Traitor

You couldn't tell me just to flee
You had to then leave me to die
I had been your constant friend
But you chose to leave
My happiness then ended

In the End Everybody wants

Everybody
Wants their lover to be loyal
Every lover
Wants their love to be true
Every broken heart
Comes with a recoil
At the thought of the loss
Of something good
Of something pure
And worth the tears
Of the pain
Grieving heart
You can find hope
Again
The world is unforgiving
But my love is solid
And others might
Be fleeting
But I am steady
Forever
My love
Your spirit is woven
With my own
And the tapestry
We weave
Is created whole
From two hearts
In love forever
Together
What might be threads
Are silk and whole
Together they complete the fabric
Without flaw
Without any missing stitch
Making the work
One with its parts
And never losing its way
Again
However the world is
Whoever is rich
Whoever is poor
Love supersedes
When the soul needs

My name is Worthless

He was called worthless
And told that
He'd Never
Be worthy of love
From the first moments
Before even his catastrophic birth
He knew
From the womb
The world was not his home
Closer indeed, yes, to a tomb
His mother threw him back
Abandoned, and hungry
He was a foundling
Ignored, barely fed,
Told constantly to shut up
He looked upon this
From the very first
Circumstance, Fate, Chance, Disaster
And had to assume
He was cursed
But despite that
He never stopped hearing a voice
In the inside of his heart
That told him to ignore the fools
The world was a moment
Eternity is time without end
This journey whatever he was enduring
Was not where his journey would end
Instead it had to be a beginning
One without a view of a goal
Nor of the final days
Only a time of truth
All he had was that voice inside
The world around him
Told him that
He had been given to a land
Who did not love, who did not care
Who would not be moved
Who would not provide
Care, Beauty, Kindness
Or Time to grieve
So he knew
His home
Would have to be found
Far from this place
Even if this was
A simple taste
Of the world
That one taste betrayed
A world of
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gluttony

He could tell it was not home
Far closer indeed to hell
Albeit without the populace
Being aware surely
His home was far away
And his journey
Would continue

The Chains Opened my Eyes

They nearly won without a shot from a gun
I woke in a rush to the sentry's screams
As the tragedy had begun
My unit was ambushed
In our night camp
With great loss
Most were killed
Before seeing the morning sun
The enemy attacked
In the veil of the night
They'd killed silently
With cutlass and sabre
Efficiently, quietly
As if guided by hate
They killed the minister
They slew the missioner
Then homed in
Upon the tents
Of our guardsmen
Knowing without them
The Colony's nationals
Would flee
Those of us who fought well
Were surrounded and taken prisoner
Those who were dazed and slow to rise
Were killed before they could fight
Our defenses had been insecure
We were utterly destroyed
If it were a ship
The captain would be brought
Before a court and high commissioner
Judged guilty and executed
By the King's executioner
As the sole surviving officer
I was taken before the leader
Of the dervish enemy
Was placed in chains
I was forced to bow
Like a slave and was beaten
As badly as any master
Would beat his unrepentant slave
Who had attempted a midnight escape
My men received equal beatings
I vowed upon my return
I'd free slaves
Fight to end the practise
Because once humbled in chains
And beaten, and crushed in spirit
One recognizes the hideous
The odious practise
That depends upon such hate
As forever staining
Our name
As human

Invasion

We are bored by amazing things
Childbirth and death so uninteresting
We cannot predict what the future brings
We are not alone in the galaxy or universe
And still we long to ignore what we know
So many visitors from afar to our earth

Idolatry to the end

I believe that love is love
Only love matters
And that we are all fools
To imagine
We know better
Than the creator
When the world is full
Of difference
In ideas, looks, voices
There is life
That is beautiful
And only love
And hope matter
When we stare into the eye
Of the endless hate
We create
By dividing
Breaking
We make a new God
Out of our vision
Of perfection and become
Idolatrous to the end

The woman who is my lover

I'd felt the pain
Of loneliness
And so I made up tales
I fantasized
Ending with nothing
But the knowledge
That again I was alone
Since earliest times
I was aware
Of self deception
I could create victory
In my mind
Out of utter failing
So I became wary
I grew up in solitude
Fearful of rejection
Afraid to be broken
By love or anything else
She spoke to me
When I was hiding
Showed me attention
I didn't know
What was going on
I deeply longed for affection
But I feared being moved
Falsely moved
By that longing
So I was slow to move
Upon my deepest stirrings
Yes she is beautiful
With hair of red
and Gray blue eyes
I found out though
That she is the one
Who calls my name
I fell in love with her heart
Her looks unimportant
But thereafter
Every beautiful woman
Looked less attractive
Sans elle, je serais mort
Saying goodbye tore me apart
But time away
Only led me back again
She was my first love
And my only
I am hers
Unabashedly
Without shame 

The Mediterranean Great Deluge

In the basin of the Mediterranean 10,000 years ago
The poles collapsed, changed, changing the flow
The ocean floor instructive
Disasters are destructive
Worse than any human act to pillage
When the tsunami wiped out the village
More than one civilization had died
Generations of people lost in a strike

A Desert walk

You can tell people
That the world is beautiful
That it is a savage land
And unforgiving
It is a pristine blue marble
Set upon a star covered sky
Truly exquisite
But beyond its beauty
Beyond its primal core
Where people live
It is empty
And desolate
Where their world
Has been chained
Mutilated and enslaved
The world elsewhere
Refuses to be silent
It is eloquent
Simultaneously
Powerful and quiet
Without our awareness
Because of our ignorance
Human nature is perfectionist
We hate what we cannot change
We will become an artifact
Extinct as a species
Trying to change the earth
But until then
I am walking to nowhere
Where the world is delicate
Needing my soft hands
And nature
But I am alone there
And the desolation
Is my reminder
That I prefer
Solitude
Over
All

Ash fall

The ashes fell upon the land
The explosion made a fierce sound
The chapel was destroyed and stands empty
After the disaster struck
There are no stories to remember
This was not holy ground
It was a building to gather in
But now there is no town
To use the chapel

Buried Beneath the Waves

Following an earthquake
The land was flooded
A city of perfection destroyed
The wall of water sudden
There was nothing left
But the memories of the hundreds
Of citizens who had fled
The deluge

Is this it?

Forlorn
Hopeless
Given up for dead
There is no justice
No truth is believed
Until the sacrifice is bled
I am alone
Serving here
Behind the bars
Waiting for my release
Nobody's waiting for me
This world is dying
The children are crying
Innocent but not the rest
The world goes on
Without knowing a thing
Why it is getting so bad
When everything is done
By their very hand

Death by my hand

To be able to see the future through the past
Is a talent few have
But I do
I know that what I've done will fail
Why it will fall
Why I will die
Because what I do is cursed
My life was never what it should have been
And I have dishonored my name
Dishonored the earth
By being here
Without purpose
I am lost
And do not wish to be found
For there is no end
That is cleaner
If by my own hand
I take all the blame
I caused my pain
And I deserve it all
Between my fear and failings
I've destroyed any hope
And trained my brain
To hope to fail
Because I am
The end is within my hands
My fate is my right index finger

In the presence of the Lord of Annwn and King of the Faerie Realm

Whoever wishes to walk, into the Grey, to forget themselves

Whoever has sorrowed a loss, and has been betrayed, and needs help

Gwyn Ap Nudd is King
Of many realms
The Grey, The Faeries, The Dead

Where anything is everything

Where fear is simply a moment

And joy is forever

He is mysterious

But knowing

Dark and foreboding

But true

The Wild Hunt restores the primitive soul

And the feast following restores the union

Of society and beast and gods together

Throw away the chains that have tamed you 

Surrender only the fears, pains that claim you

Gwyn is the Wild Huntsman and is Master 

Of this Wild Great Hunt

Unleash your self

And throw away your civility

Become wild again, restore your nobility 

For you were born for more than being servile

Because this is your opportunity, the only one left

Be yourself, be who you were meant to be

This is the final step, to enter the Grey

In all the waking moments

And all the dreams and nightmares

Humans have ever had

Now is the sole time

The only time

Worth having

And being wild

 Love with every ounce of soul

Be, with your every moment

Know, because you are worthy

Take control

And then let go

(This is written about a pre-Christian era time in Europe particularly Celtic Ireland and Britain.  I am still a Christian, I am not switching teams, this is just to let the people who inevitably write me that I am fine and there is no need to wonder or worry.)

Waiting For Hope

The ship I was on
Crashed in a storm
The remains of the ship
Scattered into the currents
I was spared any harm
But I will die
The island is living
Without an insect
Or animal
It swarms
Until my mind
Is gone
Sup upon my flesh
Drink my blood
Cook me in the sun
Take my corpse
And bury it
So that you might know
I have become undone
Without violence
Marooned
Cast adrift
And forgotten
Alone
Defeated
Without cutlass or gun
Sun rising, fallen moon
I have become one
With the island
Day dreams, night terrors
I am alive and awake
Watching as my ribs protrude
More and more
Somewhere
Someone may care
As my life
Drifts
Like sand
Through my hand
But there is no hope
For a ship to save me
That is a hope
I will not muster or dare

Red Death's Masque

Death invites us to enter

But not all acquiesce 

Death offers to take our hand

Some are born to suffer

Others attempt to escape

The icy cold control

Death is like a fallen red rose

Once it has entered the ball

The masquerade party 

Becomes silent and still

While all are required

To wear a masque

For once death's face

Can be seen at last

Triumphant

He walks

Down the staircase

He shocks

He offers doom

As he enters this room

The party goers

Are stunned

For who is this?

Why such a gaudy costume?

Are we meant to fear?

Quite yes you are

Oh my dear

“And Darkness and Decay and the Red Death held illimitable dominion over all.”

Edgar Allan Poe

Memory

I remember the scent
Of every flower I've ever
Been blessed
To smell
I remember the beauty
Of every face that
Has ever
Spoken to me
So why can't I remember
All the things
That are good and pleasing
Like you saying
That you love
Me?

Theseus, One Made a Difference

There are stories in history
Of a single hero
Or ordinary person
Being the difference
One stemming the flood
Theseus meant to be
The one
He stood against
The king and his beast
A maze was kept
For the king's pleasure
A blood sport
Taking the youths
Offered in tribute
Coldly releasing them
Into a maze, a trap
Only to end with their capture
And slaughter by the beast
Known as the Minotaur
A hungry, clever, angry beast
With the head of a bull
And the body of a man
Until the next cycle
When it would happen again
Until Theseus offered to go
Despite his high status as a prince
He went in the place of another
But not to die, rather
To end the Minotaur's terror
Through wit and charisma
Through strength and guile
He defeated the beast
Ending its reign
As one to make a change to benefit all
Like others who did the same

Modern Society Arguments

One strives to tell us how there is nothing
So ardent and proud and loud
As if he has traveled everywhere
While the other says he IS God
So self aware and deep
One turns to science for truth
While another says only
By his interpretation
Despite his being confused
My mind takes in just so much before
I scream in terror
Or my mind simply
Bursts into a thin red mist
This world so frozen at the core
How can it function
Without love or joy
I am blinded by the sanctimonious
Empty displays by
The ironically empty
Commentators
If I take it to mean
I am meant to fall
Because one cannot stand
Against the many
Then let me fall
But let me be
Redeemed
By my being called
Honest
By those who believe

Lost in Dreams

 

Burnt to ashes

Then cast aside

Thrown into a crevice

The rubbish of humanity

Is laid and left to rot

My mind drifts

Off slowly I float

Into the ether

The silver cord trailing

Behind me

Softly the sand

It falls through

My fingers

The hourglass breaks

The river

The stream of time flows

Pouring over

Flooding through

And I return as memories burn

Somnum Exterreri Solebat

Dreams -  Insomnium

Drifting

Into the black

 

Falling

Blindly
Without aim
Into the emptiness
Endless black

Hurdling 
Into the abyss

Of memories loss

Entering senseless
Hopeless

 

Into a holocaust

Of souls tossed

Into the endless

Blackness

The darkness

My dream state purged

Sucking down
My being
To another plane

Of the neverwas or worse
To the nevercouldbe

How clever

How delight filled

Modernity would spurn

The Faer and the Angels

Edens and paradise

Elysium and its fields

The pristine perfect worlds

That we did not deserve

Not even in

Our perfect dreams

Exhausted

In a heap I crumble and collapse
So far away I am, yet I know
Your heart beats with a rhythm
Symphonies could never match
Your beauty stunning
Your eyes sparkle in the evening
As playful as kittens and mother cat
Spellbound and have nowhere to run
Longing only to be at your side
Life is far to difficult but its begun
I have no choice but to watch
As you spread your wings to fly
So far away
Yet I
Am not worried
You are magnificent
And will always be
Everything you are meant to be

I Bow Before My King

I am emptied in my soul

Compared to the bounty

Your heart holds

My being is meek 

In your presence

When after time

I am able to speak

I rarely have the words

To describe

My heart's longing for you

You stir my soul inside

All of the wonders

Of who you are

Your beauty

The eloquence

The vast depths 

Or your grace

You are divine

Beyond comparison

You define magnificence

Because of your kindness

Utter perfection

Your loyalty to me

Your Imperative mercy

Causes me to endlessly seek

I fall before your throne

Giving praise

I shall worship you

I shall give you praise

My heart will follow you

All of my days

In your prison

I tried
I tried to refuse
To be hurt and not to cry
But you are responsible
You never knew what you did
When you shut that door
And I
Never saw why
You could walk away
Without seeing
How I never would
Have said what you think
You say that I said
And now you are gone
Sending me letters
Saying you wish I
Never had said that
And I
Never did
It makes me wish I were dead
To be judged for a crime
I never would commit
To pay the cost
And serve the time
When I wasn't a criminal
And never would have been
What a shame
What a shame
And I am left
In the dark
Trying
To survive