I spent this life in love with you
Even as you fled from my reach
Tried and failed to measure my heart
Nothing ever works, or is ever good
Unless the lessons I've seen you teach
Will heal my being, remove my scars
I suffered from allowing myself feel
For in the final glory of your presence
I ache inside, and recognize my fears
Loving you has been only surreal
Over the years of feeling absence
And burning savage endless tears
I wonder how great a fool I am
And the depth of my pretense
To ever think I was worthy
Even think that I have your love
It is far enough that I was able
To love you from a distance
Desiring until mania strikes
Your simple touch
