No Anchor

Like a ship in a whirpool
Having no anchor
A mystery I have found
I beg for the answer
What is the point of existence
Without some holy ground
I am alone with my thoughts
While the world pulses
Pulls me down
Sinking beneath the waves
Reaching up to be saved
My flesh watches me drown
And I am alone
Without my cloak of flesh
Possessing only hope
For redemption
Healing
Come take me
Home

Crushed heart, lost breath

Taking a deep breath
Holding it in
The pain holds me
Tighter than a vice
This life
Crushes me
Makes me hate myself
Which isn't fair
But what the hell
Everything I do
Everything I say
Rings a bell
And I am thrown
From the ring
The curtain falls
And I am escorted
Off the stage
Again
But I keep trying
Keep crying
Dreams are shattered
Hopes scattered
Unto the wind
For I love
So I lose
For I feel
So I shriek in pain
Again
But I will go on
Because the only thing worse
Than failing
Is quitting
My grieving will never end
So the bleeding
Pours from me
Screaming

Complete Control

My eyes are red
My neck is stiff
My body has not received rest
But I am alone
Alert, and confused
Dare I speak it
Dare I confess
In the midst of the darkness
The entire of the sleep is lost
When she visits my mind
Whilst I dream
I toss over and again
And wake
A mess
She was never my lover
She was never close
To my heart
But she dances upon my chest
I sleep in portions
Restlessly
If ever, or at all
Dreaming of her there
Crushing my mind
Sucking out my soul
Making me fear
To ever sleep
Again
For she
Is in
Complete control

You Hung There, From the Killing Tree

Slowly 

The procession crawled

Over head the skies grew dark

I saw you falling

While carrying a cross

Upon the bloody pulp 

Of your back
The scourge whipped flesh

Breaking beneath the torture

Beneath their hand

You were given stripes

Colored in blood

In the sorrow 

King of kings

Lord of lords

From a trickle 

To a flood

Of sadness

You paid for my sin

And I am without a way

That I could ever pay you

So I offer what I have

My flesh, bones and viscera

My heart, soul and mind

And the truth

Set me free

Even so long after

You hung there

From the killing tree

I can't even say her name

She hurt me so much
The mere mention of her name
Causes me pain
And then it ends
Before it has begun
However
I draw a breath
Close my eyes
To avoid the tears
That are going to come
When I think of what she has done
To my heart
To my hopes
To my dreams
I burn in shame
Left behind in this world
Covered in its shit
Again
I can't even say it
Her name causes me to shudder
If she were just a girl
Coming into my life
I'd have been prepared
But it was more
And now I cannot speak
Without the burning
Without the rain
Pouring down
Upon me
Again

For the seer, She sees it all

As I stare into an electric sky
Lightning pours down like rain
I am covered in shadow of stars
As they blink in and out of view
Serenity
By a halo of light I gaze into your eyes
You make my wild heart tame
You heal my sorrows and my scars
Allowing the sky to reveal blue
Electricity
Thunder clouds and a brilliant moon
The awesome power of nature's game
I beg of you to give me your heart
I shiver as if I am born new
Fantastic
Holding your hand I remember
Why I was created, again
I hope to never say au revoir
Because I am part of you
Ecstasy 
Renewed
Life abounding
Your way is true
Let the children dance
Let our heart's joy ensue
We are one
Sing children
Sarah is free
The world awakens
Again
Anew

Believe in me

I realize that I have no control
Over anyone but me
So as it has begun
You might like to know
I am not so foolish as to give
My heart to just anyone
But to one
Like you
And that love will redeem
You are woven intricately
Into my soul
You are not just anyone
I do not go
Where the wind might blow
Nor without thought
My heart has room
For you
And no one else
If you need proof
That I am true
I promise
You will see
My words are my bond
My feelings are real
Are you Doubting Thomas?
I might be a fool
For many things
But I am well aware of
Where my love is aimed
And how deep it goes
Believe in me
I am not just a part
I am the whole
In love with you

Lay with me beneath the Lotus tree

My heart awakens
When I see you
It shouts
And I cannot quiet it
I beg you
Shall we lay together
In the summer sun
May I speak
As if we are one
Let me entangle
My flesh
With yours
Tightly wear me
Let me feel what
Love is about
My flesh is weakened
Without your touch
Lift me with your love
While our spirit soars
Press your lips
Across mine
Breathe my air into your mouth
My life energy into your being
I burn inside
From the moment
I see you approach
My eyes never close
Your beauty drives me
My soul was dry
As if in drought
You quench my thirst
Stay with me here
Under the lotus trees
In the shade from the sun lit sky
Your love soothes my heart
Like a gentle breeze
In summer's heat
I love you
Forever more
I can never release
Your hand
Be the flood
Cover my land
With your love
"He lies under the lotus trees, in a covert of reeds and marsh. The lotus trees cover him with their shade; The willows by the brook surround him."

No thank you.

How many times
Did you call my name
In despair, needing me?
How many times
Did you ask me to bleed
For the sins of others
Making you scream
Hurting you inside
I begged for you mercy
You gave me pain
I begged for your love
That you never gave
And now when you are alone
You call my name again
Expecting me to fall
But I won't
Because
You taught me a lesson
That I won't forget
I earned it with burning regrets
I can't hear the phone
When you call
Because I hate myself
Whenever I answer
You don't know
How much I bleed
But I know
Loving you
Is a disaster

Angel Cat

You were the one
You were my sole love
Unique in your ways
Ubiquitous in my memories
Forgiving those few moments of rage
Embracing the legacy of your days
With me
Untold are the stories of your suffering
That no words can redeem
When I sleep I dream of your face
Kissing me
Tears don't wipe away the taste
Of sorrow
In me
I still grieve
And your ghost I still chase
Without relent
For the one
Heaven sent

For my angel Mischa, leaving me in 2001.

Please, no, make no mistake

No
I never said 
You shouldn't love me
You are mistaken
I said I don't understand
How someone so
Beautiful
Could say she loved me
Who would take my hand
Into hers
Make me fall into her soul
From the love's pull
Like gravity
I never said you shouldn't
I just said
I don't know
How I
Could find someone
So wonderful
Really
It doesn't matter
I don't need to be right
I just need to be
Yours

Cast out, for our selfish need

They wished to gain

Every thing

When they had all

That they would need

But have we ever been 

Content

With what we need

Instead we betrayed 

Ourselves 

The provenance

For our promise

In so doing

Throwing away

Perfection

We denied paradise 

For the wicked desire

To know

From our first breath

Wisdom comes with pain

The gates closed

Forever

Guarded and secured

To prevent our entry

How are we simple creatures

To ever be

Returned to that state

Where we are new

Born without

The knowledge of the flesh?

Shards of my heart

There is no evidence
Upon the ground
Or in sight
Only the shattered heart
Left behind
Fallen shards of glass
Of the one chance
To be free inside
But within my closed lips
I hold fast
Tightly
A secret burns
But without release
I know what you said
Saw what you did
And it gives me no relief
At all
In any way
To know that you feel it
To know that you
Burn inside like me
Too
It doesn't help to know
You are
Without anything
That you can do

Grinding

Stuck firmly in the muck

Held fast in the mire
I am nearly bound

Naked and senseless
Je dois persévérer
There was no ego to shatter
For I learned
Long ago
That my destiny
Was to be ground into bits
Crushed into atoms
Existence takes its toll
Awaiting Judgment day

Je dois persévérer
For those who serve
Called to be truthful 

Amongst only liars
Alone in the world I was lost

They devoured me
Swallowed me whole

Just me

Amongst my enemies
Je prends de la chute
I walked into the fire
To serve is my only desire
So weary from my wounds
So tired
My path so narrow
I cannot follow
I have nothing left
To offer
But my being
And my being is true
Grand roi, mon créateur, je désire vous
My shadow is thin
My soul is hollow
But I still serve
My sword is still upraised
I await the king of all things
And quietly I pray

I long to be

Worthy

But in the end

Should I be

Just a gear

In the machine

I have done what was asked

Fulfilled my task

And that is worthy

For me

Gone to the Isle of the Dead

My spirit is eternal
But my flesh is not
Tomorrow's days are not promised
Because death exists
And the dying flesh is known
To rot
Before the world was begun
Death had its beginning
I know it happens
I am not naive
My eyes have seen
Too much
I was born old
Never allowed to be young
And still
I grieve for the lost times
I grieve her absence
I sorrow for the one
Who is not here
She is far away
Taken to the Isle of the dead
And I am sorrowed for my being
Alone without her
I sleep without rest
I am unable to breathe
Air that hasn't been in her lungs
There is nothing that I can say
Even less that I can do
That will ever allow
Me to not be
Undone
I grieve for her

No Reason Without You

My heart still beats for you
You never said goodbye and I
Remain in shambles
Shattered and blue
I shiver from the cold
Alone and living in deja vu
Every time I think of
Our life together
I remember the good times
Even in faded memory
I long to surrender
And live in the past
But the world still spins
Goes on regardless
And I am fading fast
Because I can't see the reason
To keep going on
Without you

Your Machinations

Please do it
Just declare victory
You might say I'm wrong
But I know you
And I know you never loved me
It is without question the truth
Whatever your protestations
I have seen the proof
I was just your momentary fling
That is, a fickle swing of affection
You don't seem to care
But I am sure you understand
I am broken by your machinations
From the beginning I knew
You saw my heart as vulnerable
And you said we were friends
In an act of deflection
But you are one who is
Ruthless in love and life
You ran through my defenses
You took no prisoners
Your motives all too selfish
With all of your see through intentions
I surrendered
You won
You broke me
Declare victory
You don't care
You drove me senseless
Broke my trust
All because you wanted
My attention
Then you refused to end your game
Until my heart was crushed

Terminus Oh Terminus

I know how life works

You are born You live You die

I know this

Even though sometimes

Things aren't fair

The moment life begins

The end is begun

Life has a cost

But even knowing this

I grieve her loss as her child

I am broken now still

I am a parentless son

I long to hear her voice again

I won't since she is gone

I grieve her still

And I always will

My memories aren't enough

Since she's passed

My heart remains undone

She has gone to a place

I cannot reach

I won't know where that is

Until I am joined with her

It is a razor's edge I am upon in this life

Choosing to live over letting myself die

Denying myself the easy transit

To the terminus station

I long for that passage

But I can only sorrow her now

I will be here to finish my tour

Remaining until the end

With nowhere to run

When God is ready 

I will be found

Sleeping permanently 

 Under a pale moon in Autumn

When my time is come

My flesh condemned

In the coldest broken ground

Duty

It is said

We all bow before

The one we serve

Whether it is money

Or love

Until we are dead

But our service goes further

The angels serve their purpose

Made by an all powerful creator

The kings of the world all fall down

When their lives are turned dust

They bow will before their maker

The beasts, the men, the women

The unborn, the beggar, the wounded

The priest and the child

All fall before the altar of the one

Who tames the heart of the wild

I am a knight

I possess weapons and steel

And can take life by my hand

In the name of my king's will

His campaign and victory

My body is offered

For the land

Still, I lay my sword before

The one who redeems me

Of my pain

When death seems the master

Even it bows

After its devastation

All bow before the one

Who gave them purpose

By his creation

One to Love

No victories won
Yet I am near the end
Tortured and tired
Exhausted, staggering
Staring off into the sun

Normally so bright
It blinds
But my eyes
Protected by the clouds
Staring into the distance

Knowing who I am doesn't help
Some see my outside flesh
And they assume
Think I've got it easy
They don't know
I've been alone for my journey
Alone in crowds

So many people near
I've been blind
But I have seen
While I hear no sound
With my ears
Still hear it all so clearly
The screams are silent
Instead of loud
But
The only thing I need
Ever needed, is you

Where are you now
Where were you then
I need you near
But I've lost my way
Without your hand in mine
The path so hard to follow
All I want is to be yours
And you to me in kind

But I am alone still
With just a shadow remaining of me
Inside

Breath, Sex, Battle, Flesh, Death

In this ancient place
The arena is for all to enter
How one survives depends
Upon the role they play
Upon the stage

Warriors and war prisoners fight
Unequal battles
Before the crowds
Who cheer the slaughter
Satisfied with the blood
The victors need no laurels
These enemies were unarmed
With names no one will remember
And bodies cast out
As feed for the wild beasts
Any remnants of life dismembered

The slaves and eunuchs
Maneuvering their masters
Through their wit and wiles 
To be the ones in actual power
By acting subservient
And with manipulation
They show that they are clever
They rule in the shadows of daylight
And in the corridors of quiet
In the night

In the harem chambers
Wives, and consorts 
Privately speak, and bathe
Before the Caliph returns
Before they must bow before him
To reveal themselves and
To welcome his entreaties
To satiate his lust in many turns
One by one they enter his chamber
And he is moved less and less
And does not remember even their names
With his passions emptied

The world they all live in
Is brutal and unforgiving
Each makes a sacrifice
Inside their rooms
Chambers, barracks
And cages to endure
To keep on living
Until freedom comes
Perhaps tomorrow
If not the next day
We'd like to think we are different
But we also do this
In modernity
Every single day
Making our offerings
Fighting our battles
Trying to endure our servitude
However we can

Lost

Some are moved by miracles

Others by great events

But I am moved by one
Who stirs my soul inside

She is my paradise

And I cry
For I have seen her 

It does not make me glad

And I have wept

To know that I am far away

I am desolate 

I have seen forever in her eyes

I get lost there sometimes

I gaze into the depths

I see the children we never had

The future hopes become misery

When forbidden by the past

But I know that she is glorious

She is more beautiful

Than anything or anyone

I've ever known

Je suis devenu désolé

Makes me pine 

For the privilege of being

By her side

Alone there

In forever's tides

The Last Knight

Who am I to ask

What the sacrifice is for

When there is

Evidence of our decadence

The prelude to the fall

Resist the insistence

That we answer to a call

Despite the message 

Or from whom it is carried

Despite the bodies 

Already buried

Our swords we keep 

For we trust in the steel

So sharp, so cold 

Our tongues bleeding savage wit

As if we are allowed to choose

Shattered dreams of younger men

Shattered bodies of the old

Are the final remains of this

War of the confused

Am I going to rise above

Or do I wallow in discharge

Do I bring honor to him

Or shall I lay alone

Upon the river of fire's

Charnel house barge

Shall I offer my flesh

Fetid and foul

Or perhaps you desire

My final breath

Then take me now, take me

So that I can prevent the rape

First of my faith

Then of my flesh

By the wars of empires, whores and liars

Let me first burn upon your holy pyre

Fade

Sorrow haunts me
Fading desire
To survive
Now too weak

And nearly gone

Grieving

Laying in bed 

Feel like dying

Wanting the unconscious

But I can't force my self

I am not that strong

Still screaming inside

Conscience still bleeding

Rolling over and over

In mental agony

Not sleeping

Again

Another night lost

Overactive mind

Losing everything

My tears have long since dried
I can't stop thinking

My memory fades

Except for what you said

I lose when I try to face

That reality

I fade away

Wish I could forget it all

You said goodbye

And then you left

You said you don't love me

Any longer

There are no words

For the hurt I am feeling

Other than abject regret

Far too much to remember

You left me blind and deaf

Still no dreams on the way

My eyes open wide

Staring at the ceiling

Alone

Fading

Fast

Nightmare 30s

They were called the Dirty Thirties
In middle America
The Black Blizzard could not be foreseen
But disaster are often hidden
In the memories of time
And the hopes of future days
Nightmare wrung from the dream
Of living upon the land
And by labors make it flourish

Where once the land was fair

And golden grains grew white 

From the flower

For a century of

Unending labor

Breadbaskets became full

Under the sun

Happiness for the harvest

Turned to abject despair

Under growing sweat 

The earth was broken

With no rain

The sun cooked the ground

Forlorn prayers

Unheard and unanswered

 Despite the merit 

Of the bowed bodies

Facing down

The darkness at midday 

A catastrophic wind

The naked land

Exposed to the sins

Of exceeding the harvest

Ripped by the plowshare

Broken and bleeding

The land did not renew

And people fled

Of a season of death

In the devil's lair

Of Dust Bowl America

She Moves Like A Black Cat

Nothing less than an enigma
Comme un chat noir dans les ombres
She is a black cat
Dancing in shadow
Graceful beyond description
So lovely to behold
I feel her in me
In the depths of my being
My visceral response
To her motion
Her form fits the shadows
Perfectly
Every motion every inch of her
Exquisitely
Poured out artfully
Beauty and grace together
But for me
Nearly impossible to watch
For something rises in me
That I cannot respond to
Without revealing
All that I am
And all that I long for
And all that I will ever be
Comme un chat noir dans les ombres

What is love?

Some measure worth as being great

But how we measure greatness is folly

Greatness

What is it

To kill men and conquer 

Or do things before others

That grant them laud

Or is it to love another greatly

As the most beautiful thing

And what is love

Is it the union of Ares and Aphrodite

Or the love of the common people not gods

The demi gods of history loved 

Hephaestion and Alexander 

as Achilles and Patroclus

Warriors and lovers in life

Yet in modernity we deny thus

We suggest that they were just great friends

Love never ends

Love is a fire

And when it stops burning

We are dead

Greatness is love

Loving another

Whoever

However

We meet

I burn for my Elizabeth

None others are so beautiful

My life is my love

And I am blessed

Father Ares

We worship Mars
The God of all War
With every dead youth
With civilian deaths
Children and mothers
Elderly, the uninvolved
We worship Mars
With every life offered up
His greatest pleasure
Death of the innocent
In the path of Victory

26

Although I walked freely
I was not
I spent my life
Nearly 25 years
In prison
I was going 500 miles per hour
In reverse
Into the wall and window
Banged my head against the glass
Shattered memories showered
Covering me in pain perverse
Bleeding everywhere
Blamed for more than my share
Because a child is blameless
I began to cower
In the corner
Born under a curse
Fearing to speak
My being shriveled
Under the glare
Of perfection seekers
And judges
You reached out your hand
Broke my bonds of failure
Allowed me to be a man
Taught me how to love
Became a sort of savior
Restoring life
To someone dead
And I still
Can't understand
Why
But I am not giving it back
That which you gave me
Is all I have
All I want
Still

Red Sky Falling

We thought ourselves gods
But we were not
We were sheep to be led
To the slaughter
I watched as they made it known
We were to be fattened
And bred
For more to be made
To satiate our hunger
A soulless generation
We craved
We desired

Luxurious opulence
Our hearts were blackened
Deceived lives without passions
For our cravings
We were led away
To the slaughter house
Led away from the path
We desired
Lusted and hungered
Pious in our cravings
We desire only more


So far from home
I watched as plans were made
To have us breed
To create life
For our pleasure
To use their bodies
Taking their life
To replace worn flesh of our own
Directly from womb
To the slaughter house
To harvest again

Callously
We enter the tomb
And maudlin cry
For the child we have slain
To sait our flesh
We were led away
From the truth
And our bodies soon
Flensed and shaved from the bone




Removed too, our heart and brains
Because they made it known
It was not our hearts they wished
But our soul
Warned yet ignorant

Given truth but refuse to believe
Stepping upon the words
We are surely harvested
Until not one remained
The Red Sky Falling
Wie Schafe zur Schlachtbank geführt
Wie Schafe zur Schlachtbank geführt
Like lambs to the slaughter
Willingly
Because we desired
Unendingly
We became our fate
We desired and we grew fat
From the hunger insatiable
The Red Sky Falling
Upon us

My Love, My Black Swan

(a metaphor that no one will translate, yet it is truth, for me)

Whereupon I was yours
I longed for you once
But no longer
I grieved for your loss
But you are not gone
You simply refuse to be
I sorrowed my being
My lack of your presence
But you are a black swan
Fated to pass
And haunt me now
Like paint free canvas
Like a ghost who longs for my madness
You exist but only in memory
And I cannot exist without you
Oh can't you see
Hope offers but never provides
The beat of my heart
Becomes silent inside
For you were my love
Everlasting and good
And now you are gone
Though next to me
I shiver in pain
From the memory of once
Lost for the long
Of time
I was yours
Neverending my love
I offered it full
And you left it emptied

Quest Unending

I am flawed like a mirror cracked
I am broken like a bone snapped
Dust settles as I begin to sleep
I must rest now, after all
The pain is deep
When I rise I know
It is before the throne I remain
I bow before the one who made me
Knowing that I am not done
Duty inside my heart
Unending
From when my being was begun
Born in fire of pain
Burned by life, turned to ash
Rejected by the mother's flesh
Born alone screaming
The One held me there
Giving me a task
I am a warrior who has fought
I am a poet who has spoken
I'm a sword in iron wrought
Spirit rises but
My body's broken
I am not done
No, I am not done
Creator and maker
Architect of all things
You are my way
The task you set before me
My legacy and faith
Anthems to sing
But I am not done, no
I am still fighting
And my way is known
And when you are done
With my life
It will be clear
My flesh betraying me
My world disappears
I am not done
Amen

Ghost Walker

Chasing a ghost who walked in my heart
She never left but is more silent
And now her footsteps can't betray
Where is she now
So quiet inside
Memories of the day
Can't help me now
Her shattered mind
Taking her away
I miss her so
She'll never be here again
And I am left with a pious
Fear
That I'll never see her
Ever again
So I chase my memories
Of that ghost
Inside my cavernous mind

Those Dreams that Never Last

Closed eyes

Trying to dream of paradise
But tossing/turning
In bed awake
The dreams pass
The moment I open my eyes
Dreams escape memory
Dreams never are
Like love
I never wanted everything
Just enough
Never got that but that's OK
If at least I had hope in you
But you never gave me that
I want more than dreams
That never ever come true
I collapse when I know
You are a dream that never was
A dream that will never last
We never had our dance
We never had that chance
So I linger in the dream land
Waiting for you there
And I wait to say
I think you are
Perfect, kind and loving
But you never appear

The Murder Awaits

We cannot help but be transformed
Amidst cries of the newborns
And the moans
Of a final breath
Taken
Entropy screams
The cycle renews
Crying and tears
Harken the birth
And they also
Accompany the dead
Along their journey
Again and again
The world revolves
Renews
Dies
Continues
The murder dances upon the shore
Arguing over what will be lost
When that storm arrives
And who will bear that cost
The cycle continues
Memories fade
We die but
Our seed grows
And the world revolves
Renews
And the crows dance

(Photo Credit)

Forsaken Memories Haunting Me

Falling further from
The unknown consequence
Of the failing hours
My conscience is a fortress
My memory towers
Above the wasteland
Echoes of my collapse
Of forbidden love
My conscious act
To give up the one
Thing that I held dear
Escape the womb and run
My legacies linger inside
Holding me in
Holding me back
Offered up as a sacrifice
The end is now begun

Perseverance

The light that gives you hope to persevere

Not a saint nor a hero

Not a knight, with land

Just a foot soldier for the king

I speak of this to remember

Because others will forget

In the 8th year of the 2nd age

I was exhausted and nearly dead

From the battles I had fought

For the kingdom and for kin

I'd laid down my body

I asked for rest

And received

Nothing

I labored still trying

To pay the cost

When in the midst of it all

She appeared

From the depth of the darkness

Just in time

Surrounding me

A light flying across my path

That nearly left me blind

I might have expected to die

I might have expected no mercy

But what I found was grace

Gentle as rain

And sweet love

That renewed me inside

And as quickly as it appeared

The light was gone again

But I knew it existed

Enough to persevere

The Past Doesn't Forgive, But I Do

Yes it hurts
But
Whatever there is
Please remember, my love
That the so-called past
Forgives
No one
Forgives nothing
Forgets no one
Because it is gone
Doesn't exist
Once it happens
It is done
And gone forever
Consequences be damned
The past doesn't exist
There is only now
And tomorrow to plan
Don't let our past torture us
When the moment is here
Days before us beckon
With promise and love
The past is a memory
We can forget
If we try
If we kiss
If we try to exist
Together
Into the ever
Into the mists
Of forever

Public domain photo taken by Simon Greyling

Well of Sorrow, Chalice of Tears

No one has ever longed to
Sip from the chalice
Of tears
Drawn from the well
Of sorrow
Poured into the mouth
Without fear
Yet my very own actions
Left me hollowed
Long before I could decide
I made that choice
Upon my birth I did so
It was bitter but I drained it
Dry
Allowed me no conceit 
The silence of birth was shattered
By my screams and that of my mother
She left me to scream for her touch
My life essence was pain
And only when the circle became complete
Did I ever feel the touch of another again

Elysium is Calling

I was raised in the east a farmer's child
I was young and strong and full of fire
I had fought in the wars of the Empire
Under the Roman Eagle I had marched
I was a veteran who had won his time
To be older, and live with his family
My life was settled upon an answer
Given a meaning, labor in the sun
Draw life from the earth, eat from the harvest
And never would my dreams perish
For there was only my life
Living now, rather than the here and after
The meaning from the land
The cycles of the season have their rhythm
You plant, you toil, they grow
They cannot grow any faster
You watch as your children become adults
There is no mystery
There is no wonder
There is nothing to be curious about
Life was glorious and happy
But also hard
My wife died of cancer
I lingered in the loneliness
Of knowing
That Elysium was waiting
But was it waiting for me
The mystery
For me
Was calling
Because there was no longer
A reason to be