The Poetry of Alex Ness

Six pointed blue star overhead

2012-01-29T09:50:00.004-06:00

They resist
Ideologies wrestle
No finality
Ideas exist
If fiction
If truth
Threats and provocations
With or without proof
Attacks
Information gathered
Decisions made
Response
Immediate
Fear
Retaliation
Cycles renew
War continuation
Oblivion
Anew

Operation Wooden Leg, Tunis, Tunisia
Deir ez-Zor Syria
Osirak Iraq Nuclear Program
Bushehr Nuclear Power Plant
Ain es Saheb airstrike, Syria
Operation Thunderbolt, Entebbe, Uganda

Midnight Guardian of the Sultan's Caravan

2012-01-28T23:05:00.002-06:00

With a thirst impossible to slake
A figure stands still, and watching
In the middle of the night
Right before the caravan is to wake
To travel before the day
With the heat and blinding light
Of the desert sun
A guard stands in the simmering wind storm
In daylight the storm will bring suffering
The sand above the solid ground
Still warm, upon his feet
The dry air and the abrasive sand
Feels like burning sleet upon his face
The heat that blasts makes men tired
Exhausted
Even after sleep
A brief blast of the ram horn
The alarm sounds
The Bedouin have surrounded the camp
And begin to attack
With little warning
Invading the dreams
Of the Sultan's men
And the caravan

Liars

2012-01-26T02:27:00.004-06:00

Poisonous minds
Decaying legacies
Deny the truth
Ignore reality
Question facts
Warp history
Your bitter lies
Your hard hearted views
Burn in hell
For your hatred
Of Jews

She was cold, and perfect

2012-01-25T01:19:00.002-06:00

Her name was Maria
And she stood there
Staring out in space
For the world given to her
Was beyond her embrace
She was bright and talented
But cold to the touch
With a heart of cold forged steel
She never experienced a taste
Of the world she was born
Of the world her creator made
She was created
For a purpose
Beyond the reach of fate

I support an industry of death

2012-01-24T00:51:00.002-06:00

I eat meat
I am diseased
The industry of slaughter
Of harvest
Has me
A customer of its killing
The dominion of humans of nature
I am a party to the choice
To be one
Who looks away
At the consequences
Of my hunger

Love is not a game

2012-01-23T21:39:00.002-06:00

Love is not a game
Nor can you win
Whatever it is you give
You should not expect return
Love is bound with pain
Fear and sorrow will be within
But whatever the cost
However much your lust may burn
You can find love
You can live again
By living
By loving
By giving
Yourself

I was Palmyra

2012-01-22T01:15:00.003-06:00

When I was young
I saw thousands of cultures pass through
Trading spices and goods
For gold
The Romans were here
Egyptians and Babylonians
Bedouins and Syriacs
Arabs and Persians
Turks and Greeks
All passed through my gates
Every people of every nation
Welcomed with grace
Offerings and feasts
And then the paths turned
The journeys stopped
The visitors left
And I slept
For I am ancient
But I will wake
In a future time
When the world is ready
For oblivion end
For I am Palmyra
And I will return

A Northern Storm

2012-01-21T22:08:00.004-06:00

The dragon ships move like lightning
The sails struck by the wind
Make the sound of thunder
Striking south from Northern lands
Rising upon the horizon
The sails strike fear
Into all who see this
Upon the shores
Waiting for the storm
To hit
The Norse are ready
To harvest their yield
The year passed has allowed
The Saxons to rebuild
The walls erected
A people formerly proud
Now quiver waiting
The Norsemen leave burning fields
Behind their harvest

Just once

2012-01-21T03:12:00.005-06:00

She was graceful, lithe
Glorious, shined
She walked by me and smiled
I remember her fragrance

She was beautiful and kind
I could tell as her eyes
Gazed through me
I became filled with song

But like everything else
She disappeared
And just once
She walked by me

Decades later

I can still smell her perfume
I can still feel her smile
I can still see her eyes
I can linger

Because so little in life matters
That one moment
Like this one
Will light my fire

Now and forever

The sorrow of existence

2012-01-20T12:31:00.002-06:00

No matter the joys that uplift
There is weight that pulls down
No matter the light that we seek
We scream, without sound
Life is suffering
Life is good
Life is fire
Life is wood
Relentless misery
Inexorable majesty
Life is
Without definition
It is to be

We Created This Hell

2012-01-20T01:30:00.004-06:00

Stacked like wood
For burning
The logs for a new fire
When hatred would live
There was no sorrow
No sadness
Just numb
Stacking the wood
In the ovens
The smoke rising
Humanity died
The morality struck dumb
For the final question
Would have an answer
The death of hope
Cancer
The human born hell

Open arms we are welcomed
By oblivion's embrace
We are the pestilence
We are the contagion
We are Azrael
The Angel of Death

In the Realm where Death Rules

2012-01-19T22:23:00.002-06:00

In a place far away
Unable to be visited
In sleep born dreams
Death is master
He reigns
The land is wicked
Rough and dangerous
Beasts hunt there
Without worry for modern weapons
To stop them
Predators hunt the weak
For the next morning
The dead are reborn
To begin the cycle again
Of hunters and hunted
Predators and prey
Death is uninterested
In frank discussions
Doesn't listen to prayers
For there is no escape
And the realm is his
With which to let
His pets play

Painted, Tattooed, Victorious

2012-01-19T19:23:00.002-06:00

(The Victorious Pict copyright and art by F. Lennox Campello )

Wild men
Tribe men
Dancing around the fires
Good men
Good lives
Fighting to survive
Following their instincts
Always trying to thrive
Flesh met steel
The Picts were brought to heel
Their ways flickered out
But our memories
Linger on

Fenced

2012-01-18T03:22:00.002-06:00

There is a fence strung around my heart
It tears my flesh when I pray
My spirit reaches out
But pulls back in dismay
Shredded tendons and skin
Blood pouring from the punctures
The fence shakes from the impact
My body wracked from the sins
The journey is now reaching terminus
The foundation weak in structure
The fence is my own making
I've ignored the instructions
To be
Now I am forsaking all
To hold my self in
Without breaking

Lost

2012-01-18T01:06:00.006-06:00

So empty and lost
Bleeding black inside
I am lost
All wrong
I can't feel anything
I am hollow
Like dying
Without vision or
My inner voice
I see nothing
I can't hear a sound
Why is God so silent
Is this unholy ground
Without true contrition
Is there forgiveness
I am not broken
But I've been broken down
I am imperfect
This is no easy journey
The path is hard to find
But if I keep on trying
I might avoid the flood
The deluge might be coming
But I am climbing the cliff wall
Perhaps I might just make it
Or maybe
This is the end to it all

Ten Tears Fall

2012-01-17T19:57:00.003-06:00

Ten tears fall
Before I catch them
You never called
After our time
You don't care
How have I been
Am I better now
Or am I still enthralled
By your face
Ten Tears Fall
Every time I hear your name

Resistance of my will

2012-01-17T03:10:00.003-06:00

Existence of my flesh
Neither negates nor proves my being
Resistance of my will
Is not offered up to be redeemed
Rather than proof my being is a jail
My soul is eternal
The flesh is the place of my sorrows
Tortured cries of pain
Rain down the tears
Let the ego flow
I am a moment
Let the wine of my blood be drunk
By those who sop their bread
In my ichors
When I am undone
Let them sup upon my torment
My limbs and neck may be severed
I do not desire to be here long
For the flesh is veil
Covering the doorway to forever
And I am tired
And I am done

So Beautiful, Princess

2012-01-16T04:19:00.002-06:00

I'd call it a dream
But I wasn't asleep
I saw, with my eyes
My own eyes
So I know my dream was real
But I can't decide,
If I was fortunate
Or cursed
For I'll never see
Someone so beautiful
Again
This being was perfect
So beautiful
Like a Princess
Who rose up
And walked towards me
Up from the waters
And shore's reeds
She was silent
With eyes so clear blue
She was more than I could believe
But there she was
Without words of my own
I just gazed at her form
For she was clearly from another place
Than this one
I was alone
And saw her
And she walked towards me
Embraced me
Touched me
Kissed me
Tears streamed down
For she was my love
Returned to me
And I was home
Wherever she might deign to dwell
I don't know what happened next
Was I asleep, but awake
In heaven turned hell
I don't know
But I do know this
I'll never see another person
So beautiful
So stunningly beautiful
As her

One Finger: 6:01 central time, Memphis, TN, 1968, April 4th

2012-01-16T03:22:00.005-06:00

It took just one
One Remington 760 Gamemaster
One finger
One hotel open window
Changed the way
We understood the world
One finger
Perhaps though, many hands
Took away a prophet
Who sought to cleanse the nation
To redeem the struggle
To condemn the hatred
And unify this land

January 15, 1947

2012-01-16T03:15:00.004-06:00

We don't know her
We only know about her
She died horribly
Severed, sawed in two
But she was a person
Living a small life
Wishing for great things
But never becoming a wife
Of the war hero
Or movie star
Or anything worth her while
Just a person
Deserving more
Than what happened

Bones and Hearts

2012-01-15T21:10:00.002-06:00

I've had enough pain to last me
Enough life lessons I don't want
I've been broken in heart and bones
And mind
I've had dreams that haunt me
I might heal
But I don't care
The memories last forever

No I Never Did

2012-01-15T19:22:00.003-06:00

I never touched her
I never kissed her
I never embraced her
Never even met her
But she loved me
Said she needed me
Said she wanted me
Said she lusted me
Something inside me cried
Because I never did
No I never did
And yet
I wanted it
So bad

Overwhelmed and overcome

2012-01-15T18:37:00.002-06:00

I've been overcome
I've been overwhelmed
By memories of you
I've dreamed those dreams
I've died in vain
Over and over
Woken in grass covered in dew
Alone again
Without my friend
The one who makes me renew
I still love you
I still love you
I've been dead since you've gone
I'll never be happy again
This flesh will fetid remain
I decay
I decay
I pass from this place
To one far better
Where I hope when you find me
You will kiss me
Embrace me
Touch my face
Hold me
And tell me you love me
Redeem me

It makes no sense

2012-01-15T17:53:00.004-06:00

I know, I know
It makes no sense but
Love is forever
Once I am there
I never leave
People flit about it
As if love is a trampoline
But I never can
Once in my heart
I never let them go
My love is true
Whatever they do

Steelyard Cemetery

2012-01-14T02:46:00.003-06:00

There is a graveyard in Bethlehem Pennsylvania
That holds the bodies of steel workers
And their families
Some never saw the world they lived in
Others worked until their bodies stopped working
Some never left the town they are buried in
The horizon choked in smoke
Was small for them

Fly Dark One

2012-01-14T02:41:00.003-06:00

Fly away dark one
Fly to some place safe
This world is about to die
The fires of Armageddon rage
We've slowly and surely committed suicide

Fly away dark one
We've brought this upon ourselves
Feel no guilt
No shame
For we have created our hell
This world is in pain

Leave quickly
Flee
You must survive
There is no need for you
To embrace
Azrael

Visit:

2012-01-12T16:06:00.001-06:00

Decide, Me Inside

2012-01-11T19:21:00.004-06:00

I am still dead
Still deciding
What I believe
I don't regret my life
I don't regret being alive
I don't worry for things
That didn't turn out
To be
The way they should have
Should have been
I could easily be
The one she loved
Instead
It wasn't me
No it wasn't
So this dead body
Remains that way
Far too much of this pain
At the core
But I don't regret it
I can't forget that it wasn't me
She choose another
Not me
And now I am back to dead
Like before
Nothing new
Nothing more

No Requiem for a Dying Man

2012-01-11T18:57:00.003-06:00

I cut myself
But I don't bleed
I hung myself
But I could breathe
I shot myself
In the head
But the bullet killed
My family instead
No requiem
For me
For this dying man
I will not be released
From his attention span
I took some pills
But they dissolved
Like the efforts
I resolved
To take
Some day I'll see
What I've done
But until then
It has begun
To fade
No requiem
For a dying man
No salvation
For this crying land
I did my part
Now I am saying goodbye
This is the termination
Notice
This is my last stand

no no no

2012-01-10T23:20:00.002-06:00

Slamming the door
Like some loud final word
Drowning the sound
Of goodbye
Reticent tears pour out
But I am not crying
I did that before
And you left then too
I never had a doubt
That you'd be gone
So I am just saying
no no no
no no no
Don't think
Don't feel
Just go with it
Just go

The Dust of the Passing Age

2012-01-10T15:54:00.003-06:00

We cannot see the mountain from atop
We can only see what is below
The valley of our sorrow
The dust has taken over
From the failures
Of our hand
We walk and are covered
The dust rises
We are smothered
By the debris
Of our acts
The world we created
Falls before inevitable entropy
And the world before our arrival
Returns
And the dust
Covers every single footprint
Of our debacle
Hiding our existence
And beginning anew

The Legacy of Prometheus

2012-01-10T13:33:00.003-06:00

Great Prometheus
How kind to give us fire
To light our imaginations alight
To fuel our growing desires
To control the flow
Of energy
To light the night with brightness
To move leviathans in the seas
How kind to give us fire
Prometheus was cursed for this
As were we
For children should not control
The fires of the Gods
For humans are not able
To deny their bestial voice
Unable to hold back in anger
We are inheritors
Of the fires
That burned this earth
That cursed this earth

"Kinship and companionship are terrible things."

“God help thee, old man, thy thoughts have created a creature in thee; and he whose intense thinking thus makes him a Prometheus; a vulture feeds upon that heart for ever; that vulture the very creature he creates.” Herman Melville

Spirit is Asylum from Flesh

2012-01-09T14:35:00.002-06:00

Dissection
Decay
Fecund misery
The pain of existence often goes beyond my tolerance
My flesh is weary, it hurts sometimes just to breathe
The cage of this body, calls for my release
Asylum is needed
A sanitarium for the weak
My flesh is broken
Cover my body with a sheet

You are why

2012-01-08T03:41:00.004-06:00

With you
There is hope anew
My heart stopped bleeding
I won't ever stop needing
You
When I sleep I'm not dreaming
Because all I think about is you
Sleep is filled with thoughts
Of holding you forever
I can't breathe without hoping
To draw in your scent
I can't see you without thinking
You are the one who heaven sent
Together
In your presence
I still long for you
In your absence
My heart beats but softer
With you I am redeemed
I love you
You are my reason
You are why
I want to be

Do what you wish, End it even

2012-01-07T12:59:00.001-06:00

Shout my name
Push me
Back me against the wall
Line me up for execution
It is my end you seek
But I heard the call
And that prevents you
From stealing what I have
I believe unto my dying breath
I resist
There is nothing to kill
For my spirit is awake
And I live beyond the flesh

Blow out the candle
The flame still lives
Blow out the flame
The fire still burns
Inside

End my being
I will return
Kill my flesh
My body passes
The dream still lives
The curse broken
I am unafraid
End it
Do it now
For what you think is killing me
Will be my birth

If there is nothing

2012-01-06T13:42:00.003-06:00

I am waiting to see if there is nothing
Because my life suggests that this is wrong
Mad irony howls, Cynical fate laughs
At the smoke of my burned remains
Choking my last breath
From drawing in
If I am alone there is no purpose
I know this is insane
But if there is nothing
No one cares, and there is only pain
So why should I worry?
If there is nothing
All I do is dust

My Heart's Sorrow

2012-01-05T03:23:00.004-06:00

The sorrow of my heart
Is not from love
But the loss

The pain of my life
Is not from wounds
But the cost

I reach out
In the twilight
Between Heaven
And Hell
This earthbound flesh
Refuses to learn
What it is
To be forgiven
So I struggle

The dreams of my sleep
Can never match
The will of God

The sins redeemed
Can never reach
My soul at all

For God is waiting
And I seek
And there I will find
The lover of my being
Holding open the doors
Beckoning
Open
Kind

"I want a heart which is split, chamber by chamber, by the pain of separation from God, so that I might explain my longings and desires to it." Rumi

Beauty most dark

2012-01-04T21:29:00.003-06:00

She was beautiful
But dangerous
Her looks would cut
Her voice would bite
She was alluring and yet
I feared her
For she offered me
All I wanted and
All that I might
Her eyes were stunning
Her body perfect
Her perfume made my ardor stir
But she was not my lover
But rather a temptress
Who made me burn
She drank the blood of the fallen
Supped upon the flesh of saints
Attacked the morals of all men
Desired us all to turn

Revelations 17,18

Not Soup, But Food

2012-01-03T22:42:00.002-06:00

A supposed wise man said
Marriage, however good,
is like a great bowl of soup
The best soup ever, even
But do you want this,
the same soup every single day?
Love isn't like that
Rather,
You need to eat
Do you want food
Or hunger pains
Love feeds your heart
Love is like that
Marriage is fulfilling
If it is about love
You get to eat
Every day
And eat your fill

She waits, in vain

2012-01-03T00:28:00.002-06:00

However fortunate her lover might be
Should he realize
She is waiting
While he is away upon some mission
Of charity or commerce
He does not see
That she longs to be with him
That her love is for him alone
And she waits
In misery
For he is gone
And she remains
Not knowing when he might return
And while he is frozen inside
For him she burns

Beauty

2012-01-03T00:19:00.003-06:00

Not that which is outside
For that is flesh alone
Not inside, for that is entrails
Function but not perfection
But rather it is in her spirit
For there she is alive
With the beauty of creation
Her spirit is woven
By the most precise hands
Her beauty is known
In every land
And I am hers
Without reservation
For she moves me
She does
Her spirit alone

With her

2012-01-02T23:54:00.002-06:00

Warmth inside keeping me safe
Soothing to my ear, the beat of her heart
Soft and gentle, to my soul
I am hers, entirely
With her, I am
Without her, I am not
The future may be dark
Sorrow may force me
To feed at its cup
But within her arms
I am content that all will be right
I am whole with her
I am content
And that is enough

Enter Eternity

2011-12-31T03:33:00.002-06:00

Eternity exists regardless
If you believe or not
It remains
Endless

It is a snake swallowing its tail
Like life coming from death
The cycle goes on
Without fail

From stars life came
The Anunnaki and Nephilum
The seed of knowledge
From deepest wells
The water gave life

And we sit in judgment
Over whether eternity exists
When we haven't the least understanding
Of the depth of the abyss

Give in

2011-12-31T01:37:00.005-06:00

I give in
Ennui rising
Acquiesce to the idea
Reckless emotion
That my days of purpose
Are dying
Determined devotion
Reviled corpus of work
Sick of trying
To get through this curse
Alone
I can't remember
My past a souvenir
I give in to despair
I flow with the motion
That what I do has no worth
The fire inside is reaching
A nadir of life
The dreams of living are dying
Far too much a burden
Far too much strife
I give in

Please

2011-12-29T23:43:00.002-06:00

On my knees again
Regret is toxic
To forget is impossible
To forgive is righteous
Surrender is logical
Viewing the circumstance
I have no chance
But to give in
Give up
Take the chance
That I am in love
Enough to be
Invulnerable
Bullet proof
Hopeful
Strong
Instead of wounded
Crushed
Foolish
And wrong

Traitor Time

2011-12-29T04:46:00.002-06:00

However many there are
You must be selfish
Hold on for dear life
Seconds abuse you
They do not renew
You do not get the lost back
Find and keep all you may
The end is always in view
So don't give in
Don't give up
Or you will stumble
And be lost
Time will always betray

Decay and Abandon

2011-12-29T04:32:00.004-06:00

Born by purpose
Used under its design
Decayed by its use
Abandoned by the minds
Who cannot restore life
Where none had been desired
Life never starts
Without hope and fire
Born of clay and fire
I rose from the muck
My life was fate
No such thing as luck
Insulted by the injuries
Nothing exists that wasn't perfect
Entropy claimed me
Spat me out as insecure
Decayed and abandoned
My shell was nothing but skin
But the fire that wounded me
Made the insides pure
Ignored and reviled
Running out of time and air
Will this shell be abandoned
Or will decay take me
And consume me in its lair

Watching me as I fall

2011-12-29T04:10:00.002-06:00

Your sorrow breaks you
Watching me as I fall
My abject ambivalence
Dismayed you
My hopes were chained against a wall
Disappointed by my failures
You gave everything until the end
I disgraced the name
From the beginning
How could you account for it all
How could you take the pain instead
You are just one spirit
I am legion
Your wings were broken
By my weight
Rest and sleep
Don't let it take you
Like it took me without reason
Who am I to blame another
For the sins I committed
For the acts I played
I was the writer, director and actor
Upon my own stage

Wind

2011-12-29T03:11:00.002-06:00

The sand
The wind blowing
Sky is nearly pure blue
The heat beyond endurance
The air so dry it hurts
To open my eyes and look
To see the view
Before me
I am entranced by the ways
The sand blows
Despite it not being alive
It moves
In patterns
Without purpose
But beautiful
The sand thrives
Under the mastery
Of the wind
Designed
With delicate hands
Unseen

You feed me

2011-12-28T01:15:00.002-06:00

I see the soaring seagulls
High above
Circling before coming down
To search for food
To sleep on the sands
But humans walk upon the shore
And the gulls lift upon winds
And I am aware then
That you feed me
I see children by the ocean
Stepping upon the sand
Running from the tide
As it crashes in
I taste the salt in the air
I feel the spray upon my face
I smell the ocean in its glory
I hear the cries of joy from the children
And God you feed me
You feed me
Every second spent
Outside of this moment
Is lost
For you are perfect
And your creation
Is beautiful

My Epiphany

2011-12-26T02:04:00.003-06:00

It makes me wonder
Why I go on
When all seems right
I feel so wrong
Sometimes the poison
Tastes sweet
Sometimes victory
Is more bitter than defeat
S0metimes I want to live
Despite doing things
Little by little
That I know will make me die
Sometimes I want to go away
Commit suicide
But you hold me in your arms
Even with just the words you say
And you make me want
To try to go on
Despite my deepest rage
Because you love me
I can endure
Because I love you
I want to be redeemed
So hold me more
Keep me in your reach
Forgive my worst intentions
Keep me safe and warm
Inside your heart
Inside your hope
You give me reason
To go on
Forever if needed

Ecclesiastes 4:12
Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Inundation

2011-12-24T21:50:00.002-06:00

Time flows but not like a river
Always moving
Inexorable but without aim
Simply filling every emptiness
It sweeps forward, backward
Inside and outside
Time is without our consent

Scrolls and tablets
Remember what men forget
Regrets and torments
of the killer torrents
Of the lost age
Of steel
Of the lost wisdoms
And learnings
Imagine the sorrows
Of a world erased
Civilizations rise
Fall
The water flows
The deluge grows
People die
As their world
Commits suicide
And time continues
To flow
To turn
To grow
To swirl

Ending the Day with Fire and Words

2011-12-24T01:18:00.002-06:00

Deep into the enemy’s land
A party of scouts
Dispatched by the empire
In a clearing
Discuss the day around a bonfire
Sharply speaking about the way
The battle would unfold
Against the barbarian clans
Tomorrow
The bonfire is comfort
The setting safe and secure
But the way of the warrior is flame
Once it raged now it licks at the edge
A staff is pulled back
The fire leaves blackened wood
From poking the fire the coals are still hot
The ash flutters upwards
The embers still burn
Despite the desire to extinguish it
Like an argument unsolved
Despite the lack of fuel
It still simmers
The warmth the fire provides, like the excitement
Of an intellectual debate and challenge
It is welcome
The danger of spreading, like the pain of insults
When reason is exhausted and intellect forgotten
It is feared
The fire goes on, simmers still
But in the warmth and flickering light
Deep into the night the party talks
About the future wars they’d fight
The battles they’d win
As one

Love can grow a new heart

2011-12-23T14:48:00.004-06:00

If you let love break you
If your heart dies
If you no longer believe
That love is alive
That love is good
Your heart is dead
It doesn't return
Doesn't fly again
Doesn't soar
Doesn't hope again
It is dead
Fully turned cold
But if you believe
In love
And you are broken
A new heart grows
Replaces the old
Allows you to breathe
Allows you to be
Alive
If you believe
If you believe
Love will redeem

Ice Storms and Dragon Breath

2011-12-20T01:07:00.006-06:00

In the frozen north land
With ice covered castle walls
And great fields of snow
Dragons fly above unchallenged
Mostly ignoring the humans below
The people shrug in fear
But have no way to respond
Shivering in masses
Without control
Their tiny lives move on
Entering into the communal flow
Once a generation it seems
A champion with courage stands up
Chooses to confront the dragons
And free the land from the cruel hold
The dragons breath ice without effort
The knight and party often fail
For the end goal is worthy but impossible
Much like trying to stop the wind from blowing
The realm of the dragons is haunted
By statues of ice of previous men
Who tried and failed to defeat the dragon lords
And are now frozen to floor of the den
Castle walls are a comfort
But do nothing to stave off the fear
Of living in the clutch of evil
For what has been a millennium
Of horror filled frozen years

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2011-12-19T17:06:00.005-06:00

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If You Told Me

2011-12-19T13:42:00.002-06:00

This life I lead
Is killing me
Living in a hotel
Meant for migrants
Barely breathing
Only bleeding
You know I've been living
Someplace away from you
So we don't communicate
Like we'd like to do
I miss you
And hate this place
This freedom isn't free
It is a jail, and a chain
Holding me away
So if you said that you loved me
I'd be very overwhelmed
Flattered and moved
But
There is nothing I can do
There is a story I could tell
Of a love that was broken
Of a man compelled to fail, over and over
Like some token sad tale
But I appreciate your kindness
Thank you for caring
If you said that you loved me
Thank you for daring
Taking that risk
But I am a mess
I have nothing to offer
I'll have that drink now
The bottle is nearly empty, like my heart
Thanks but I don't want pity
These aren't tears
Don't you know, they are holy water
Cleansing my empty, vacant soul

extinguished like a cigarette

2011-12-13T21:28:00.003-06:00

breathing in
filled with doubt
crushed my love
ashes to ashes
snuffed it out
like a cigarette butt
tears falling down
I can't help it
tears reach my lips in pout
now I know
eternal darkness
is raining down
upon me
the swirl of fear
the cesspool of loneliness
crushing me
tearing me apart
leaving me undone
breaking me
breaking my heart
eternal darkness
pouring down
it has begun
let the end
be

A Storm in the Desert

2011-12-13T01:04:00.003-06:00

You blew threw my life
With ethereal grace
Leaving nothing behind
But your fragrance
And tears
Like a storm in the desert
Or a black cloud in plains
Memories coat my heart
Like a dust storm
Causing pain
I never will forget
I never will regret
Your presence in my life
Refreshed my soul
Like August heat
Quenched by ice
But now you are gone
And I remain
Behind
Again

It is Me

2011-12-11T21:55:00.004-06:00

My desire is the flame
I caused the unholy fire
There are none to blame
But our own shames
If the angel of death
Azrael may kiss
It comes from within
Despite what we are told
Though the famed exist
In haunted memory
Hades watched over the realm of the dead
Pluto was King of the underworld
Lucifer was the accuser
His voice bled fire with a hiss
Satan was the impresario of sin
But they are not responsible
They exist but we created the place
Where our soul remains
We are the jailers
We are the makers of Sheol, Hell, the Abyss
We are the keepers of the gate
By our own greed
By our own betrayals
By our sins
By our hate

Asleep, yet walking

2011-12-10T00:28:00.002-06:00

Constrictions
Contractions
Asleep but not
Awake but dreaming
Somnambulism
Solipsism
Shattered mirrors
Scattered vision
I see her everywhere
She isn't here
But she haunts my sight
Though I see
Through the glare
Of the light of the fires
On eternity's walls
Her dancing
Asleep, yet walking
I approach
Dead, yet moving
I hear her talking
To God
But I don't understand their voices
Their words don't make sense
And then I realize
There is something blocking my view
Clouding my sight
And when I move to gain better access
There is only the fire
And my body
Shivering in the night
Alone

Red Storm Bird

2011-12-07T05:58:00.002-06:00

The winter was dry, despite the cold
But winds kept the living nearly frozen
But with or without snow
The wars went on
Crashing from the sky to above the plains below
The red storm birds hunted dragons
Who were made of steel and spit fire
The human toll was great between colliding forces
Trapped between the ire
Of fate and anger
Of hate and fear
The dire consequences of destiny
When titans clash
When enemies refuse to surrender
And death is the sole legacy

Foregone

2011-12-06T20:41:00.002-06:00

Born with a dream
Rejecting the curse
I was never made for living
Upon this earth
I was a beast of burdens
Not of labor for men
But for the world beyond
This world is foregone
Forlorn and despondent
The world beyond
Is worthy of this strife
This world is flesh and clay
The next is God spark
And life

We Must Remember

2011-12-05T07:14:00.008-06:00

We ought to remember
Never to forget the devastation
The retaliation and despair
We need to hold that
Tightly inside

We focus upon a single point and the distance from the present to the past flees
We ought to remember certain things, regardless of the horror
We need to be shocked and made to know what is truth
Through defeats or epic victories, we move

The darkness followed by light allows us to see the world displayed
In utterly disgusting detail, a world screaming in pain
From the war's rage

Tyrants and Democratic leaders
All are called upon to lead
War is rarely the correct answer
But it is chosen far more often
Than we need

The past is immutable
The events of it are complete
Despite interpretations
Regardless of what we read
Or are told
So find out for your self
The tragedies of the past

Winston Churchill “I would say to the House, as I said to those who have joined this Government: 'I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears, and sweat.' We have before us an ordeal of the most grievous kind. We have before us many, many long months of struggle and of suffering. You ask, what is our policy? I will say: It is to wage war, by sea, land and air, with all our might and with all the strength that God can give us: to wage war against a monstrous tyranny, never surpassed in the dark, lamentable catalogue of human crime. That is our policy. You ask, what is our aim? I can answer in one word: It is victory, victory at all costs, victory in spite of all terror, victory, however long and hard the road may be; for without victory, there is no survival.”

Adolf Hitler “I want war. To me all means will be right. My motto is not "Don't, whatever you do, annoy the enemy." My motto is "Destroy him by all and any means." I am the one who will wage the war!”

Benito Mussolini “Better to live a day as a lion than 100 years as a sheep.”

Hideki Tojo “The reason was the failure of both Japan and China to understand each other and the inability of America and the European powers to sympathize, without prejudice, with the peoples of East Asia.”

Josef Stalin “This war is not as in the past; whoever occupies a territory also imposes on it his own social system. Everyone imposes his own system as far as his army can reach. It cannot be otherwise. If now there is not a communist government in Paris, this is only because Russia has not an army which can reach Paris in 1945.”

Franklin Delano Roosevelt “I have directed that all measures be taken for our defense, that always will our whole nation remember the character of the onslaught against us. No matter how long it may take us to overcome this premeditated invasion, the American people, in their righteous might, will win through to absolute victory.”

White Out

2011-12-03T05:23:00.003-06:00

Can't see to get through
When the white is so thick
It becomes dark
All the flakes become one
I am blinded anew
My soul has become so sick
Trying so hard
The race is begun
And I am left behind
In a cloud of white
I am failing
Horizon so far in the distance
Flailing at the obstacles
Cannot see to survive
Blinded due to white out
And her love
Leaves me in further doubt
That I should try
To continue
Let alone win
Or even die
Exist
Resist
Faithless praise
Blinded by the white
Becomes black
Darkness
And cold

Death ain't so bad, its the stuff right before it...

2011-12-02T03:42:00.004-06:00

I am uncertain why I worry about dying
There won't be pain
There won't be failures
There won't be money I don't have
That won't be made
In the grave
If I go to heaven
That is great
If I end up in hell
I'll burn like paper
I believe in annihilation
So the problem is
As I see it
On this earth
This existence
Is pain
So give me booze
Give me vicodin
Give me something
To get away
Pain is the beast
That haunts me

Sorrow's friend

2011-11-30T12:39:00.002-06:00

I am moved by pain
From a place of belief
To existence
Wounded
Down and undone
I am not insane
But there is no relief
But for resistance
Alone
Against the black sky
Falling
Against Oblivion's veil
Fading
Hell is here on earth
Being surrounded by love
And by pain being held
Again
Watching your love pass
Before your eyes
When all you are
When all you have
Has been given up
And there is nothing left
Again
and
Again

necrotic time

2011-11-30T01:34:00.003-06:00

nothing stops the darkness
from coming at the end of the light
my fears rise in response
to the screaming dreams
that come with night
like ants marching
the footsteps never stop
inexorable entropy
time passes
while the children sing
anthems to the dead
who will never rise
nor bring hope
again
time passes
death laughing
while I decay
instead
time laughs
death is passing by
and I am flailing
in my sleep

Zong

2011-11-28T19:19:00.003-06:00

Delivering a cargo of humans
They were not life
But property
133 thrown overboard
For their monetary value
Ignoring their humanity
The poverty of the human soul
To ever have thought
That humans were goods
To be bought and sold
The worth of a single human
Should be more valuable
Than every single ounce of gold

"What is this claim that human people have been thrown overboard? This is a case of chattels or goods. Blacks are goods and property; it is madness to accuse these well-serving honourable men of murder. They acted out of necessity and in the most appropriate manner for the cause. The late Captain Collingwood acted in the interest of his ship to protect the safety of his crew. To question the judgement of an experienced well-travelled captain held in the highest regard is one of folly, especially when talking of slaves. The case is the same as if wood had been thrown overboard."

John Lee

Sisyphus

2011-11-27T15:03:00.003-06:00

I am Sisyphus
I am tasked with doing the impossible
I stare into the soul of mankind
I absorb what is divine
And mete it out in time
So that the lack of reason
The absurd results
Are combined
And life is the answer
To no particular question

“The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man's heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy.”
― Albert Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus and Other Essays

Labor

2011-11-27T01:33:00.002-06:00

What is the point of war
When one brother kills another
Every end of a bayonet
The killer and killed
Are workers
Children of a mother

A Russian child
An American child
A German child
A Japanese child
Are all made of the same flesh
Born by their mother's labors
And each child deserves more
Than war can give

Money cult

2011-11-26T03:21:00.004-06:00

Coin or paper green
Credit card or debit
Charge or cash
They feed
Lovers of money
Servants of Mammon
Compelled to obey
Their need
They worship their things
They desire more quickly
And they sacrifice themselves
Upon the altars
Of luxury
Of wealth
And of greed
Bowing before their purchase
Their plastic bought things
Their wasted chances
Their infernal chases
No one means to be this way
No one desires to be a whore
But no one knows
They live the wage
The money cult grows
For greed is universal
Those who have
Want more
And those who do not have
Envy
Unfree
And the cycle repeats
And continues
And the Whore of Babylon
Sits no longer alone
But is surrounded by
Everyone who lusts
For things

4 Horsemen

2011-11-21T13:27:00.002-06:00

Someday soon we will see the end
Entropy is all powerful
And there is destruction
In the soul of man
The four who ride
Will bring devastation
There will be an end to human nations
As joyful as birth
As dreadful as death
The end is coming
The end is redemption
The end is hope
We are on a journey
Filled with hope
Filled with wrath
We are alone
Upon this path
And the ending
Is final
Is true
Where the first shall be last
Is just

There will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. On the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea. Men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world, for the heavenly bodies will be shaken. At that time they will see the Son of Man coming in a cloud with power and great glory. When these things begin to take place, stand up and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near."

BIBLE, Luke 21

I can't help you

2011-11-21T03:04:00.004-06:00

I regret that I cannot take your pain
For you
That you endure it without hope
Because it never leaves
I am wounded by your suffering

You need torrents of rain
I am simply morning dew
You need to be rescued but all I can give is rope
You can't believe
Because you are in such pain

And all I can do is regret
That I am unable to be Jesus
Unable to deliver you from this
Unable to heal you or help
Forget

Don't surrender
Don't give up yet
Simple words yes I know
But they are still true
If I could change places
I truly would

I would do that for you
Because I've been there
And I can't get away
Either
All I can do, is hope

tear

2011-11-19T22:53:00.003-06:00

a pond ripples
with tears from God
crying
a frozen moment
of sorrow
for human suffering

Oh my Queen, my Elizabeth

2011-11-19T21:49:00.003-06:00

My queen
Highest above the world
I am yours
Obediently
I remember when I served you
In the palace upon my knees
To present my being
In humility

You laid upon silk pillows
Upon a luxuriant bed
Pleasure and comfort were yours
Immune to sorrow
For you had it all

Fine wines of the greatest vintage
Perfumes of exquisite scent
Jewelry and furs decorating your body
Your beautiful eyes, your alluring cleavage

Before leaving your presence
I said thank you
And passed through the door
I was a slave, I was unworthy
I averted my gaze
I stared at the floor
So I should not permanently stain
My memory
For after seeing you
I could not see anyone else
And be moved
By their beauty
After seeing yours

A Pool of Blood

2011-11-19T01:32:00.002-06:00

Swimming in the crimson
Knowing where it came from
And crying
But needing its power
To heal
By the blood
I am swimming endlessly
In the swirling thick
Viscous red wet
Of the blood
And I am renewed
When the blood cleans me
But sorrow
The toll I caused him
To pay
Nails to be hammered
Sacrifices to be made
I await tomorrow
And begin again
Today

One Flame

2011-11-17T19:55:00.003-06:00

"The most potent weapon in the hands of the oppressor is the mind of the oppressed."
Steven Biko "White Racism and Black Consciousness"

A single voice was heard
Made louder by his murder
A single life a single flame
The people remember his name
Biko, Bantu Steven Biko
Silenced by the state
Killed as a simple function
As a matter of fate
Biko, Bantu Steven Biko
A victim of inequity
A victim of hate
South Africa
Apartheid
One flame
Of rebellion
Would arrive
Soon
Millions of voices
Lifted high
Would spell the doom
Of Apartheid
And one voice
One flame
Biko, Bantu Steven Biko
Was the voice
That was the spark
Though silenced

My sweet one

2011-11-17T01:41:00.002-06:00

So beautiful
So sweet
So talented
You run inside my heart
In meadows never touched
By others
For you are perfect
Your words move me
Your beauty makes me sing
For you
Only you
I am able to dream
Your kindness
Your aura of gentility
You move me
Beyond these shores
Unto the ocean
Beyond the sea
You are grace incarnate
And you make see
Joy
And hope
And belief

How many dreams

2011-11-16T03:03:00.004-06:00

Although I am weary
The world is still beautiful
Although I am wounded
I have found the truth
Woven with exquisite threads
The tapestry of existence
Has still worn through
My dreams have not died
Although they shine less
And are not my life
At your insistence
I offer proof
The truth is not found
Begging for hope
It is not found
Begging to be renewed
It is not found
In forms of emotions
Fleeting and hoary
It is found
Living the life
Before you
Determination
Hard work
Life is a journey
Not the destination
I am amazed
Every day
I am filled with grieving
With every loss
I see the sun
Through the clouds
Though black
Filled with precipitation
I feel the rain on my face
Consider it gain not cost
For every moment I spend
Is one more than I deserve
Living is proof
Loving is a gift
Of the king that I serve

1918

2011-11-16T01:45:00.002-06:00

10 months 550,ooo dead
Not by bullets
But by germs instead
And now it is nearly forgotten
But it will be back
Mutated
Hungry
Ready to kill
It needs to be fed
And it waits
It is ready
We are not
The toll will be
Devastation

Renew

2011-11-16T00:41:00.004-06:00

I see you
Waiting
For me to make the move
To renew
Take my hand
Let me be yours
Again
Let us begin
Again
For this love within
My heart
Remains
Once as one
Always as one
Let us renew
The love that sleeps
But lightly
For it still burns
Its embers glow
And you hold the key
To making me
A bonfire
Burning brightly

The Widow

2011-11-15T03:50:00.003-06:00

To the core
She is the sorrowed
Filled with grief
Alone and waiting
She is wounded
Her body reels
Her flesh is torn
Her husband died
Her being grieved
One alone
Where two had been
Now there is only sadness
There is no relief
The widow is shorn
Her locks were her vanity
She refuses to be
Seen
A widow abiding
Waiting for her one
He will return
Before her life is done
But until he does
Until his flesh is remade
She is undone
And her will is fading

In the reeds of the stream

2011-11-13T17:51:00.004-06:00

Since the autumn came
The marsh reeds have dried
The sun though colder
Has taken its toll
The reeds are turned brown
But like all things
There is beauty in the decay
Like a woman older in days
With skin wrinkled
But has exquisite grace
Or a child
Turned from toddler
And a toddler's tumult and rage
To near adult
The turn of years
Ripen the youth
Into bravery
Outside of the age
Of his body

stupid

2011-11-13T03:56:00.002-06:00

The day you left is the day I died
Nothing to go on about
You ripped my soul, tore my heart right out
I won't commit suicide
You should have no doubt
Because you already killed me
With your lies
I still love you
I do
But all you do is make me cry
I still burn when I hear your name
But you took me as a fool
You made me hurt inside
You were evil
You were cruel
But always on my mind
So just go away
Just leave
Stay away from me
I am done for
I'm dead
But you should know
And I know you do
I was always true to you
And if you choose
To come back
Instead
Well ok then
That's alright
Just come back
And stay one more night

Cherry Blossom Falls to Earth

2011-11-11T19:34:00.003-06:00

Beautiful Cherry Blossom
Falls to the Earth
Seemingly slow
Yet steadily
Crashing down
To the ground
Below
The blossoms are beautiful
And sowing thunder
As they go
The allure of the blossoms
Seem gentle
So beautiful
But they are transcendent
Turning lives
Of humans
Into Thunder gods
Powerful
Crashing
To the earth

Inside me

2011-11-11T13:14:00.004-06:00

A prison exists
In your mind
Even if you cannot see it
The ruins of existence
Are not a place you can visit
They lay inside you
The decay of your spirit
It isn't death
Although you die
If you are alone in a room
Without other sound
You can hear it
Echo
Inside

11-11-11

2011-11-10T22:33:00.004-06:00

For the ones who left to fight
And never came back

For the ones who stayed
When the enemy attacked

For those who died, in foreign lands
When the invaders came
Or were cut down
Marching across the fields
Obeying commands

War is not the answer
But is reality

And death comes with that
So does victory
And loss
And the memories of that
Must be preserved

Thank those who deserve thanks
Regardless of the war in which they served
Veterans served

For a mother's son is upon either side of that war
In victory or loss
And they return broken
For seeing things
That should have never have happened
But are reality

Circles

2011-11-10T20:20:00.002-06:00

There is no beginning nor end
Of the eternal depth
No starting point no terminal station
For easy access
The circle is one line
Eternity is not a promise
The flesh has costs
Life is ill defined
Until there is purpose
Until there is knowing
Some seek the divine
Some seek to become so
But eternity exists
Beyond our desire
Beyond our search for truth
It lays out there
Neither waiting for us
Nor worrying
It needs no proof
To exist
We exist searching for meaning
It exists
Without our belief
Or need
It exists
The circle is one line
Endless
Beginning less

Why Survive?

2011-11-10T01:59:00.005-06:00

“Wild, dark times are rumbling toward us, and the prophet who wishes to write a new apocalypse will have to invent entirely new beasts, and beasts so terrible that the ancient animal symbols of Saint John will seem like cooing doves and cupids in comp” Heinrich Heine

Although blind of my eyes
I can see
The darkness is near
It approaches
It is without form
But it is inexorable
In its march
It is here
And from that darkness
Will rise
A leader of the world
Bringing the world the promise
Peace is within reach
But the world is to pass
Under his hand
His words are clear
Enticing
Moving
But the peace they bring
Cannot last
We've killed the land
Committed a sort of suicide
The new apocalypse will come
Armageddon's already begun
The last will die
As will the first
The earth will be burnt
With hellish fire
Hotter than the sun
The curse will be born
Upon the earth
The wages of our sins
Beckon our birth
This generation will be the last
We are waiting
The end is near
The people are retaliating
Kings show fear
The one shows his wrath
The wars will begin
The end is here
And I wait
For the end is the beginning
The end shows our path

murder of crows

2011-11-09T00:05:00.002-06:00

flying with purpose
they escape
moving between
humanity and nature
the world below is tainted
the sky above is endless
to fly without fear
to live day by day
no human knows
how to live that way

Wheat Fields Under Threatening Skies

2011-11-08T18:53:00.002-06:00

Violence approaching
The sky gives birth
The crows fly off
To escape the storm
The wheat is grounded
Unto the soil
As if cursed
The crows aloft
Fear nothing
That lives
But the winds
And rain
Move without life
Screaming through
Above the earth

Heaven and Earth

2011-11-07T01:49:00.003-06:00

I never thought I'd see it
Never thought I'd be a part
Of such a wondrous thing
Never thought I hold
Flesh of mine own
In my arms
Born
This world is pain
Filled with hurt and shame
This world is a cold place
But here I am living
Holding my son's hand
Embracing all I can
Because he showed me
More than all there is
In heaven and earth
By his being
Before him
I never knew joy
Since he came to me
Life is worth knowing
And he is my boy
My proof
That God is in heaven above
And loves
My son
My flesh of my flesh
My joy
Without him
I'd be lost

Against

2011-11-07T00:54:00.002-06:00

In the present age
We are asked to see the world
For the bigger picture
To see the importance of lives
Despite their being wasted
Thrown into the abyss of modernity
Even though all who live, will also die
We are not called to simply live
We are not called to die
But rather to be the ones
Who stand before the wave
Who fight against the empire
To save our lands
While evil rages
We are the final step
Before the devastation
We stand against or allow in the waves
Of those who invade
The empire of Persia conquers
While Greece falls
And when falls Greece
There is only oblivion
And decay

Rending to Caesar

2011-11-05T22:56:00.003-05:00

Give the one thing you have
Make it worth something more
You are bound by duty
To do this
For others you become a whore
Your flesh is offered
To all men
Your being is given
To the liar's den
This world is far from paradise
Yet you give up all you have
Including your life
Your flesh is yours
Your soul is bound
Your being is holy
Yet still
You give to others
What is only yours
You trade life
For something
That kills

Safety of the Hive

2011-11-04T14:51:00.001-05:00

No decisions
No thoughts of my own
I am one with others
Never have to leave my home
The mind is agreed
We all have our purpose
To contribute to the tribe
And be together
Not alone

Shaking

2011-11-04T02:07:00.003-05:00

Nothing like destiny
Echoes of the memories
My prayers cast
My fate lost
Desire turned to apathy
Hopes into the darkness
Trapped in oblivion
All the misbegotten legacies
I began
Shaking in this bleak place
The bitter wine I taste
My Babylon
Where all my needs are met
I am alone here
Without the hope to carry me
I will embrace
The end
For it offers a kind of relief
That living cannot
Finality
Sweet end

The Wars of Eternity

2011-11-03T23:13:00.004-05:00

Whatever side you fight for
Whoever you serve
In eternity
There is no surrender
You exist, or not
The trumpet call is already heard
No living or dying
Death means no existence
You are cleansed from being
No need to think about the future
You are present in forever
You are the absolute
The pure air
No, you need not remember
Because you are there
Where memories are held
Where dreams are made
Where the King holds court
And is bright and fair

I can't say

2011-11-03T00:19:00.006-05:00

The point isn't for debate, as it is clearly moot
What the mind dithers over the heart knows
There is no scientific equation,
No geometric or algebraic proof
That shows how much I love
How much I need her is without dispute
It is beyond my ability to say exactly
How much I want her is something less defined
But what remains is hard and proven fact
Without her I will crumble
Without her my heart will be painted black
I can't explain my feelings
They exist but resist definition
Without her I am left reeling
There is no reasoning
It is impossible for me to say
This love has meaning
Despite my inability to explain

Tired of dying

2011-11-01T01:45:00.004-05:00

From the beginning
I've been decaying
The clock started
Chipping away
Seconds from the whole
Living
Is a losing game
Trying to win
But destined to lose
I am human
We are given
Only so many days
Trying to be good
I Fail
Being forgiven
Is the only way
But it gains me
Not one more day on earth
However cleansing
The blood
The curse
The pain of living
Goes on
And on
Even under the cleansing

Of the blood
Dying from a disease
Called birth