When I want to die
I am broken how can I forgive
When it makes me dream of suicide
If there is nothing beyond
Or if there is heaven
I still might prefer oblivion
Than beatings and confessions
I keep praying
Because I know, I am not god
I am too evil, too selfish and self hating
Even my dreams are flawed
Let me pass into dust
Let me leap into the void
Let me turn rigid steel to rust
All I have are dreams destroyed
And they are never coming back
They are never coming back
Never coming back
At all
