THE WINDS AND WATER MOVE US

Where the waters reach
We will go
Where our chieftains lead
We will follow
The villages of our neighbors
The unprepared
The weak
They will fall
We then return
Before the sea of ice
Crushes us
In the floes that churn
We come back
To the lands of snow
With the long nights
Of darkness
Behind us
In our wake
The villages raided
Afire they burn
We are vikings
We go
Wherever the winds and water
Move us

Because you are love

Embraced by this
An eternal dance
Our pas de deux
A storm inside me was made calm
The moment I reached your hand
Because you are love
As the rising ocean tide meets the sands
As the air in the sky surrounds the sun
A new day is promised by the dawn
As surely as there is a sun in the sky above
Because of you I long to exist
You embrace my being
I long to forever kiss your lips
Your love redeems
I long to touch you
I long to gently sweep my hand across your mane of hair
Your love has tamed my wild soul
The hardened rage of passion, inside of me, is made soft
My heart seeks only to be in your possession
In your presence I am made pure
In you I will soar
Aloft
For you are love

Ash

It was unquenchable
I burned
My love was alive
A raging fire
But you extinguished it
Easily
Inside my heart the life bled out
Ash remains are all
That are left behind
Now you return
Wanting things to go back
Like before
You say that you miss me
But
You don't
I have no doubt
You don't miss me
You miss being adored
And I am still composed
Of memories
And ash
Behind the door
Of my heart
That still beats
For you

Nothing Remains

My soul was removed upon birth
I was seen as a sort of curse
My flesh was hated and abused
Because I dared to have a mood
My life is not my own
I am expected to be alone
Forever now, will I sleep
Intellect stolen, replaced with dream
There is nothing that remains
I am screaming, gone insane

A raven will land upon my shoulder

When I die a raven will land upon my shoulder
It will watch as my body pulses in passing
But I will be standing, my flesh tied to a rock
For it is written that when my taboos are broken
My spirit will fail
Not even my spear Gáe Bulg shall save me

From the fall, from final defeat
But my life spent was worthy
From the time my spirit was forged
To my dying
I will walk all of the land
From eastern Ulster
To the paths of Leinster
Bringing hope to the fallen
Bringing victory to the good

I will die

Yes
But upon my feet
Still standing
For my land lives
And my spirit will return
As if the first who sees
The beautiful lands
Of Ulster

This land
This wonderful land
The glorious green
Will remain
Forever pristine
For I am Cuchulainn
The very Hound of Ulster

The Mystery and the Truth of Love

Some want everything
I  just want a kiss from your lips
Because I don't know if you know
How much I am able to love
Now
I don't know if you know
How I found out what love even is
Because
I learned it from loving you
By learning what it means to be true
From the love that you gave to me
That I never earned or could possibly
Even fathom the depths
Of such truth
I learned how to love
From loving you

Finer than Lavender

You fill my senses
My being is awash in you
Within the moment is sublime
But even within your presence
I know
I will dream of you
Later this night in my sleep
Your beauty is exquisite
Your spirit is a nectar 
There is no other
Who might compare
Your scent is finer than lavender
Your voice is gentle and sweet
Your skin is softer than silk
Fair love
Fairest one
I am yours
So deep

Walk Away From Me

I've had enough
So broken
In pieces
Shattered
Scattered
My heart fallen
Fate teases
Faith promises
But I am undone
Walk away from me
My love
Turn away from me
And walk
I am not the one
Who can save you
From the wounds
That you inflict
Sip by sip
On yourself
The bottle is your best friend
And I can't get in the way
Of that friendship

Moving silently

Your love isn't loud
It isn't a voice
It isn't a sound
That rises above the din
It is rather a powerful movement
There in my being
Silently
Buried deep within my heart

Undone by you

I am so undone by you
So moved by you
Every time I see your form
Approaching
Every time I hear your voice
I have no choice
When I see you I shiver
I never know what to say
Never know what to do
I surrender to my fate
Of loving you
Like a child in a candy filled room
Your scent stirs my senses
That scent more lovely than any perfume
Your beauty is so great
My mind reels in the surreal
You help me believe in eternity
By the words you share
By the love I feel
When you speak to me
When you touch me
When I am in your gaze
I belong to you
Always amazed
When you offer to me your hand
To be near one, to be loved
By a being more lovely
Than all that is true
I am undone

I smell rain on the desert's horizon

In the drought plagued lands
The dust so thick it chokes
I smell a coming storm
Where the earth will renew
Joy will emerge from behind the cloak
The veil pulled back demure
Revealing the plague's harm
Skin cracked not smooth
The dreams of paradise lure
Sleep from the sleepless
The storm rises
The rain falls
Upon the floor
Of the desert
Where the world once laid
Green and abundant

Unrequited

I believe in you
I know your spirit is divine
I long to be yours
Your beauty is sublime
I love you
I always will
I always have
Forever exists
I feel it to my core
But there is no time
For me to conquer
All the demons that haunt  you
That devastate your mind
I can never be yours
You made that clear
I can never be the one
Who you want
Who you desire to hold you
When you are crying and suffering
And you want to have near
Love does not require acceptance
Doesn't need to be requited
All it needs is to be held
Inside my heart
And I hold it dear
There
For it is all I have of you
Until the final dance
When oblivion takes hold
I will be in love
With your soul

The Path

A life is given to be taken away
My soul is eternal but my flesh is not
This existence is temporary
My soul will dance
Long after my flesh has turned to rot
My flesh will betray
I am lost to my lust and temptations
They lure me from the path
I learned my life could never be kept
So it was given to me to give to others
The first will be last in the upside down kingdom
I surrendered my will to that of my great king
But I am exhausted
My flesh is tired and I sorrow my failings
I have yet to find that city upon a hill
I have sought truth and have walked forever
I will continue seeking
I long to know the proper way
I am broken but I am ready
To surrender all I have
Even if I have nothing worth keeping
The journey has taught me to endure

Sympathy for a kiss

Just a kiss?  No.
Something more
Something rarely given voice
Was it destiny or a choice
Was it an act of betrayal
Or an actor performing as directed
If the story was told and the play written
Was he fulfilling his role
Or was it the devil who had entered
Was he choosing to be or was he a puppet of fate
When Judas kissed Jesus
High Priest Caiaphas exulted
For his men had arrested one
Had taken the man causing the trouble
Who was this Jesus?
A teacher, perhaps an Essene
A rebel, a wolf in sheep's clothing
Caiaphas turned over this one
To suffer Prefect Pilate's whims
The Romans knew how to crush men
Knew how to wound the flesh
They were given this Lamb of God
To be offered to be a sacrifice
To push out his final breath
Under the yoke of Roman law
Judas kissed Jesus, called him teacher
Christ knew Judas would be the one
But was it betrayal or fate
Was Judas cursed to be the one?
Did he have faith, was he a traitor
Or did he do what he was born for

Black Rose of Sorrow

I fell from the greatest heights
I could never express
The sorrow of my loss
So darkened the day's light
The sun fled
My grieving knew no end
I lost the one I loved
Leaving me forever
Alone
I gave her my heart
She gave me a black rose
The beauty was dark
The thorns of the stem
Pierced my side
Black blood did bleed
Into nothing but emptiness
Where once my heart
Did beat

Dynamics

My decision
Your chaos
My darkness
Your religion
My suffocation
Your obligation
My duty
Your faith
My hesitation
Your negation
My dharma
Your kharma
My confusion
Your illusion
Let this oblivion end
Let all oblivion end

Expectations of Perfection

In the end I was
Undone by expectations
That the others had for me
Of perfection so surreal
I regret my living
A life that wasn't fulfilled
I forget the many times
I was forgiven
For the trusts betrayed
I am dissected by the truth
My flesh is a puppet
Of the others controlling the wire
Of the others who guide the line
Putting the words in my mouth
Aiming my body towards the path
Trying to avert final judment
The creator has for me
Who am I to question
The others who wish perfection
The maker of this flesh
Must have been mistaken
For my flaws I've been forsaken
Why do I even bother
To wonder why
I've been left here
To die
Drowning in a desert
Burning in the cold
Freezing in the heat
Of humanity

Fly

You make me wonder
Are you made of stars
You make me wish
To fly
More powerful than thunder
Your love heals my scars
You are a gift
You are the answer to why
Why go on?
What is there beyond this world
I might never know
But that I tasted of your being
Kissed your lips
Lets the grace and mercy flow
And knowing you
Heals
All the things that wound me

Fading

As this existence fades
Far away into the gray
Forever becomes a dream
By which we keep
The love we made
In this world
I cannot reveal the future
But to offer one thing
All we are is spirit
All our flesh is cage
This human life is temporal
And when we die
We'll see
A world far different
Than this one
For long ago
Eternity was begun
By one far beyond our seeing
To find that place is a goal
Few can ever reach

Walking

I walked a mile with a stone in my shoe
You slept in the hospital bed
I was numb to the pain
You would be screaming
If you weren't covered in tubes
My shoe covered in red
The socks were stained
I didn't what I'd do
With you gone
I'd have to start over
Live somewhere new
Find a new life
Or die myself
Before you
I had to choose
So I kept walking
Until I could think of a plan
That might work
But I'll have to keep walking
Because there is nothing good
Without you

Until you Return, I will wait

Clouds of dread
Casting shadows
There is coming
Eternal night
But you said you'd return
So I wait
Without conditions
Unreservedly
Patiently
Despite annihilation
The world turns
All around me
I have faith
That you will be back
While the fires of Armageddon burn
I wait
For your appearance
To reconcile my soul
With redemption
But my heart turns black
In sorrow
For the time it has taken
Watching the world fall apart
So shallow and empty
Forsaken
I wait

Modern Living

Empty like the dreams they had
Their lives crushed beneath the steel
And concrete
Broken
They are now dust in a world modern and surreal
Overgrown with tangle and brush
The earth reclaims its own
Without regret
The lives lived there faded
Flesh passes into the gray zone
Spiral staircase follows downward
Collapsed and broken silent since
The uncertainty
No words can relate
The level of emptiness
Of modernity

Torch Turned Upside Down

Though the torch is turned
Upside down
And life is extinguished for now
The angel of death victorious
Does not celebrate
Rather
She weeps
For another opportunity to succeed
Lost
Drowned in the failures of flesh
Another life sent off to dream
And sleep
While a new life draws first breath

Filled With Empty

I am nothing
Bound up
Held within a shell
A personal hell
My flesh decays
Inside
A living black hole
All my thought and dream
Sucked down the pipe
Spewed out into oblivion
The blackness
The dark
The dead flesh is ripe
And my fetid remains
Sink down into
Mania
Sorrow
Fear
Emptiness
Alone
In pain
Fighting tears
Fleeing fate
The hollow
The daze
I remember life
This is not it
This is a life betrayed


"There is no worse sickness for the soul,
O you who are proud,
than this pretense of perfection.
The heart and eyes must bleed a lot
before self-complacency falls away."
Rumi

One Standing

Despite his beauty
and lineage of divinity
He bore the woe of a people
Grievous scars
Achilles, Akhos Laos
Grief of a nation, through wars
Kleos, glory
Untold woes

“Sing, Goddess, of the rage of Peleus' son Achilles,
the accursed rage that brought great suffering to the Achaeans”

Warrior of endless rage
Anger towards every foe
Black soul mourning
Sorrows deeply flow
Impeccable warrior
Son of the Gods
By rights a hero
By his acts feared
Wild rage unleashed
The enemy bled
His way was violent
Cruel
His opponents fled
His countenance seared
Into their psyche
Long before battle

“Achilles glared at him and answered, "Fool, prate not to me about covenants. There can be no covenants between men and lions, wolves and lambs can never be of one mind, but hate each other out and out an through. Therefore there can be no understanding between you and me, nor may there be any covenants between us, till one or other shall fall”

Priestess

She alone will tell us
What the gods know to be good
But she does not desire your worship
Nor your company
You do not approach
You are summoned
You are not allowed
You are shown
You are not to speak
But to be spoken towards
For she is the one
The gods recall
She has spoken to them
Hovered beneath their feet
She has eaten their fruit
She will teach
She will linger in the holy
She will fetch the truth
For all to learn
She will reach into the eternal
Pulling forth divine knowledge
When ready she will offer
A taste of the gods' nectar
She will offer more
Than we could ever ask
If we simply allow her
Time
Silence
And solemnity
While she completes her task

Covered by the waves

Laying silently they are there
Memories of a fallen age
Long since knowing the sounds
Of human activity
Their past residents
Lost in time now
So far distant
The present day
Ignorant of the world
That lays beneath
The waves cover
The monoliths sleep
Resplendent antiquity
While humans forget
Living in ignorant regret
The times of modernity
Swirl up and erase
The traces of the past
And the memories are consumed
By the pride of man
Today

Complicate

Make me bleed
Exsanguinate
Shit on me
Defecate
I can't breathe
Suffocate
I cannot fight back
Retaliate
Just let me be
Hate
Nothing really matters
Just complicate the truth
Let yourselves be freed
Bleed into the world
Of color
Justify the lies
Make the others pay
Complicate reality
By screaming obscenities

Tears in the coffee cup

My hope is growing thin
But I don't think it matters
My heart has been broken
Before
I need to get up
The coffee is getting cold
My tears keep falling in
The cup
The morning is rising
The sun is breaking the horizon
I can't stay awake
Any more
Waiting for you to come on home
I don't know where you've been
I don't care where you go
I just can't take it any longer
Watching you walk out that door
I'll be here when you come back
But my heart left a while ago
Soon the rest of me will follow
I know you don't care
But I did
I won't go on alone
Drinking coffee and crying
Sleeping and waking up
On the kitchen floor

Pyramids Of Another World

Deimos sits beneath Mars' gaze
Standing silent
Watching
Because the Gods are eternal
And transcendent in power
Because they are beyond the minds of men
Because they are outside of time
Having no use for seconds, minutes or hours
They are able to reach across space
With but a glance
And seed their children
Across the universe
Stars will fall
Galaxies chase
Oblivion's game
But the Gods

Addict

Although I never
I know the addiction
I never tried the lot of them
Not one entered my mouth
Or entered my veins
Drugs of any sort illegal
Not even to assuage the pain
The moment after I kissed her lips
Beyond the lingered in embrace
I began to twist
Like an addict in withdrawal
The moment I saw her face
My body screamed for more
In abject need
Like some unwritten law
That says when you meet
You must engage
And you never can
You never will again
I twist
Like some heroin user's rage
Like an alcoholic's return
To the beast that bore him
An addiction you cannot tame
I twist
Every time I hear her name
I twist
I twist

Where my Heart Lays

Where my heart lays
In the lap of the one
I love
Is beyond compare
For I have begun
To be
To know
I have only this
The present and now
I have only her
My lover and soul
I long to breathe the air
That has rested in her lungs
I long to be the man
Who is the one she loves
I long to stand
Next to her
Forever
She is my dream
My desire
To be with her
Together
When time never ends
When the sky turns infinite
In beauty

I miss you but I missed you

If I could live without feeling that again
I'd be happy
I never got to hold you
To kiss you
But I know
How good it would feel
You said you loved me
I said I can't go
I miss you
But I missed you then
My life is too real
To give in to fantasy
There is only today
Maybe tomorrow
No back when
When you loved me
Because those days are gone
I miss you
But the time is done
When I could say yes
To dreams over a horizon
So now I sit
With my thoughts
Taking sips of my liquid killer of the pain
Overwrought
Thinking about tomorrow
Since it is all I have
Today

Sorrow is a bloody souvenir

Sorrow is a bloody souvenir
A memory of loss
Grieving and bleeding
Without relent
Raining down tears
Over that which cannot change
We hold onto that memory
The regret that lingers
You cannot forget
Nothing can satiate that thirst
For redemption
The echoes of the emotions
That go on
Sorrow steals our hope
And drowns our ego
Step into the pool
Wash your sins away
We can never know
The ways of life
All we can do
Is swim
And try not to drown

Scimitar Moon

He waits for the chance to prove himself
But those who he serves hope
That he does not have to do that
A warrior's burden is
Honor and boredom
To remain taut with agility and strength
Despite the weariness of duty
The inactivity making you fat
He serves in truth
Hoping to prove himself worthy
To be, for just one moment
The one the master deems good
Faithful and unshaken
That one chance to be
More than his entire life has made him
He waits for that time but
The urgency of the boredom
Reminds him
That his role is one
Without reward
Outside of knowing
By his presence
He won't need to be the one
Deemed worthy

Son of Death

To live is to be willing to die
At any time
To truly live is to live upon that edge
Between living and dying
And having no attachments
To either side
To be a samurai
One must serve
And be willing
To give his final breath
To offer his life
Without question
To his lord
For any reason
Unto his death
For no other purpose
Than his request

Your voice

Hi,
I heard the message that you left on my machine
For a moment I thought is this a dream
So divine, it made me feel drunk and giddy
So sublime, it made me wish I was asleep
But you know
Since you left I've been in a daze
In your absence, I've been shattered
As if glass from a window broken
Falling from a 71st floor window
Falling
Down
In Death's embrace
Your voice reminded me
That my life was good once
Like some child's happy song
But now I am shattered
Across the ground
My hopes scattered
Gone
So gone
So long my love
I miss you
Gone
So gone
Goodbye

Crimson Waves

Beneath the waves
Of crimson flow
My heart is carried
Broken in two
From the wages of love
From the cost of hope
The wounds are smooth
The chest smokes
From the burning of pain
From the rejection inside
When you turned me away
My heart simply died

Questions

Like the clowns at a circus
Making us laugh and cry
The questions entertain us
Make us wonder why
But to ask a question
I wonder the purpose
Or the answer is thrown
Like dust to the wind
We do nothing
While we watch
The world is a carcass
Vivisected into pieces
Waiting to be examined
For some God written thesis
Why are we here
Why do we live
Why do we die
The logic is specious
But worse is this idea
That we can ever know
That the world can ever show
A reason to exist
Beyond the absurd
Splatters of paint and smoke
Ideas and words
Laughed at by the crows
We can't figure it out
In the meantime we are watched
By the ravens and the crows
They laugh at us
Just birds 
Because they go on
Like we should
Because we don't know




Why

What Would There Be

Staring at the moon
Contemplating again
I wonder inside
Beyond the magnificence of the stars
And wonders of  this world
About you
I wonder without the rains coming down
Without the sun coming up
Without the winds blowing hard
Without your love
There'd be a world of emptiness
There'd be a world of sorrow
There'd be no one to love me
There'd be empty tomorrows
And that is too painful to imagine
So I stare at the sky above again
Not thinking about the world that might have been
And gently remind myself
That you inhabit my deepest soul
You fill me to the core
That you do love me
That you are in my heart
That you hold me now
And ever more