch as I'm strung finally up
Laid out for the vultures to feed, no longer alive or deceived
Death isn't a problem, only a destination and dreams unfulfilled
My soul was a fertile soil that you've now fully tilled
Time lingers, slows before finality
Sorrow is inculcated in our demise
Every life ends with painful fatality
The innocents have been brutalized
Life has only ever been this way
It is existence's only path way
But with every birth we enter
We are alive with a pulsing beat
Death is an end we cannot cheat
So when Azrael offers his kiss
Don't struggle, Never twist
We all pass from this world
And every die will be cast
Know we will enter a change
And know our flesh will rage
Until we are purely spirit
Until escaping flesh's cage
We are released by a kiss
To transform from flesh
And to escape the abyss
I heard you when you quietly whispered his name
Removing his doubt, informed of your intent
Your flesh a temptation, his torment open flame
But you live every moment the same, no regret
If your body moved, it was perfect, so perfect
Graceful, you need no nuance, a true tempest
What you share with him is not for any others
If your desire burns, your love will smother
Nothing but love for you can make you enticed
Nothing but another one's desire fulfilled
But you know, any lover seen by your eyes
Will find your attention elegant, curated
You have an epic exquisite beauty
Perfectly created, expertly distilled
With over elaborated distinctions
We begin to think we are clever
With falsehoods as foundations
All humans will face extinction
Our species will die without restoration
As true believers say we'll never
As they suffer a moral starvation
Refusing to see the future destination
From moral truths we are severed
Chasing a white hart, running out of breath
A predator spirit stirs, as a function of my flesh
Not to kill this perfect beast, but to test my self
At the sound of my approach, the swift hart fled
But I smiled, overwhelmed by joy instead
For I'd seen what others would not
Watched a creature moving beyond fast
Thereafter I was able to follow where led
Into a field of flowers, debris and weeds
All lit by the morning's dawn
The white hart paused, looking
Knowing he won this contest
I took the lesson into the beyond
And never wandered there again
Keeping the moment in dreams
Keeping the hart's victory within me
Upon the megalith, under an solstice sun
A druidess celebrates rituals of faith
Calling forth a voice from the depths
Of the archive of our human earth
Collective hymns and rhythms of memory
With gathered sacred moments of praise
The druidess leader is singing, leading voices
She wears Holly in her braids
Her tribe is emotional, moved by the ritual
The wisdom of the Druidess resonates
She is moved by energy in that moment
Absolutely beautiful is this Gaia's child
And she longs to return to the wild
As it is found deep within her now
She sorrows as modernity beckons
All humanity facing a dire reckoning
How we've forgotten our roots
The loss of our origins
And our modern dreams
Will steal our purpose
If we refuse to see, close our eyes, act as if nothing happened
Our innocence will be born from a toxic selective ignorance
Our character is built by knowing the truth and defending it
In a world this confused and screaming or is it indifferent
What allows another to be wounded, without our comprehending
Are we so insensitive or is it arrogance, or disgust, are we fools
Unable to stand upon our own, without conformist societal rules
Are they the rules that limit growth, dismantle our own ability
To become adults, in a violent world of pain and fragility
We remember them all
Ghosts dwell here
Now made of shadows
Lingering in eternity
In the echoes, the hollows
Of every life lived with hope
Reaching across the horizon
Let the shadows draw near
If you need help reach out
Give me a little rope I'll find a way
In the shallows of our existence
I can wade there in the water
I might desire to go deeper
Into the flesh of the world
I've nothing more to accomplish
I can't escape destiny
Nor the anguish and still
The planet spins, yes, it turns
I remember the shadows
They are sacred
And to them, from face to face
In a darkness that echoes
Not running from them
They'll not have to give chase
For I'll not reject them
I'll enter in embrace
You walk just like you are untamed
With a cadence that brings life to flames
Your presence here carries me with it
For yours is a wild energy and wit
You have a glorious jasmine scent
A body of attraction that never relents
Your flesh calls to me, lover, erotically
And with your eyes so deeply exotic
I find you so entirely intoxicating
I can't resist, for you are captivating
I surrender, please take me now
Tears couldn't extinguish the flames of hurt
That well up inside me I can't call it hate
Nor anger, I'm not allowed that
You called me fat, ugly, stupid, worthless
From day one with you I wanted to just die
There's more to life than love
Than the coupling with someone
And certainly not with you
Never happy with me
To you I was a disease
You said I was toxic
If you loved me, how could I know
Couldn't have killed me better with a gun
I've tried over time to forgive you
For everything
You have good aspects about you
But never shared them with me
I am ready to leave this world
And with a clear mind
You think the fault was mine
I'll let you decide
You aim all the fault
Directly at my diseased brain
You never forgave my being
Now I just wait in the cold rain
Wondering why I bother
Did you still think I was a stain?
Worthless, stupid and fat?
You made it known I wasn't welcome
Or do you not remember that
It is done, let me just leave
I'd hate for you to think hope remains
I'll leave instead as I'd rather move on
Cold and empty
While sitting in the rain
She lived far away, so there shouldn't be a chance
For the two to meet, in secret or otherwise
He was lonely beyond words, without an other
Tired of living an adult life, walking in a trance
His world fell apart with every coming sunrise
After surrendering to those saying to be alone
He thought this life could be made to work
But after years of solitude it had to end
He had to end it all right now
Her eyes sparkled, her voice clarion clear
He needed her, he wanted her to be near
So he began his journey, live or die
If he found her, he'd be able to survive
But only then
There, rising above the spinning globe
Staring down deep into the blue below
What a beautiful gem the planet Earth
Perhaps it is unique in the galaxy
And filled with vibrant life
Is it one place where organic life thrives
Did the planets and stars align in a symphony
A universe designed so very brilliantly
By the hand that creates without flaw
By a mind of an artist, creating awe
How have we evolved?
Without being damned completely
I've been torn by hooks
Crushed by burdens
Life is not a game
But it is still played
Stolen from the womb
I was forsaken
Queen takes Rook
Protected by Pawn
The chessboard is our tomb
Each vulnerability
Exposed
With every chance taken
I refuse to capitulate
Never tip my King
So hunt me across the field
Take no prisoners
Have the trumpets call out
Announce my doom
Chase my dreams
And then slay them
Corner me and take me down
Plan your attack
Plan everything
Down to the final move
That damn phone of yours
Rang over and over and over
You'd told me not to call
You weren't going to answer
You weren't lying
No you weren't
And you didn't
I had something to say
I thought I did
At least
I thought it was real
That we were lovers
But you said
'You're a living disaster
A broken man, nothing of worth
A candle already burnt
Maybe you should be chained
Like the beast, that you are'
I wanted to tell you
Something
Just a short thing to say
I love you
But screw that
I get your point
Sorry it didn't work out
I'm leaving now
No reason to stick around
Only fools linger
Only idiots wonder
When told the truth
There's little one can do
Long ago, I had to begin this journey
I traveled all the way
To the center of the earth
It has taken many more lifetimes
To cross the globe, I've grown weary
I've tried grow and I've tried to learn
The lessons have not made me wise
I am but clay and spark in the form of man
I've become hardened, maybe resilient
My flesh will fade away, but I'm defiant
It will take all of my life, I am rent
I will find my victory or remain silent
My life is spent for now, but I still stand
My quest will be achieved
Or there is nothing
In the general population, they keep my hands tied behind my back
And if I weren't aware, I'd be brutally beaten, ambushed, attacked
In my cell, I smash my head against the wall until my day is over
The demons keep speaking, I've no drugs at all, I'm stone cold sober
The loons come over and mock me, for they wander the halls free
Staff considers me dangerous, tightening my chains until I bleed
Because there is a difference between evil, diseased and broken
I refuse to give them their prize, I keep my words unspoken
When I'm released, how my vengeance will flow like a stream
None that taunt or harm me will find any amount of safety
My soul restored, my flesh renewed
In my deepest core, I know it is true
You are my first, truly my only love
There in your reach I have enough
While you were given nothing
You still offer
And you share the story of your life
You are the great author
I've endured a lifetime
Of a plague of sorrow, pain
It will flee if you remain
Within my beggar's reach
For you are all I'll seek
There's nothing like your companionship
Your love makes me complete within
