Let me begin October with an awareness
Of the vile time and disaster we endured
Let this be the moment we remember
With clarity and generosity
When we used to be happy,
When we used to be sober
Existence alone was enough
Simply being was our dream
Now as we wonder quietly, without a sound
Where went everything we loved
Where did our future go
Now that the present is crumbling
Our hopes, our happiness, our sleep
Now I am fat, tired, and wondering
When is Death going to come 'round
Longing only for my kiss?