The Darkness and The Dragons

In the years following the encounter
Between the avatar of the dragon-kind
And the leaders of humanity
Moral decay grew worse
The fecundity of misery rose
Wars and rumors of war
The land became a mass of scars
And destruction
The path that humans chose
By its nature destroyed
So the representatives of dragon-kind
Raised their voice
And demonstrated what would cause
True fear
The oceans attacked the shores
Volcanoes screamed out lava
And the wyrm of dragon-kind
So great and powerful
Rose from the earth
And devoured the moon
Then left this place
Forever
Woe and catastrophe followed
Disease, plagues and pain
And only after 7 years
Did the dragon-kind relent
After having taught humans to kneel
The great Golden Dragon
The most divine of their kind
Rose to the empty place
Where the moon had died
And illuminated the hulk
With his aura
And the moon shined again

The Warning

He walked into the chamber
All the eyes gazed upon him
Some stared
For he was truly different
Perhaps unique
He was a tall Asian man
With long black hair
Dressed in the finest business suit
And upon his hand he wore a ring
With a dragon etched upon the stone
Of Jade
And he spoke to the gathering
In a voice that all remember
But cannot begin to describe
You must change your ways
Humans
The world is more than your play thing
There exist many races you do not know
Who've been watching you
Waiting for you to mature
But you are children still
Casting stones at each other
The day will soon come
When you are no longer allowed
So change your ways soon
Or you will learn
The meaning of fear
And as quickly as he entered and spoke
He left and was gone
And humanity went upon its path
Never caring for the coming wrath
And soon it will be vented
Upon this place

The Perfect Woman

Maria sits upon her perfect throne
Electric, genetic, steel
None who see her are able to dream
Of any one being nearly so
Perfect
We obey
We sleep
Dreamless in her measured
Perfect world
DNA forgotten
Human flesh decays
We are her children
But I am still
Made of clay

That Place I Long For

Walking through a maze
Of obstacles and pain
I am transformed
As my hand brushes the grains
Of the tall grass in the glory
Of the sunshine
Of late summer
Over the plains
In the Elysian Fields
My time of being now muted
By the merciful embrace
Of the after place
Where we go
To see the beauty
The One has made

Humanity's December

Humanity's December
The darkest month
We have surrendered
And refuse to remember
Some hunger to an end
Others feast upon the harvest
The rich are uplifted
The poor are severed
One in six do not get to eat
The poor are forgotten
In the drive
To celebrate the bounty of the feast

So when?

What is the point
If every thing I do
Gets cast away by you?
What is the point
If every word I say
Causes you to be enraged?
Do you love me?
I'll never know
Did you care?
You were never there
What is the point
Of ever trying
Anything again?
So when
Are you ever going to tell the truth?
So when
Are you ever going to prove
Your love for me
So when?

I didn't say I loved you, I said I'd love you anyway

It doesn't matter what you say
I am who I am, and never betray
My heart
I don't need to know
Where you stand
I don't need the touch
Of your velvet soft hands
I don't need to kiss
Your beautiful lips
I don't need to see
How the dagger will twist
I didn't say I loved you
I said I'd love you anyway
Because whatever happens
Wherever you are
I will be there
My heart never roams
It always stays

You were

Every effort I made
To help you through
Was thrown away
Like sand thrown into sand
I never held you
But I held your heart
In my heart
And you were like the sand
Running through my hands
Everything I did
Every moment spent
Was cast into the wind
And is now
Gone
Why do you still linger on
My heart wants to be free
You took all I had to give
I tried to help you rise
When you were down
And all I was
Was adding sand
To a desert
I am the idiot king
So give me my crown
Sand to the desert
I'd give snow to the arctic
I am the idiot king
I am a clown

Porn Began With The Internet

Nude people sliding about
Moving around, touching
Enjoying the moment
In the proximity
Of their sexuality
We never knew of sex
Before the internet
We were naive
To the passions
Found in the touch
Of another

The internet is amazing
It looks behind private doors
It takes a genius to imagine sex
How difficult it must be
To take photos of the behavior
During nature's course
The internet is very naughty
I might have to look
But I am being forced

Left inside, left behind

They put me in a place to let them forget I exist
But I go on living, in the madness
My words mean nothing to them
My thoughts are ridiculed
But to cease thinking, lets them win
The empty halls abandoned
The silent walls of the bones of this place
The screams held in, the tears pushed back
I am alone, forever, here in Abaddon
Oblivion screaming at my thoughts
Armageddon flees at my approach
I am alone here, forever, beyond reproach
For you cannot reach me
You cannot see me
I am alone, far away
Left behind

The Moment of Transformation

The cycle of growth means losing the former self
And graduating to a new form
Change is constant
Growth is not
Change can be positive, but it can also mean harm
Growth means learning
Knowing
Growing in maturity
I long to be a butterfly
And shed my skin for wings
But I cannot find a proper
Cocoon

"The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed."
Jiddu Krishnamurti

I need, I want, I believe, Are not the same

Reality rages around me, sometimes despite me
Despite my best wishes
I want to be rich, handsome, famous
I want to be beloved, a poet of the ages
But I can only do what I am doing
And only can have done what is done
I don't believe that by believing I make things real
Reality plays its own part as writer, director, actors
But I believe that there is more to life than this stage
It is not an act of creation, but an act of awareness
I believe eternity exists, but I don't know what it is
I cannot explain, not at will or upon demand
Not from the limits of my flesh cage
I believe the cold, damp, grave awaits some
Heaven and Hell are beyond what I understand
But in the deepest part of my being
I know there is a soul
I know there is a God
And I know God is the architect of this reality
I know this by belief, not by seeing
But I know

Walking In Tall Grass Fields In Thrace

When I could move again
Without bleeding through
I made the effort
To say goodbye to them
Walking in the morning
Sun burning the mists
The light beginning to shine
To reveal a horrific scene
In the fields of our victory
I had a chance to see the them
Their bodies now just more than bones
The heroes having died were laid
Before their souls went home
The grasses of the fields
Grown tall all around them
I looked at each body
I remembered their names
I was the soul survivor
I was all alone
What kind of dreams do they now dream
In the sleep of the dead
What kind of world do they know
Instead of laying in fields
Colored red

Destiny Wrought

Born to a world rich in beauty
He saw only the darkness
Of the night
Sleeping
While worlds came into existence
He slept deeply
And dreamed a new creation
Into being
Darkness his destiny
The cataclysm awakened
The child born to beauty
Begot oblivion
The fires of death
Were the fires of the furnace
That melted the metals
To build the walls
Of civilization

Adam waited

In that place
Of emerald beauty
There the world was small
I was told by his Majesty
The plants and animals were mine
To watch over
I gave names to them all
They were my companions
I was waiting in the garden
Alone for so long
My heart was lonely
It was hardening in sorrow
I looked upon this beauty
And saw none who looked as me
I was a beast but without cubs
I was without something I
Couldn't explain but haunted me
Inside
When the King came to see
I told him
My heartbreak
And he saw that
Gave me one
Who I now knew
Fulfilled me inside
Tears rolled down
For I was complete
She was made of flesh
Looked more beautiful
Than all the garden held
And was my companion
There

John Hinckley Jr. March 30th, 1981

The insane are allowed to kill
Allowed to be different
Because their minds are broken
They hear messages
Into their brain, sent
By voices
Guiding their choices
To be the avatar of death

wherever death finds them

Every massacre has a list of dead
Every death has a memory of life
Every loss diminishes this world
The living are left with memories

We haven't learned our history
How many are taken before their time
Their lives a testament to human cruelty
Is this our full and final legacy

Whatever the cause whatever the number
Humanity is waiting for the next disaster
Humans are a catastrophe in progress
Waiting our chance to the final dance

Disease and war, greed and hate
Humans have yet to overcome
So we wait

Breaking

Nothing that anyone can say can free me
Nothing that anyone can do can make it better
If the pain is from within and away from the reach of medicines
But if medicines can help you can be sure they have a toll
Nothing good is without such a wage and must be paid or pain is in control

Love Unto Exhaustion

Loving someone means walking against the storm winds
Life doesn't give you a break because you love
Instead, we have to push on whatever the cost
Or the fire of love is extinguished
And all you face is loss
Love is a commitment to another
Whatever the wages you have to pay
Love means you surrender
To their needs because you care
Until you break

If Eternity is real

“Life and death are one thread, the same line viewed from different sides.”
Lao Tzu

We strive to live but also to escape death
But if eternity is real
They are a cycle
Meant for some purpose
Every second ticking
Every living breath
Is meant to teach us something
This temporal existence fades
But the eternal one grows
The body grows old
The flesh grows cold
Here is not meant to be permanent
Now is the next moment of the past
Death is to be welcomed
When the time is bold
And the next step taken
Is into the unknown

Arouses my senses

When I hear her voice
I feel safe
I feel warm
We have a bond that is rare

I love her scent, it moves me
She is all female
I know her scent by memory
Her passion is in the air

Her beauty amazes me
She is amazing
I am spellbound
When I am in her lair

Her kisses taste of honey, and chocolate
And love exquisite to the taste
She is passionate, adoring with kisses
When I am with her there

Her touch heals me
She feels me
Her fingers know me
And I know she cares

She arouses all my senses
Like no other could ever
She moves my heart by her being
She lowers my defenses
She soothes me
Makes me whole
By her presence
She completes me
Gives me
Everything
I need

We Multiply

Unto this earth we have been given
Life
When the Adam was made for the land
Earth was given
Life
And to create is an act
That reflects the creator
And we now create
Life
How many will be created
Before life means nothing
But existence
Followed by death

When the Ravens Grieve

Since our dawn, they've been our companions
They watched us fall, they witnessed our victories
Without judgment, simply curious
Without impatience, they've seen it all
And when they grieve we should notice
They are impossible to surprise
They know our flaws
They've a wealth of experience to draw upon
They grieve for the approaching storms
When human-kind
Answers Armageddon's call
Far too soon
Out of time
With ample warning
Ignored

Proof

The first proof I had
That God loved me
Was when I met you
I don't know how we survived the trials
We suffered so much together
But you are my proof
You stood by me
You held my hand
And were true
When every other person
Would have faded away

Love without games

The night is long in winter
Even in the deserts
Of Arabia
My lover waits there
Perfumed hair
Exquisite flesh
She sleeps upon a rug
Laid down
Over the desert floor
She waits for my approach
For I am hers alone
I love her to my very core
She has called my soul
By its secret name
And she knows me
Deeply
Truly
She is uncovered
But not undone
She is nude
But I am tamed
By her naive glances
At my being
She loves me
But she plays no game
No rules learned
No previous encounters
With other men
She is primal and filled with joy
In the act of love
I am taken in
Given over to emotions
Men rarely show
To others

I Was Here

People rewrite history
They purposely remember false things
They ignore reality in favor of ease
But I was here
I would have been aborted
If I'd been conceived 10 years later
I would have been consumed
My flesh destroyed and scattered
But I exist now
And I was here
I refuse to stop
For your convenience

Looking downward

Trying to escape
I ran from the lighted world
And trudged deep into a cave
The darkness was not silent
It was also damp, and humid
But the living world was far away
I walked until I couldn't
Eventually tripped
Falling forward upon the cave floor
I re-lit the torch I had been using
And looked at what had made me fall
It was the half buried skull
Of something, someone human
The back of the head had been smashed
The brains probably eaten
And I wondered for my safety there
But I didn't care
What does it matter should I disappear
And become food for some beast
Or cannibal tribe
So I walked until I saw light
From the outside world
And didn't think again
About dying

In the presence of evil

Perhaps the devil exists,
Sitting upon his throne
Before a lake of fire
In the deepest caverns of Hell
Surrounded by corpses of bone
Dead children undesired
And the burning smell
Of acrid flames

But I am uncertain
We know his name
We know his role
But I think
He is there as a nemesis
There to torment us
Meant as a symbol
Of the worst of our behaviors
And nature

I am sure evil exists
I am sure there is a hell
I am just uncertain it is a place
Made by God
Rather
The devil is sort of Savior
Made by our worst side
So we won't burn alone
In a place of our making

Within the Walls of Perfectia

Beneath the graceful straight lines
That nature could never provide
Our minds and flesh grow
Without the outflow
Of dreams and lives
Of wasted time


Perfectia requires our submission
Our nation is our mission
We bow before the elite machine
Of steel, motion, and oily sheen



The steam rises from the vents
The power churns within
The human cogs are at work
From boiler men to office clerks
We move about these lives
Never seeing the morning light


But we obey and serve the master of Perfectia
Steel and steam is its name

Rocks at your window

You didn't answer my phone calls
Respond to my emails
Reply to my texts
Or notice the snowballs
Hitting your window
So I threw a rock
Instead
Sorry about that.

Never question the Queen

We are each unique
We are made to be free
We are complete and worthy
To be the queen
Who commands the hive

We must go serve the queen
For ours is a life of service
Working for her pleasure
Her enjoyment and happiness
Is our treasure

She is our only thought
We are her drones
Going to work is our way
She is our only hope
She is our home

Without fuel

The fire burns until the wood becomes ash
It was never meant to go on
It wasn't supposed to last
But love isn't that way
Isn't truly like flame
Because it is spiritual
Being in love, itself
Makes it burn
Forever
It can never be tamed

She Dances Before the King

In the winter air
She dances nude
In complete devotion
To the king of despair
He is silent to her offerings
She is devout in her faith
While her children sing praise
To the king
She moves in trance
In the cold, midnight dark
A beautiful scene
Solemn
This dance
Serene
Witnessed only
By the stars
Moon
And her heart

As for me, I exist

Je désire être avec toi
I long for you
My soul cries alone
Watashi Wa
I exist
But without you
What can I do
I've endured
Sorrow my life's wage
I've been tortured
I go on
But I long for you
Endless are my days
Searching for the truth
For some morsel of proof
That my longing
Will be assuaged

I am hollow

I am hollow before her
She sees no skin, just soul
Her eyes see through me
Piercing my insecurities
Viewing my depravities
Knowing my legacies
I am unable to control
My heart under her gaze
And I long for her
To make me whole

Silent Screams

If life has no purpose
If existence has no meaning
If all there is is pain
Absurdity and insanity rule
Screaming is the game
Words are useless
Ideas are simply splatters
Of noise
A game played without joy
With no winner, only losers
Why suffer guilt or shame
If in the end
Nothing matters

Ares, We are your slaves

He doesn't call to us but we answer
He doesn't care if we worship his name
Ares, the god of blood vengeance and war
Has a will, and a way
His spear bloodies his opponents
Slashes the entrails, separates the viscera
His actions leave no scars
For none survive
To live another day
Frenzied lust for killing
Over takes society
No one leaves here alive
None ever leave

Red Star, Black Cross

Enemies at birth
Bolshevism
Fascism
A titanic struggle
To be witnessed with awe
Steel versus steel
Titan versus titan
Leviathans in battle
Only one could win

A Patriot lays there

The Nazi machine of war
Drove steadily to the fields
Where they could strangle their enemies
Millions died
Unburied corpses turning black
Some surrendered, some collaborated
But some resisted, Partisans attacked
Zoya Kosmodemyanskaya burned a stable
Where the Nazis kept their cavalry's horses
She was caught, she was hung
But before they killed her she said
"You'll hang me now, but I am not alone.
There are two hundred million of us.
You can't hang us all."
She died
Left hanging in the winter air
Frozen
And some of the soldiers cut her body down
Cut off one of her breasts
And otherwise mutilated her corpse
But she still lived
For her words stirred her people
And they refused to go
To their deaths quietly

I dream, but it will never be

There are dreams to have
That bring you comfort
That bring the long dead
Back to life
Some dream of riches
Gold, silks and perfumes
Caviar, fur coats and servants
Luxury and pleasure
Such treasures
Are not for me
I dream of her
But it will never be
For the words from my lips
Cannot be heard
She dances in the past
To music I cannot hear
Seductive and longing
She is perfect
But beyond my grasp
So I dream of her
But
Dreams are capricious
With whims of their own
And in the absence of her
I am left alone