I've walked for months, trying to escape this urban blight
The world around me remains broken, stunningly broken
In this world of darkness, where there's no hope or light
Now a child rose, in the middle of the chaos, the chosen
Calling for the rising up, a revolution of beings in stasis
All planets will never come into alignment, never caring
All alone, in knee deep failures and million mile stares
We're led by the innocence of a child, and beg for more
Life in a penal system, trapped in questions not asked
Is freedom worth this pain, is it a choice for our life?
As we follow, seek the light in perpetual darkness
We ask the question, shed the lies, we find answers
We simply must be patient, be wisdom, prevail
The child shared in her moment, all the prayers unspoken
Everything we'd wanted, still was not there, and still
If we'd known all our lives we had meaning
We now had hope, even alone and quiet
It wasn't yet known, it was hidden behind the veil
So simple, we'd needed to ask, trust and find
Take revelations found
and with the sun
rise
“Perfer et obdura, dolor hic tibi proderit olim." Ovid
Monday, June 30, 2025
RISING UP
Monday, June 23, 2025
She is Everything
In the pitched darkness, she is my hope, she is my light
Her soft voice whispers, I love you, you are my knight
Comforting me, giving rest, allows me to pass the test
The companion, who allows one to complete the quest
I was broken but now I'm chosen, at last ready to fight
Sunday, June 22, 2025
My 2
I worry that my end of life will not come before the current two leave
They have lifted me in ways other people can't understand, believe me
This is to share the fact that I'll go blind if they pass, I'll lose my sight
My heart doesn't need to be broken again by the loss, my heart is true
I need them to walk on me, wake me for food, chasing passing lights
Saturday, June 21, 2025
The Verdant Source
We'd danced in the shadow of the waves
In lush green surroundings, an inlet wrap
The flesh as if it was beloved, and adored
In movement and song, we'd stood apart
Ready as morning's tide returned in rush
In those rising water we created offerings
Moving in an innate and rhythmical act
To merge and melt together, in a caress
We celebrate intimacy in that moment
For in this place we remember, we exist
And in this place we have exalted life
For we might finally know joy in heart
By this way we usher in the new seed
Making union to plant and carry it far
Wrapping it all in deep verdant grace
Eden is so alive with our presence
We will make this ground sacred
Raise our kindred with hope
And live in and linger in love
In our future forever
Friday, June 20, 2025
Red Skies and Entropy
A grave pain broke me within
It left me chafing at my restraints
This black, spiked and studded leather harness
Seized tightly about my flesh and my mind
This torment can burn for days
Countless are all of my shames
Unable to breathe or hope
I am trapped by this empty time
Consumed by true terror
By a noose ended rope
The life is presented
One of a being composed of absolute rage
Blinded by hatred's consequences and scars
My world is aflame with visions
Visions of Armageddon
All of our lives are trapped
By the true reality of false dreams
Of futures of entropy and doom
In depths of oblivion and dawn
If there is hope for some
Perhaps there is none for me
I am imprisoned
Since
The Choices are without number, because we never listen
No one bothers to count, the tasks go on
and on
Thursday, June 19, 2025
The same result, every single time, the same.
Taken from the other side, and then ripped into the present
Without a father, a mother with such fear it'd wounded her
To speak my name, in the blazing fire of the sun, I spoke it
Closing my eyes, now blinded from a pain burned into me
Knowing I'd been separated from hope, not giving consent
I'd paid a cost so great, had to leave this home, a wanderer
My future obliterated, my past erased, a heart now broken
I've nothing to keep for myself, even less reason to return
I can see, life isn't easy, nor is it hope filled, or adventure
In fact, whatever our existence, we ignore the truth of it
All the while dreaming, we just hope for something else
Praying our purpose allows failure, praying to survive
Or we'll have wasted this chance too, like all others
Too wounded to do any more than to live and die
Composed of a master's artwork I still fail
Again and again and again, I will lose
Smothered in thick clouds of a fire
Burning last remnants of hope
Wednesday, June 18, 2025
Mortality fades, but eternity beckons
We shall see how worth has been a false hope
Grace and mercy is our greatest treasure
But the whims of life are capricious
Full knowledge and wisdom lay behind a curtain
A sort of veil when lifted shall allow understanding
But it is better to believe, than logically figure
Because our own knowledge
Is not as having God's knowledge
Our being comes with having desires
But not as our God's desire for our being
Forgive, hold fast upon finding your standing
Futures are all unknown, but fate is the wind
Blowing all of our seed beyond this destiny
What remains of all the dreams
Nothing remains but life
Vast green fields and oceans blue
And plans that come to naught
And understanding of truth
Tuesday, June 17, 2025
Impermanence
Live without hope, to dream without sleep
To breathe with no air, scream without sound
My life was forged in pain, life without relief
To find greater love without a sacred ground
My life is given substance, promises to keep
Existence lost in oceans, all sorrow drowned
Futures flail about in meaning, as I bleed
Falling without impact to the everlasting
If a life is one that does not end, I dream
πάντα ῥεῖ, Impermanence lingers
Waiting for the next moment
Revealed as torment, as forever
As an unending cycle
Constantly turning
A grinding and moving
A light never dimming
A light without shadow
Forever no longer impossible
With belief, with dream, with hope
Monday, June 16, 2025
Fleeing, Still Trying to Find a Way to Escape
I've tried all my life but I can't escape
Being made to labor against my soul
Never able to find a throne, in silence
Each escape falls in torture, to forsake
Esteem is failing, life is made hollow
Because I am grateful, I once lived
And had my chance to forgive
In a life that had free will
Sunday, June 15, 2025
The Remnant Flesh
Casting out nightmare, constructed with lost dreams
The hunger consumes apathy, and casts out entropy
A cadaver rises in a suit of flesh, unable to escape
Entering my bloodstream, aimed by sharpened stake
Eventually my silent form falls into the abyss
Along with the rest remaining active hive
Saturday, June 14, 2025
Exiled, Isolated, Breaking
As their words became painted upon my tongue
The branding of fate then burned upon my heart
I'd no one, not even one with whom I could turn
Pulled down in a pit, screamed until burst lungs
My wounds were painted upon a canvas of scars
Exiled, I was the forgotten voice, in fire I'd burn
Friday, June 13, 2025
However flawed my flesh I became awe
My fondest dream and greatest belief
Acted together, led me to great forever
The flesh will pass, my praise received
My life was now in hands of my savior
His truth in my depths found in my core
In him will stand, I need sacred ground
For he is the only Son of an eternal god!
Wherever he stood, has been made holy
And that place inside my flesh
Is holy, for his spirit restores my own
Thursday, June 12, 2025
Running out of Hope
He leapt into the world, the child arrived
Upon this Earth where the few survive
An end came around but we'd overslept
Oh there in our absence our hopes wept
Did we destroy ourselves, no we never
We took no time from mother to sever
All our childish cords needed being cut
But we cut the wrong cord to forever
And now we're trapped in this place
That never offered love or its taste
Only the dreams of the places afar
Far from here, futures are scarred
And will never live again
In the future, or beyond
Wherever we go
Or we remain
Wednesday, June 11, 2025
An ugly scene
Of streams in the rain melt with the tears falling
There are no dawn lights gilding drops of water
Soon the chill of the sorrow growing will freeze
My mourning heart pounds while I'm crawling
Feel like a last member of a family at slaughter
Look away, no not at me, no, look away please
There is nothing to see and nothing left of me
Tuesday, June 10, 2025
Burning Cold
I burn as if by flames
I tried loving again
And it hurts me,
It still hurts
My heart, tender yet scarred
After loving again
I prefer seeing stars
So I look straight up
Midnight's moonlight
Offers nothing but dark
You will not break the moon
By seeing it in light
But I am alone now
Just like I always am
My time is coming soon
A mist at night comforts
Even if it is cold
And I am lost
In the mist
In the clouds
My heart is burning
And now, the fog is rising
Monday, June 9, 2025
Erased From this World
This cruel world within swiftly moves passed
Ripping all hope from me, stealing my place
Meanwhile this population screams for sleep
The hunger inside pounds in an unwilling fast
Death calls to all lives, seeking love embrace
Echoes of a lost age, with secrets left to keep
My flesh gray, I desire to eat, in an abyss cast
As nightmares continue, destroying the brain
I'm falling into a nectar of everlasting pain
My flesh no longer offers a true resistance
My flesh is fallen but my spirit is untamed
Mors certa, vita incerta
Sunday, June 8, 2025
Disasters linger
Striking with pure surprise, the attack had shocked the village
The occupants taken unaware by Vikings come cross the sea
Echoes of the day linger, as the memory of catastrophe is fresh
The villagers were frantically trying to hide, surviving disaster
Pillaging, crying havok, Vikings destroyed the village in fire
The black smoke lifting, flames create a massive death pyre
Children of the raids will remember, all the dark days
And live to begin the revenge attack cycles over again
Saturday, June 7, 2025
For My Great Queen
As if I had won the million dollar jackpot
Nobody understands, the wealth that I got
When you took my hand, I'd made a stand
We went through life, as husband and wife
A 37 year journey begun, you were the one
Giving me courage, keeping me encouraged
Offering hope in darkness, in an ever night
Not only my lover, you're my faithful light
We'll grow old together, seeking forever
It is there before us, a heavenly chorus
For you my queen I shall carry your banner
For you are wise, beautiful and serene
You didn't just love my soul and person
Much more, you've allowed my dreams
Friday, June 6, 2025
It Never Stops
Moments occur when making war, people die
From the youngest draftees to older veterans
Each has an understanding of what they'll try
Knowing the cost of war will be paid by them
End of civil behavior, with savagery on the rise
We lose our sensitivities and luxuries then
From a distance easy to kill, even for lies
As lives are tossed aside, more on the horizon
War is proven to be patriotism in disguise
Only the bankers and weapon builders win
Except for those now no longer alive
Due to war they can't feel a thing
The void grows in time
Ever larger, ever full
Thursday, June 5, 2025
My Time on Earth
My heart has been broken but there's more
Knowing how worthless that I have become
Bleeding hope, embracing an invited scorn
My pain is constant, my heart is gone numb
Cry out without hope, my will to serve, torn
I've nothing more to offer but a remnant life
And a sorrow of one too old to be renewed
All the hopes lost to time, still in memory
In prayer hoping my belief can be enough
Save me for greater things, all my dreams
Wednesday, June 4, 2025
Escaping a Black Hole
You smiled, said hello, he wasn't used to being treated well
His life had been Hell, rejected and he retreated to a shell
Your kindness hurt him, he didn't know why, new sensation
He became too confused to tell you, about his life in Hell
But you felt his pain, knew he wanted more but couldn't ask
So looked at his despair with soft words, looked in his soul
Spent each day begging to die, was so hurt didn't know why
You gave him a hand, and lifted him up from a black hole
You were his anchor, and kept him alive, let him survive
Tuesday, June 3, 2025
The Void between knowing and not
A moment after laborers had successfully finished their project
Rockets and the ship, meant to penetrate deep into the cosmos
To be launched into an emptied void, null zone of life in space
Into far reaches of space, no way of understanding the truth
Life was predicated upon an ultimate need for information
Of finding purpose, knowing the face of God or circumstances
Who could ignore the questions or chance to have the proof
Life had become misery with forever asking, why am I here?
Asking, touching, to understand or learn an eternal question
Which left a body riddled with cancer, time for one answer
Who chose my path, no map, and why do I need to know
If life is divine, special, why do we have no ultimate end?
What was the cosmic mystery we needed to understand?
Because whatever the answer, I really need to know
Or my time here on Earth was wasted, in the portents
What if there is no message or purpose, we might find
What if there is no ultimate message to be sent
“The greatest thing in this world is not so much where we stand as
in what direction we are moving.” Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Monday, June 2, 2025
Broken but repaired
I am flawed beyond measure, having no destiny
I lived too little, in erased hope, wanting to die
Ages upon ages, memories and the lost legacy
Lost, I had condemned myself, unable to rise
In distant echoes of different lives, knowing joy
Finding the truth allowed my higher existence
Because constant pain causes mental hunger
In emotional starvation, I'm bleeding inside
As a self made fool, I yet survived suicide
Only love and hope could ever save me
In failure I knew, still, that love is pure
If I ever experience redemption
Found in the heart of my other half
I've escaped a death penalty
In her love, I am more
More than I could be
Love healed me
Her love renewed me
Sunday, June 1, 2025
Arthur's Way
Upon that great new day when the world felt joy
Young Arthur had pulled a sword from the stone
His bloodline and kingship being acknowledged
The King was revealed, a miracle for all of time
Through his reign, his righteous way was known
And it remained in minds, in dreams and legend
In the future, he will return, and lead us again