Inferno walk

I am walking into the inferno
The path is wrought with pain
My flesh burns off the bone
The fear drives me insane
I stare into the burning flame
I become blinded
I feel shame
And never
Will I
Return

heart

I haven't watched long enough
To know if I am still amused
I haven't spent enough love
Nor even good moods
I am awash in darkness
I am the child of sin
My heart speaks of pain
And my soul of pain within

Red Tide

Who am I
Watching from a distance
I float outside the dome
Watching
Knowing
Waiting
My flesh is dead
Aged by time
I am a corpse
Flensed and cut
There is nothing inside
My flesh now simply meat
No one cares
Not even me
I am the result of suicide
A body sans spirit
Existence fled
Muscles and bones
A red tide
Of death

Before the King of Atlantis

We'd spent the weekend fishing
The open ocean was wicked and toiling
Our small boat was unstable
We'd caught many fish but
The storm was rising
And spoke aloud a prayer to the king
He was unkind
Enormous and filled with ire
We were in awe
We were tiny and insignificant
Before him
We survived only by our guile
Insignificance
And luck

They formed a circle

Eternity is a circle, with no beginning point
And no end
We stand in the middle
Not seeing our linear projection
Because we are surround
And time is lost
There is no cost
The spirit is eternal
We must abandon the flesh
Draw new breath
And enter the circle
Of ever

"If we consider eternity, into that time never entered; eternity is not an everlasting flux of time, but time is as a short parenthesis in a long period; and eternity had been the same as it is, though time had never been."

John Donne

To Serve the Great King

I the serve one
The only one
The great I am
And my flesh is his
To use
With great prejudice
With innocence
With my naive mind
He is king
Use me for war
To take my sword
Break my bones
Make me bleed
I am his
And I offer something
That is nothing
For to die is to live
To ascend is to be
More than anything
That I might desire
By service I am redeemed

Crushing me

Guilt without relent
Weighing down my heart
My soul rent
Regret for the things
I can't forget
That I've done
Against my own pretense
That I deserve
Anything good
That I should reverse
My ascent
And surrender
Remember
For the rest of this life
And even thereafter

chased

Led by the huntmaster
Wolves
Nightmares
Banshees
Darkness
All Chase me
Filled with desire
Longing to kill
I am hunted
For their thrills
Relentless
They never tire

Athena so worthy

I learned why honor is beauty
When my heart stopped for a moment
And I saw her grace, Athena
Her face was forgiving
Her form was powerful
And agile
I begged her to forgive my failure
And she smiled and nodded
I awoke alive
Amidst my countrymen
And was told
I was the reason
They'd survived
I'd acted though unconscious
I had thrived
Due to her

Against my nature

I am guilty of spending my life searching for something
That I would never find in one hundred lifetimes
I confess that I am unable to love more than I've known
Despite being given forgiveness for my crimes
Forgiveness is alien to my darkest nature
I lost my focus
Lost my trust
And gave in to despair
And fear

white out

Every thing in view
Is ivory to the eye
Nothing black or gray in hue
A simple palette of white
The vision so fantastically beautiful
Without extravagance
So pure in shape and form
Tastes change, but beauty is immutable
Nothing about it is inadequate
Captured in the violence of a storm

Absolute shame

Your eyes penetrate the distance between us
And my eyes close for the injustice
Of knowing you without speaking my heart
For you are the goddess Venus
And I've never been close to being Mars
Even as my loyal heart makes war
Upon my faithless soul
The battle for control
Will determine
Who leaves the scars
If I open up my being
I might be redeemed
I might be blamed
If I remain closed
And never speak a word
I self inflict damage
And cause enormous pain
I live in silence
And remain alone
And revel in my absolute shame
For I allowed my hope
To die without a fight
To remain rooted upon the earth
When I have wings for flight

The War Against the Fire Worms

The day arrived when victory was ours
We had fought and slew hordes of dragons
We were experts, committed and true
We'd celebrated our victories, with flagons of mead
And had assumed the world was free
For no dragons now flew
It was the warrior's hour
But we had absolutely no understanding
Of what dragons do when faced with struggle
They dig deep into the earth
Laying eggs for the future horde
But also unleashing the power
When their queen gave birth
The metamorphosis of the species
The dragon queen is able
When threatened to transform
A much larger and more vile body
Loathsome breath, and flight
A Worm, of enormous length
And more
She gave birth to more of her kind
All bearing the gifts of their mother
The dragons were gone
Replaced with creatures
Much greater
And impossible to slay
Humans had had their victory
But now the Worms
Would have their day

MY BRAIN

Truth request

I closed my eyes and turned away
I couldn't bear the knowledge of the shame
That followed my path since you left
Now I am cursed,
But with you I'd been blessed
My hopes are gone
My life is ended
What was wrong
Were you offended
Why did you leave me
What did I do?
What did I say?
Please tell me the truth

My Epiphany

Eternal King

No Choice

Life is good, right?
Then why is it such a fight
If life is a bowl of cherries
Somebody already ate my share
If life is but a dream
This is a fucking nightmare
I fight the urge to collapse in despair
But I am exhausted
And might have no choice
If I am murdered
I will have no voice
And Life itself slays me

Never easy

Let the blade slip in
Let this demon out
Break my back
I have those doubts
Kiss my lips
Use a noose
In the wind
You know I'll twist
Hang me up
Never let me go
I have no hold on reality
My brain gears are loose
I know I will fall
So Azrael dance with me
Give me a kiss upon my sinner lips

Storm's landfall

The storm had been predicted
It was said to be one
That appears once every millennium
But that doesn't mean anything
To the people destroyed
There also had been prophecies written
Of a year of blackened sun
And soon comes humanity's requiem
The innocent are felled by hatred's offspring
The wait made us all paranoid

Matthew 24:21-22 “For then there will be great tribulation, such as has not been from the beginning of the world until now, no, and never will be. And if those days had not been cut short, no human being would be saved. But for the sake of the elect those days will be cut short.”

Relentless Time Moves

Rescuer

Tormented and broken
He died for me
I watched as he fell
Surrounded by those
Who care not
He was the chosen
He came to redeem
He broke the bonds of hell
For those who chose
A life of redemption
Awakened now
From the epoch long sleep

gaining awareness

cast off into the depths of oblivion
scattered stars lighting the vacuum
he gained awareness, and power
in this exile
darkness as black as evil is stygian
but this pathway was not to doom
rather, it was now the hour
in solitude sublime

I was once great

You pecked at my shattered body
But you didn't know, I was once great
The sun rose every morning to greet me
And the flowers shouted my name
And in my role
Of the protector
I stood guard
And scared off the invaders
Just from my steely stare
Now I am a broken pile of wood
And the branches are shards
Some things in life
Aren't fair

Dance

Should they dance
Or should they fade from view
This world offers choices
But only some of them are true
They might ascend
They might fall
We face circumstances
Each and all

Please help me

Can I please ask for help
Do you remember when you said
I don't know what to say
Say yes
Say yes
Or I'll hold my breath
Until dead
Say yes
I want to spend my life
With you
Forever after
I've loved you
Since we met
Say yes
Please

pinebox to sleep in

I've laid in this shallow grave
Long have I been dead
The black roses cover the casket
The pinebox is now my bed

The world has entered the shadows
My soul has fled this place
The demons and angels challenge
I long for eternity's taste

The end has come to the future
There is no beginning again
I have nothing to give or offer
Play the mournful violin

Should we pass before our time
We should embrace our fate
Our hearts uncorrupted inside
And though sinful feel no shame

Dragons & Slayers

Spellbound

The night is magic
The night holds sway
I stare into her darkness
And panic
She seeks to slay
My fears are a harness
I can't escape
But she is beautiful
More so than the day

Your opinion of me

I spent a lifetime trying to please
You and your generation of voices
But my existence fell into catastrophe
Because you tried to make all of my choices
I give up
I surrender
There is nothing to celebrate
I can only be myself
And don't want to be
What you would consider best
With nothing left
Of me
So remember
If you care
Let me flourish
If you want only a child
Who obeys
Get a dog

Nephilum Warriors

They were the children of rape
When angels fallen to earth
Took the human women
And planted their seeds
The hybrids were then giants
Powerful
Celestial
Violent
And men of renown
They were woven into every populace
Giants, monsters, heroes and demi gods
They loved battle
They sought pleasure
And in the end
They lingered in the dens
Of leisure and treasure

every inch of life covered, smothered

And still they chase the living
The beings sent to annoy, to harass
Our lives soon become forgotten
In our efforts to escape the swarm
We cannot make use of grace given
They eat everything, more than grass
When we finally make headway we collapse
Into a world less for their presence
Everything good made rotten

Walk or Ride

You may walk into the mists without a guide
You may take a horse and with it ride
To far edges of the world you live
Conquer all in your name
But still never be forgiven
No sacrifice nor gentle words
Can replace the blood
Of the one
Sent to end
What was begun

The Swarm

They will rise from the earth
Stinging us, biting and causing dread
They've been sent as a curse
Not care to feed upon living or dead

2016

The political election
Between Clinton and Trump
Was a devastating catastrophe
It all seemed like a fire in a dump
Given two choices, vomit and shit
I refused to choose
And nothing I could say would stop it
So I chose to stand
Against the tide
And refuse
I resist
Because there was nothing to say
Except I exist

And America has rolled snake eyes

30 Years in the Legion

"It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience."  Julius Caesar

I walked like so many
Upon the roads and paths
Of our builders
For so many years
I survived to return home
But no human escapes
All face old age's wrath
I fought across the stretch
Of the width of the Empire
And I survived the final cost
Mustered out
Returning to see my parents
I know not if they are well
But if they have passed
My life will have been wasted
And I will never overcome
This loss

Elysium's gaze

In the warmth of the Elysium sun
Gentle winds shelter and surround
The evening falls with grace
As the stars make their appearance
The lovers exchange a gaze
Seeing only eternity's embrace
Lounging in love's brilliance
Here no one will age
For eternity's dawn is timeless
And every night is born
With the truth
Known
That love is eternal
Elysium is joy adorned
A land of comfort
A paradise
Where the creator's adores
His beloved

White Dragon Mountain

Upon the top of the mountain
A large cave held a worm
White and lithe it lay
Upon ice, he brewed storms
His domain was everywhere
Where the world was not warm  

The serpent had scales that were made of ivory
It had a heart that was colder than ice
Frozen were the eyes that stared
He was never defeated, whatever amounts of bravery
There were no more willing, with lives ready to sacrifice
No warriors could be enticed, without offer of reward

With breath of freezing
And claws that tear
The serpent reigns without fear
For his power is endless
And the humans below
Were filled with despair

“And though I came to forget or regret all I have ever done, yet I would remember that once I saw the dragons aloft on the wind at sunset above the western isles; and I would be content.”
― Ursula K. Le Guin, The Farthest Shore 

Black Dragon Society

Boiling up
From the abyss
From tail to tip the Black Dragon is
Murderous and menacing
A mysterious band of conspiracists
Gathered together, subterfuge for a cause
The reach of her wings darkens the sun
They mean to control the enemy's lands
And night has begun

Fear is not acceptable

Fear is proof of a degenerate mind.

Virgil 

 To follow a leader

Such as Alexander Magni

Required many aspects of character

One must be a warrior

Willing to fight, to die

One must be ready to work

For cross global treks are nigh impossible

And one must be fearless

Unwilling to cry

Unwilling to flee

Fear is weakness

And fear will lead you 

Where you will only be horrified

Refuse fear

And you will rise

Able to fight forever